OP:
I never said I WAS a social butterfly. I've TRIED to be one. I've never been that social of a person, though not for lack of trying. Fact is, it just never really worked. I am, in fact, not that kind of a person. So yes, I prefer to be apart from people. Not so much because I see myself as better or worse than them, but because I don't think it's worth it. Hell, the best 'friend' I've ever had was one who stopped contacting me the moment I was in the hospital because it was too much of a bother.
You're probably correct on the entire 'scared' thing, though. The prospect of any kind of relationship really doesn't appeal to me at all, since I can't really see any substantial upsides to compensate for the enormous downside. Who knows? More importantly, who cares? Replies on a porn sites' forum aren't going to change my life for the better or worse either way. In the end, this entire thread is just a way for myself to get things off my chest.
