I'm turning into such a little slut. A friend of a friend asked me out earlier this week, last night we went to see "Dumb And Dumber To" (only movie playing at our discount theater which gets movies a little late). Barely anybody was there, and after thinking about it the entire time, halfway through the movie I asked him how big his dick was and started feeling around for it and told him I wanted to see it. I gave him head right there in the theater, told him to tell me what a slut I am while I sucked his dick, and he did, and I made him cum on my face. I wore his cum for the rest of the movie, and I kinda wanted to wear it on the way out too, but I chickened out and wiped it off with my shirt when the movie ended. Still wearing the same shirt. He was practically shocked. I just texted him this morning when I woke up and told him I played with myself thinking about his dick all night. He hasn't texted me back yet. I feel like such a stupid little slut and I fucking love it.

I confess that I am a stupid dirty retarded trash cunt bitch, helpless and borderline worthless, my only ambition in life is getting guys to put their dicks in my mouth and let me lick their assholes. I wear the same pair of panties all week long because I like the way they smell when I do, and I've stolen dirty underwear from seven different guys to take home and smell while I fuck myself. One of those guys was my dad. I've been stealing his underwear for a long time. If I had one wish it would be that my dad would fuck me senseless and beat me like a stupid whore while he did it. I only feel worthwhile when I'm being used by men. All I care about is cock and feeling like I can make cock happy. I went to see Jurassic World the yesterday and didn't even barely watch it I literally sucked dick until I puked on the floor of the theater like a stupid little disgusting scrawny pig slut and didn't even stop then, or after he came in my stupid gutter mouth. After he came the second time, he made me stop, and I fingered myself in the theater like a pathetic desperate cunt with no self esteem and no standards and no shame. I'm such a fucking nasty little slut hobag bitch. Fuck I fucking love it. I'm so fucking gross and stupid. I wish I had a sweaty man butthole to make out with right now.

Yesterday I went to a Super Bowl party, it was mostly guys that I work with. It was pretty much all dudes, there was only one other girl there and she left with her boyfriend relatively early. I don't know why but I just couldn't stop myself from thinking about all of the dick everywhere and getting hornier and hornier and hornier it drove me fucking insane. Started fantasizing about just being a total whore and fucking all of them. Sucking all their dicks and licking the sweat off all their bodies. The more I thought about it, the crazier my fantasy got, to the point where I excused myself to the back porch for a cigarette and fingered myself under my pants, imagining the entire room full of guys hitting me and pulling my hair and beating my ass as they each took turns fucking me. I then deliberately spilled my beer on myself to try to hide the smell and the wet spot in my crotch. Smoked two cigarettes. Felt really shameful and slutty even though I didn't hook up with anybody, and even though it was really awkward and uncomfortable it just made me even more horny than I was before I got off out back. Sometimes I'm a mess, lol.

Saw a random hot guy at the laundromat last night. Stole a pair of his boxers from his dirty laundry while he was smoking outside and took it home with me. It was such a rush, and the whole time I was there I couldn't wait to get home and smell them and masturbate. Been laying around playing with myself and this strangers boxers all day.

So, I've got a boyfriend now, which is weird. First time since High School, and that wasn't even like a "real" boyfriend. He told me I wanted to be my boyfriend, and I was honest with him and told him I had another fuckbuddy and I didn't want to commit myself to one person, and he said he was okay with me sleeping with other guys so long as I make them wear a condom (which I do anyway). So I decided to give it a shot. I asked him how he felt about me giving other guys head, and he said it was okay so long as I know they're clean. So I asked him if it turns him on to know I give other guys head, and he said "kinda," so I sucked his dick and told him about how I sucked my other fuckbuddy's dick the other day, and he came so hard in my mouth I almost choked on it, and now he's my boyfriend.
Am I a bad person for wanting to go over to my other guy's house and get fucked in the ass even more now?

I'm a little buzzed right now. Forgive me if I fuck anything up.

So, today I admitted things to my new "boyfriend" that I had never admitted to anybody, not even myself. A few things that I had told people here on motherless and a few things I had never even come to terms with myself. It was pretty incredible.

I was sucking his dick and telling him how much I liked sucking my fuckbuddy's dick, and he asked me if there was anybody else's dick who I wanted to suck. I don't know what I was thinking, but I told him I wanted to suck my dad's dick, and he asked if I wanted to roleplay father/daughter, and I told him no, I didn't, I wanted to suck my actual dad's dick, and I told him about how I used to steal my dad's underwear from the dirty laundry, and I was just overcome with shame and nervousness, and couldn't stop talking, and kept going on about how I wanted my dad to fuck me like he fucked my mom, and after he came, we cuddled and talked about it, and I was mortified and embarrassed but it wasn't that bad.

I told him that I had told people online about having stole his underwear from the dirty laundry (I have taken my boyfriends underwear and told him about it, so he already knows about that obsession of mine) but I had never even admitted to myself that I had wanted to fuck him. Before I knew it, we (me and my boyfriend) were fucking, and I was calling him "Daddy" and talking to him like he was my daddy and telling him to fuck his baby girl senseless and saying some of the most foul, dirty things I have ever thought of while pretending he was my legitimate father.

He dropped me off at home earlier, and all day I have been sitting here regretting how disgusting I acted today (I haven't even went into detail about the things I said and we did), but he has taxted me twice to tell me how sexy I am and how lucky he is. I still feel embarrassed and ashamed though, and weird about the fact that I just had some of the best sex of my life while pretending I was with my dad.

I would never actually have sex with my father, but in a way, I feel like I just did, and I feel so dirty and nasty and sleazy, and it's driving me crazy. Fuck. I'm so fucked up.

SOME TRUTH FOR ONCE.

I am a pathological liar. Most of what I've posted here as personal experiences were lies. Not everything was a lie. But a lot of it was. I'm still a virgin. I've never sucked a dick or given a handjob or anything. I haven't even kissed a boy in years. I feel like a dirty fucked up slut on the inside, but I'm too shy and anxiety ridden to ever do anything about it. I don't think I'm ugly, but I'm not sexy. I'm probably cute. But I know that guys don't think of me that way. I'm mousey and quiet and awkward and even on the rare occasion a guy does ask me out I either end up bailing on the date or ghosting him but I'm awkward and terrified of anything actually happening. But I obsess over almost every guy I know. Especially my dad. I wear my panties and socks over and over and over again without showering because I love smelling them when I masturbate. I masturbate all the time. I think about licking ass and gagging on cock all the time. Especially my dads. I steal my dad's dirty underwear to smell all the time. I'm obsessed with him and I text him all day and I wish he would fuck me so bad. And I go through phases where I'll obsess just as ridiculously over other guys I work with or my friends boyfriends. Every time I meet a guy I'm imagining them slapping me in the face and forcing me to my knees, putting their dick in my mouth, calling me a stupid slut, like they saw through my facade the second they met me and didn't give me a chance to be awkward or run away. I make shit up all the time. Non-sexual stuff in real life. I come here to act like I'm a disgusting slutty little whore because I'm too nervous and shy to ever do it in real life. But I'm not a slut. I haven't even kissed a guy since I was in high school. And even that was just tame soft kisses. I'm so desperate and horny and such a stupid little liar. And I just had to admit it.

Sexted all night with my cousin last night. A little bit ashamed, because I'm not even really attracted to him or anything, but I do dumb slutty shit when I'm drunk, and I was really getting off to how much he was getting off to it. I came home to check my facebook to find 23 notifications... every single one of them being that he liked a photo of me... four of them were just pictures I took of my feet. So I messaged him about it, and he tried to shrug it off like he was just browsing Facebook (bullshit... some of the pictures were two years old), but I eventually got him to admit that I was really pretty. After telling him I like guys butts and I think he has a cute butt, I finally got him to admit he likes my feet. So I sent him a few pics of my feet, and we talked about how he's too shy to tell them but that he really loves girls feet, but that I have the prettiest. I started telling him about my fantasies about being dominated and licking ass, and the floodgates just opened... he told me about how he had fantasies of me dominating him for years -- humping his face and making him suck my feet and spitting on him. Normally I'm into feeling helpless and powerless, not into dominating guys but being dominated by them, but for some reason the power just turned me on so much, and I sent him a picture of my pussy and I told him I was gonna shove my panties in his mouth and fuck his face until I came all over him. To which he could only respond "omg."
I'm feeling a little weird about it now. Yeah, cause he's my cousin, and that's weird, but that's not even the main reason. Right now I really want to hook up with him. But I'm not really INTO him. And I don't want to, like, break his heart or something. But I got off last night too, and I kinda wanna get my feet sucked and get off on his face. Thoughts?

Thank you everybody for the encouragement. I'm fine. I like feeling like a shameful dirty bitch. Which is why it was driving me crazy. And I was kinda drunk last night. I don't regret anything. I do sort of feel like a load is off my chest, though. I've never told anybody my feelings about this before, and now we've been texting about it all day. Haven't been able to stop thinking about it. On my break at work I had to call him and have him talk dirty to me while I got myself off in the bathroom. And now I'm home and playing with myself again like a little fiend. I can't wait to fuck him again.

I have to say I posted this expecting responses like "what a whore!" and "you gross slut" and whatnot... honestly I'd be lying if I said I didn't post this looking forward to degrading comments like that. But I'd have to say I'm actually really surprised and impressed by the outpouring of support and encouragement from everybody. At first I was a little turned off, because it's not what gets me off, and I come here primarily to get off, but the more positive, encouraging responses I got, the more hopeful for humanity it made me feel. That people can come together over their appreciation of depraved pornography and still create a positive, encouraging community really makes me feel good about people. Thank you everybody for being so awesome and accepting.

That said, feel free to call me a stupid whore. ;-P

I confess that this week I've fucked two different guys, haven't showered since, and I haven't changed my panties all week because I'm a sick fucked up little freak and I love the way they smell. Wishing I had a man or two here to shove them in my mouth and fuck me senseless.

Last night I got really high and fucked a waffle.

That's probably the weirdest sentence I've ever typed. And it was probably the weirdest thing I've ever done. I made a couple waffles, drenched them in syrup, and they tasted so good, and I was so high and so horny, that it seemed right at the time, so I took one of the waffles and just started mashing it into my pussy and rubbing it on my face. I still smell like maple syrup.

I haven't showered or changed my panties or socks since Friday. I've been wearing the same outfit since Saturday. I drank and smoked and sucked so much over the weekend I can barely even remember who I fucked. I fell asleep topless in somebody's backyard Saturday night. Some how I got a black eye at some point. I've always wanted a man to punch me in the face while he was fucking me, I'm sure all that's all that happened. Then I spent the next two nights at my bosses place sucking his dick and licking his butt and convincing him I'm worth keeping around even though I'm pretty much a worthless employee. Took a pair of his dirty boxers and socks and I've been smelling them while I play with my clit and imagining being on my knees in the parking garage at the mall with him and all the other dudes from work standing around me in a circle and farting in my face. His sweaty boxers smell so good. I just "accidentally" texted one of my other coworkers a picture of my tits. Then I apologized immediately but asked if he liked them. Now I''m pretty much just dropping all subtlety and texting him "Fuck it, I'm stoned and I need some hard dick, wanna come pick me up, buy me McDonalds, and fuck my face in the parking lot?" before even waiting for a response. Still nothing. Sending him a picture of my pussy. Because I have no self respect I'm just a skinny little cumpig. At least I have my bosses dirty socks to put in my mouth and boxers to smell while I fuck myself. Maybe next time I should accidentally text my big brother. I can ask him what he thinks of his little sister's pussy and then lie and say it wasn't meant for him. Damn my pussy's so wet. My roommates are gonna be so mad at my when they get home.

Okay, so I'm a little bit of an embellisher. Give me a break. I'm fucking horny.

Holy shit, I don't even remember posting this. I was super wasted. lol jeez.

He was kind of trying to get me to come back to his place with him, but I made him drop me off at home. I'm not all that into him, not really sure that I need to fuck him that bad, but we'll see. I'll probably suck his dick again. He did text me back eventually, anyway. Told me how hot I was, etc. etc. But I'd rather hear how slutty and nasty I am. But we've been texting back and forth since. I asked him if he jerked off last night, mainly cause I wanted to see how he'd answer, but also cause I'm kind of fascinated by the idea of guys jerking off. It feels so weird being so forward but I like it. He wants to take me out to dinner Thursday. I've never really been taken out on dates, it's kinda weird too. I likes it. :D

Still wearing them. Sort of seeing how long I can wear them before I cave and put on a clean pair. I smell like such a nasty little cunt. I love getting on the bus and knowing everybody around me can smell my dirty pussy and knowing they're probably looking at me and thinking "That is one filthy bitch." Been smelling them and playing with myself since I got home from work. They're all crusty and gross. I want to wear them to my parents house on Christmas. I'm so fucked up.

I don't have any fantasies about my mother. I'm not really into girls, though. But I do love the idea of my dad fucking me behind my mother's back, and liking my pussy more than hers. And the idea of whispering "Fuck me like you fucked my mom" into my daddy's ear as he slides his cock inside of me.

I wish I had a big bottle of man sweat to just sip off of all day. Maybe mix a little vodka in there. They should sell that shit in stores. I would buy it all day. They could even have different flavors. Armpit flavor. Gym short flavor. Sweaty Balls flavor. Soggy ass flavor. lol lemme stop.

A perfect Friday night for an awkward wannabe slut... I'm too shy to go out and actually get some dick, but I don't even care. I stopped by to see my dad today, dug some hair out of his shower drain, and took a pair of boxers from his dirty laundry. I can smell his sweaty butt all over them and I fucking love it, it gives me fucking goosebumps. I've been wearing the same socks and panties myself for the last three days and haven't showered all week and they're getting pretty nasty. My room smells like a dirty pussy. My roommate is out of town for the weekend and let me borrow his laptop, and I've got a fresh bag of weed and a twelve pack of PBR and I'm ready to watch fucked up porn and smell my dad's butt and my crusty panties and play with my pussy all night. If I wasn't such a pussy I'd call up every guy I know and tell them to get over here so I can suck all their dicks. And if I really wasn't such a pussy I'd call my dad and tell him to get over here so I can bury my face in his big manly balls until he spills some brothers and sisters into my hair. Fuck I feel fucked up. Somebody give me some fucked up questions to answer. I'm horny and bored and stoned. >;)