O.o hmmm... i hadn't thought of that... *imagination starts up again*

Thank you, Yung... and you're welcome.

my explorations began online also... you will find your way. Be patient, connect with like minded people, read (a lot) about the
D/s lifestyle...network with other Doms and perhaps find a mentor...chat with Doms and submissives, you can learn from both.
Just as control turns you on, surrendering to your control will turn someone else on. Be responsible and true to yourself.

You will know when it's time to step out. i hope you find your own place and someone to share it with. :)

Did i? i like that, Ky.
i also very much like that you're playing scenarios about me in your mind.

i love to lose myself... to sink, as i call it, into my lustful indulgences...

When i think about being discovered, i would like to say i would keep playing...
i would want to watch them be excited by my exposure and pleasure...
i don't want to cover up... i want to be free enough to continue without hesitation.

If they come in and close the door...well, that would require another confession. :)

No, i am not... it may seem odd, i know, but i just haven't taken that plunge.
How do You think it may be helpful for me?

*smiling* Thank you, Ky :)

You don't need to have experience to enjoy what i share and possibly be aroused by it or maybe
even inspired to explore it for yourself. i like to read the experiences of others too.

i was not completely naked... i had my pants down around my ankles and i had placed a toilet seat
cover on the floor for me to sit on. i enjoy the way it feels to be on the floor... that it feels dirty, but
i felt that covering the floor was the right thing to do in this case, to be cautious.

i agree, i may eventually be completely undressed... i can plan ahead for that with easier clothes and
shoes to get in and out of. This was spontaneous, driven by my hunger, and i didn't plan it at all.
i am not yet ready to be seen, if ever... i am an avid voyeur and prefer to listen to and watch others.

i am getting the impression that you would love it if i got caught! *wink*

You're most welcome, Ky...and thank you for your friendship. i am happy you enjoyed my confession.
i assure you, it's completely real...it was just this past Monday night. Something followed it the next night...but i am saving that for another confession... (teaser alert)

You said something critical here, "To willingly take yourself past the point of humiliation you might have felt before and just submit yourself to your own urges..."

Did you see this quote in my profile? "A slave (or submissive) submits primarily to her own nature… That she requires a material, extrovert focus for her submission, i.e. the Dominant, does not alter the fact that on the spiritual level her submission is essentially introverted. One could say that through the Dominant she submits to herself by proxy…"
[partial quote, edited for illustration here]

We could have an entire discussion based on this quote and your comment, but... i mention it because it is the core truth of how i came to the place to embrace the freedom to play like that at all. It was my own nature (my urges, as you said) that i submitted to that night... and yes, it felt intense. Do i have an "extrovert focus" for my submission? Yes... but that is not the focus of my confession... and you saw that.

There were women moving in and out of the bathroom the entire time. i stayed so very quiet...but perhaps, one day in another setting, i will feel free enough to allow myself to make sounds, no matter who is present. i didn't cum, but i am working toward being comfortable enough and staying long enough to make that happen.

It's great that you want to hear more...and you will. i am considering how to safely experience a men's room adventure :)

Thank you, Inq! :D

You're right, creativity and a little bit of bravery... but, i knew i was safe. A new place definitely enhances the experience.
Yes, i am exploring on my own without any orders or instructions from a Dom... but... i do have "inspirations"...
i have been taken (led) in this direction where my hungers can surface... but, in a way that allows me to explore it for myself, in my own way, without direction, just an enjoyable amount of encouragement. i am more in touch with my genuine self, both as a female and a submissive than i have ever been before.

That place in my imagination? It's where my darkness lies...

i was very, very quiet... but, when i knew i was alone, you could hear my heavy breathing echo off the walls...

This is my first ML confession... and i welcome intelligent comments, feedback and shared experiences.

Within the last month or so...some things have been changing in my path as a submissive.
i have increased hungers... my fetishes are intensifying... and i am giving in to my cravings in new ways.

i am doing things i have never done before, privately, on my own.
No one is ordering me to do them... they are coming from within me... like a physical manifestation of my lust.

i confess that this week, i masturbated myself on a dirty, public bathroom floor to express some of that lust...
i sat on the floor in a large stall, in a corner, with my legs open to touch myself.
i let my imagination take me to a place that always affects my body and i rubbed my clit...

i liked it. i want to do it again...and again...
It felt dirty and whorish and desperate... i was safe but i felt vulnerable.
i was surprised how deeply i enjoyed it and how much i want to keep doing it.

Now, it's like...i need it... it's erotic and freeing. Expression of our desires and sexuality can happen anywhere, anytime. We just need to allow ourselves to make it happen... to indulge.
i wonder what i will try next...

She's gorgeous..

my favorite part is that you said she sucked the soul out of your dick. Thank you for sharing... but... i wonder, does your girlfriend usually take care of your needs?

i like it, i wanted to see more :)

i do :)

LOL hilarious

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