That's me. :D

I don't have any fantasies about my mother. I'm not really into girls, though. But I do love the idea of my dad fucking me behind my mother's back, and liking my pussy more than hers. And the idea of whispering "Fuck me like you fucked my mom" into my daddy's ear as he slides his cock inside of me.

I have to say I posted this expecting responses like "what a whore!" and "you gross slut" and whatnot... honestly I'd be lying if I said I didn't post this looking forward to degrading comments like that. But I'd have to say I'm actually really surprised and impressed by the outpouring of support and encouragement from everybody. At first I was a little turned off, because it's not what gets me off, and I come here primarily to get off, but the more positive, encouraging responses I got, the more hopeful for humanity it made me feel. That people can come together over their appreciation of depraved pornography and still create a positive, encouraging community really makes me feel good about people. Thank you everybody for being so awesome and accepting.

That said, feel free to call me a stupid whore. ;-P

No, he's only a few years older than me.

Thank you everybody for the encouragement. I'm fine. I like feeling like a shameful dirty bitch. Which is why it was driving me crazy. And I was kinda drunk last night. I don't regret anything. I do sort of feel like a load is off my chest, though. I've never told anybody my feelings about this before, and now we've been texting about it all day. Haven't been able to stop thinking about it. On my break at work I had to call him and have him talk dirty to me while I got myself off in the bathroom. And now I'm home and playing with myself again like a little fiend. I can't wait to fuck him again.

I'm a little buzzed right now. Forgive me if I fuck anything up.

So, today I admitted things to my new "boyfriend" that I had never admitted to anybody, not even myself. A few things that I had told people here on motherless and a few things I had never even come to terms with myself. It was pretty incredible.

I was sucking his dick and telling him how much I liked sucking my fuckbuddy's dick, and he asked me if there was anybody else's dick who I wanted to suck. I don't know what I was thinking, but I told him I wanted to suck my dad's dick, and he asked if I wanted to roleplay father/daughter, and I told him no, I didn't, I wanted to suck my actual dad's dick, and I told him about how I used to steal my dad's underwear from the dirty laundry, and I was just overcome with shame and nervousness, and couldn't stop talking, and kept going on about how I wanted my dad to fuck me like he fucked my mom, and after he came, we cuddled and talked about it, and I was mortified and embarrassed but it wasn't that bad.

I told him that I had told people online about having stole his underwear from the dirty laundry (I have taken my boyfriends underwear and told him about it, so he already knows about that obsession of mine) but I had never even admitted to myself that I had wanted to fuck him. Before I knew it, we (me and my boyfriend) were fucking, and I was calling him "Daddy" and talking to him like he was my daddy and telling him to fuck his baby girl senseless and saying some of the most foul, dirty things I have ever thought of while pretending he was my legitimate father.

He dropped me off at home earlier, and all day I have been sitting here regretting how disgusting I acted today (I haven't even went into detail about the things I said and we did), but he has taxted me twice to tell me how sexy I am and how lucky he is. I still feel embarrassed and ashamed though, and weird about the fact that I just had some of the best sex of my life while pretending I was with my dad.

I would never actually have sex with my father, but in a way, I feel like I just did, and I feel so dirty and nasty and sleazy, and it's driving me crazy. Fuck. I'm so fucked up.

So, I've got a boyfriend now, which is weird. First time since High School, and that wasn't even like a "real" boyfriend. He told me I wanted to be my boyfriend, and I was honest with him and told him I had another fuckbuddy and I didn't want to commit myself to one person, and he said he was okay with me sleeping with other guys so long as I make them wear a condom (which I do anyway). So I decided to give it a shot. I asked him how he felt about me giving other guys head, and he said it was okay so long as I know they're clean. So I asked him if it turns him on to know I give other guys head, and he said "kinda," so I sucked his dick and told him about how I sucked my other fuckbuddy's dick the other day, and he came so hard in my mouth I almost choked on it, and now he's my boyfriend.
Am I a bad person for wanting to go over to my other guy's house and get fucked in the ass even more now?

I love when guys talk to me like that. Next time I'm giving somebody head I'm going to have them call me retarded. I like acting like a hooker for attention, it feels good. The whole gym thing... are you implying that I'm fat? I'm not fat, I'm actually really skinny. So you didn't really hurt my feelings. But I like when men hurt my feelings, so feel free to try again. :)

He was kind of trying to get me to come back to his place with him, but I made him drop me off at home. I'm not all that into him, not really sure that I need to fuck him that bad, but we'll see. I'll probably suck his dick again. He did text me back eventually, anyway. Told me how hot I was, etc. etc. But I'd rather hear how slutty and nasty I am. But we've been texting back and forth since. I asked him if he jerked off last night, mainly cause I wanted to see how he'd answer, but also cause I'm kind of fascinated by the idea of guys jerking off. It feels so weird being so forward but I like it. He wants to take me out to dinner Thursday. I've never really been taken out on dates, it's kinda weird too. I likes it. :D

I'm turning into such a little slut. A friend of a friend asked me out earlier this week, last night we went to see "Dumb And Dumber To" (only movie playing at our discount theater which gets movies a little late). Barely anybody was there, and after thinking about it the entire time, halfway through the movie I asked him how big his dick was and started feeling around for it and told him I wanted to see it. I gave him head right there in the theater, told him to tell me what a slut I am while I sucked his dick, and he did, and I made him cum on my face. I wore his cum for the rest of the movie, and I kinda wanted to wear it on the way out too, but I chickened out and wiped it off with my shirt when the movie ended. Still wearing the same shirt. He was practically shocked. I just texted him this morning when I woke up and told him I played with myself thinking about his dick all night. He hasn't texted me back yet. I feel like such a stupid little slut and I fucking love it.

Still wearing them. Sort of seeing how long I can wear them before I cave and put on a clean pair. I smell like such a nasty little cunt. I love getting on the bus and knowing everybody around me can smell my dirty pussy and knowing they're probably looking at me and thinking "That is one filthy bitch." Been smelling them and playing with myself since I got home from work. They're all crusty and gross. I want to wear them to my parents house on Christmas. I'm so fucked up.

Fuck yes, having a guy just sit on my face is one of my most common fantasies. I want a guy to just sit down on my face and ignore me while he plays X-Box or something. For like an hour. While I just suffocate on that amazing manly smell. I'm such a nasty little bitch.

I confess that this week I've fucked two different guys, haven't showered since, and I haven't changed my panties all week because I'm a sick fucked up little freak and I love the way they smell. Wishing I had a man or two here to shove them in my mouth and fuck me senseless.

Damn, why aren't we friends? PM me. :3

Holy shit, I don't even remember posting this. I was super wasted. lol jeez.

I confess that I am a pathetic bitch who wants nothing more than to get beat the fuck up and used by a bunch of men and left a sobbing mess. I want to get dragged around by my hair, thrown to the ground, kicked in the stomach, kneed in my cunt, and punched in the face. I want them to laugh at me and tell me I'm stupid and ugly as they beat my tits until they're purple. I want them to take turns raping my asshole as they relentlessly punch me in the back and rub my face into the dirty floor. I want to be covered in bruises and welts when they're finished, I want a black eye, I don't want to be able to stand up afterwards without somebody's help. I want them to destroy my psyche and ruin me physically. Some days it's all i can think about.

I ask myself the same question daily. :-P What the fuck is wrong with me? I can't help it, the smell of man drives me insane.

Saw a random hot guy at the laundromat last night. Stole a pair of his boxers from his dirty laundry while he was smoking outside and took it home with me. It was such a rush, and the whole time I was there I couldn't wait to get home and smell them and masturbate. Been laying around playing with myself and this strangers boxers all day.

Yesterday I went to a Super Bowl party, it was mostly guys that I work with. It was pretty much all dudes, there was only one other girl there and she left with her boyfriend relatively early. I don't know why but I just couldn't stop myself from thinking about all of the dick everywhere and getting hornier and hornier and hornier it drove me fucking insane. Started fantasizing about just being a total whore and fucking all of them. Sucking all their dicks and licking the sweat off all their bodies. The more I thought about it, the crazier my fantasy got, to the point where I excused myself to the back porch for a cigarette and fingered myself under my pants, imagining the entire room full of guys hitting me and pulling my hair and beating my ass as they each took turns fucking me. I then deliberately spilled my beer on myself to try to hide the smell and the wet spot in my crotch. Smoked two cigarettes. Felt really shameful and slutty even though I didn't hook up with anybody, and even though it was really awkward and uncomfortable it just made me even more horny than I was before I got off out back. Sometimes I'm a mess, lol.