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14 Dec 2009 4:22PM
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I want to kill myself. I hate my life. I hate myself. I even seem to hate God at times. The problem is, I care too much about the people in my life to go through with suicide; I love my girlfriend, my friends, and my parents too much to put that sort of stress on them. Recently, a friend of mine, but more so of my friends shot and killed himself, so that's an extra reason "be strong" for the sake of everyone else.

I do own a nice rifle, and have access to several other firearms I could use to splatter my brains upon the wall. But who would find me, and how would that person feel? I just can't get over that. I've been praying to God, asking Him to kill me swiftly somehow, but I know that probably won't happen.

Why am I so despondent though? Well, I seem to have inheirited all the rejected slough from my ancestry despite the odds being dramatically against it. All the foulness from some ancestor's"deviation", shall we say, from all that is proud and couth. This causes my hatred for success.

Maybe I'll stop rambling and just do it

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14 Dec 2009 4:27PM

Do it faggot.

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14 Dec 2009 4:28PM

There is no God. Inheritance is solely based on the genetic material, not transgressions, of your ancestors.

Depression is simply a matter of chemicals in the brain functioning abnormally.

In 100 years, no one will care if you live or die right now. However, once you kill yourself, that's it. You will never have fun again. Isn't fun worth a little pain?

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17 Dec 2009 2:39PM

thier is a GOD motherfucker!

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14 Dec 2009 4:32PM

totally, dont do it, theres a lot to live for!

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14 Dec 2009 4:35PM

I agree with the first comment, stop being such a coward and just do it already. Trust me none of the people that matter to you honestly care and God doesn't give two shits either.

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14 Dec 2009 4:36PM

That's bullshit. You can't just say "there's a lot to live for!" and expect it to mean something. People suffer. Some of us live relatively comfortable lives, but suffer from brain defects. Most of the population of the world (literally most) live in squalor and despair and pain. What do they have to live for? Starvation and rape don't make life worth living.

You arrogant piece of shit.

OP: seriously, if you're on the fence, you're not suicidal. If you could somehow maintain consciousness after death, you'd almost certainly regret killing yourself. Realize that all pain is temporary and just live through it. Things will probably be better in the future. You won't know unless you get there.

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14 Dec 2009 4:43PM

Yes, I agree with the fact that if you were to retain consciousness after death, you would terribly regret killing yourself. If you have love in your heart, as you say you do, you must not do it. Live to love, to help and to nurture, and in turn, you will receive the same. It may not be abundantly clear, but you will. It's nature.

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14 Dec 2009 4:46PM

Nature is emotionless and chaotic. People have a tendency to reward kindness with kindness, but nothing binds them to do so. Why do you think parents tell their kids not to go anywhere with strangers? The world doesn't care one way or another.

Get real, you fuckers. Suicidal individuals don't need sweet words and reassurances, they need some perspective. We aren't born with the concept of death or of time, and it's hard for some people to cope with them.

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14 Dec 2009 5:01PM

Suicide is a sin so you will go to hell. Wait a minute there has to be a God for a hell to exist. I guess you are in the clear.

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14 Dec 2009 5:09PM

Either do it or don't. Life is meaningless, it's up to you to make your own path. If you care about your path, go talk to someone about your fucking problems, or don't.

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14 Dec 2009 5:09PM

I can't say that I understand your situation from a handful of sentences but I agree with several previous statements to some degree. If you're questioning so much whether or not you should do it, then there are some very solid reasons in your mind for not doing such, even if you play them down. And yea, a lot of life sucks ass for a lot of people, but that doesn't mean it always will or that it's not worth seeing what's next for you. However, I don't believe that suicide is a cowards way out, but I wouldn't imagine many situations in which it was the definite "best" way to deal with whatever shit is going on in your life.
If you're asking the opinions of strangers in a forum then you obviously want to talk to someone rather than jumping into it. Take some time to figure out what you really want. There is no reason that you have to decide immediately.

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14 Dec 2009 5:11PM

Just go out and rape your mother and girlfriend and then they wont care.

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15 Dec 2009 4:12AM

i killed my self last week. it was not that great tell you the truth.

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15 Dec 2009 12:04PM

No way man. DONT DO IT! Ive been there before and believe me. Its only a phase and things get better with time. Ive seen people that really deserved to die that should have killed themselves long time ago, and yet the still live their life as if nothings wrong.

Whenever my life is bad, I think about people who's in prison with no chance of parole. Or cancer patients, little kids with terminaly ill dieseases. Ya know, people with REAL PROBLEMS. Yet they continue to fight and live on. I know that i dont know your whole situation but chances are if your not bed ridden with some horrible diesease and in a ton of pain or murdered a ton of people. You have a reason to live on and continue your life. And thats just the truth!

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16 Dec 2009 6:21PM

i really hope your not wasting my time....ok just find something to live for someone to take care of and dont have sex allway try to be nice...thats what i do and im still here tust me its better that way if you wanna burn your self remeber that i love you if you wanna cut your self remeber that i love you if you wanna kill your self remeber that i love you

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16 Dec 2009 7:02PM

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16 Dec 2009 6:44PM

LOL, its called your a pussy who cant deal with his life, just live with yourself..........

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17 Dec 2009 1:40AM

Do it and record it and post it here.

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18 Mar 2011 5:16PM

not going to be possible

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17 Dec 2009 10:30AM

think of all the pussy you will be missing out on in life

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19 Dec 2009 2:49PM

God doesn't exist old son, it's all a state of mind.
Get yourself sorted, fuck some lasses and enjoy life.

Archie Watts
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Scotland

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22 Dec 2009 10:46PM

This.

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22 Dec 2009 10:47PM

or this

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22 Dec 2009 10:56PM

or that

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18 Mar 2011 5:46PM

Go see your doc and tell him of your thoughts . I,ve seen many dead people and they don't look like they are happy in their state of deadness .

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18 Mar 2011 10:18PM

You shouldnt do it!! Just please browse through this website and check all the awesome shit you'll be missing out on! Sure life gets hard at times but believe me spring always shows up after every single winter.If you wanna talk or vent i'm here for you.Just contact me!!

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19 Mar 2011 11:38AM

To OP: I was once told I'd never walk again. I wanted to kill myself too, but I didn't. Fast forward four years later: not only am I walking today, I'm fully healthy with a happy life and a great career. Things can always turn around if you want them to.

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