I am born male.
I truly feel alone and afraid.
Mid 50's and still anytime there is interest in me I am placed in the same two boxes be it any gender or how one wishes to be seen.

Females so far lean to me being alpha/Dom or beta/sub and in all cases told I am to provide for them in all ways.

Males are kinda the same.

Trans are same except for one person who I wish did get the job and move here (it was talking about the area I live in that in time included watching tv on the phone together and as close as one can that way).
We had so much in common and she got and was fine with how being white and not around many people told her I feared messing up not knowing if I had learned any bad ways of being or thinking by years of growing up with all that goes on in the south. She laughed and said already I so kind that she assumed If I did anything it would be small and a simple goof and she would guide me as I was a keeper. If we had got together, she said she was who she wanted to be and would not change. We were open and just blunt. She was a woman with a dick that worked. I was so sweet it did not matter how when we did share our self with each other the way we did. She wanted me to be at ease and we would figure it out. She did ask me to consider all the ways we could. We talked about it. It would have worked as we both (for the pleasure of the other) wanted slow foreplay,kissing,touching,masturbation,oral,anal finger and toying and anal both ways.
She would help me get clean and said she knew how to treat her man and keep him very happy. She wanted me to let her care for me and please me in any way I ever had dreamed and new ways we found. She could hear on the phone my breath and voice sound like my heart was pounding.
We knew what we looked like and at the paper she worked at I could verify the pic she sent was her :)

With her there was no alpha/beta/Dom/sub... That was what we both found so great about what was going on with us. We would guide each other and she was upfront that she was a giving person wanting to give me pleasure and make me happy. She told me to be open as she never would be like others had I told her of....

I told her I wanted to please her too. I was a giving lover and if it was ok then at any time I may feel the urge to cuddle, hold, want to touch her and fondle her and just melt away doing that. I also did not fear just out of the blue giving oral and swallowing or sharing a kiss if that was ok. She was the same and told me we would be little bunny rabbits cuddling alot then.

She told me their would be times she would want to watch me as I gave anal and she wanted me to only do it in ways it felt the best for me and cum freely, she take care of everything. With her and how she was I told her I wanted her to do the same. Being equal and not into all the who takes from who and all that, we were free to do anything we felt be it for us or the other or together....
That is so hard to find and why I wish someone had not just change their mind and give the job to someone else... (being local I could keep up with what was going on at the paper and it seemed odd how it all went to someone who in the end got fired...
She would have been great there and in my life...

I guess the point is inside I have emotions and love not shown like males in porn and what many seem to want.
I find I am like many vids and pics of females who love each other and show it with care and much warmth but no domination or degrading for ones pleasure.

After so many years of being told my place would be this and that, She was of same soul as I am.

She had to go far west of even where she was to get the same better job. I was happy for her but still dream of what so far no one else is.....

I keep it to myself as It has been made clear from others idea of who I should be that I would be used or hurt. I wait for someone who is like her and also like her, finds interest in the same things I think of that I favor here. People have truly had hate just because I am pansexual or in short, If shown love and cared for as I dream then I can love anyone as long as they have real love for me.

I have wrote before how I respect all who respects others and truly care and their actions back that up.
I wrote how with all the harm in the world being done to others that I do not understand why so much open hate is shown to others here when that type of "play" should be between them and who wants it and not someone they do not even know....

I wrote that as it seems nothing I say is defended or supported who ever it is about and how truly nice I mean it about the pic or vid or post...
When a stranger just blocks you and you never have said a thing or they write you with hate and degrading words or attack your posts the same way it just makes someone like me so afraid and I just leave everyone alone keeping out of their way...

Please do not take this next part in a bad way. It is based on a real post and what I would think if it could be trusted.

A gay father has a son who is afraid of people like I am and seem to have been beat and so on at a young age as I did by others my age in school.

Seems they all have much in common with me so that would have been a good start.

I am over 50, the son is over 40, the father and his husband are early 60s.
The son is a full vers. ad the father is a vers top and his husband is a vers top.
They have the means and wish to find someone with much in common with their son who is very giving and they do not want taken advantage of....

The son and they talked... He is ok if the person they find becomes in bond married to him and them.
The son is not huge and that is fine with me. He has the same issue as no one is freely full vers and giving but not a sub.

His size with my help WOULD make me cum anal only. He is 3". And yes I would want to please him too and find what makes him cum from anal only.

That is just anal... All other ways above with the transgender I spoke of I think he would like too.

What the son talked about to them is if they could love that person as he did then chances are his size would not be an issue (as I said it would not for me)...

I would if real love be open to a real loving bond with all of them.
The father was a virgin when married his wife and then divorced and got the son. The only other IS his husband he is with now and they all are clean (and think of it, They would not risk their son or them self so it makes sense they wish someone who would not and has not taken risks or cheat as an option for all of them).

To have three people who care and love you and take care of you as they listed is like a family but also allows deeper connections and bonds.

In that setting, I could be as dirty as my inner desires dream.
They do not seem to do anything with the son so I assume I could be with the son or when them. The son can watch of that is what they want or what ever.
If I am in the middle and that's ok then I have no issues with what is ok with them all.

They say they and their son in private are more feminine than males and hope the other is also.

In that setting for sure of giving to each other, A few dreams I have some nights I would like to try.

One is they fondle and kiss me all over, play and suck my nipples. They slowly anal play till I am slick and ready on my own. They slowly penetrate me little bits at a time. When all is smooth they make love till they get to their edge and then swap.
I would like them to do this as long as they can and see how many times they can make me orgasm from anal only.
When we all are about given out, I want them to orgasm in me and we cuddle.

Another is I am in the middle giving anal and getting it.
Many ways that can go.
If the one giving cums then they swap.
I edge for my pleasure as they swap till I cum.

Another is before anal, we enjoy oral many times till we all have given to each other.
Then if they are still turned on by my desires, They swap one giving oral as one gives anal.
When I cum the one swallows and sucks hard as I tell the one giving anal to take me.
After they cum, swap places.

There are times it would be nice for any of them to fine me, show me their clean hole, suck me hard and tell me to take them.

If they are ok with their son and my lover being there, Then I have a special idea :)

My lover and I 69...
As we nurse on the others cock, the others give me anal swapping and we do that as long as we can as many times we can cum as we can.

It is funny I am not ever going out and doing all I dream... But I hope someone who is like minded and loves in ways as I do sees this and will do anything to care for and love me for all I am to and for them for all they do and give to me.

Well... That's all for now... If you are someone who hides and wishes for me as I am like you, Well, Keep looking here as you can find me if you will give and do anything for me. Hire a PI or what ever :)
Just be ready to prove your not like what I have run into on my own so far.... I look and try but domination is all they want to do to me or make me a slave....

It is not that I can not be sexual and be that like crazy... I just will not be ab_used ( I can not believe the bot banned the way I used that word. Soon all will be banned sadly), harmed, degraded ,placed at risk or used.

To real loving souls who would move the world for me, protect me, care for all of me, wish to make me happy and content forever..... My mind opens to much more than many. No harm or such.... But I will only say this... A woman is not the only being who can be attracted to a being whose loyal and will protect with all they are and show real love. As long as it is with love and care, So much is open to dream.....

If this draws hate, that backs what I have said. I have done nothing to anyone.

i crashed at a buddies house over the weekend on his couch after the bars, we were pretty fucked up. i woke up to him jerking my cock. not sure why but i just pretended to still be out, but i was getting so hard. i was so turned on wondering how far he would go. i kept my eyes closed but he definitely rubbed his cock on my lips, i opened my mouth a little but think that spooked him and he stopped. a min or two later he started jerking me again and eventually started sucking me. i seriously couldnt beleive he was sucking my cock. he's married and his wife was upstairs. i couldnt hold back and i came in his mouth but still managed to stay still. he pulled my shorts back up and quietly went back upstairs. next morning was a totally normal morning. not sure what to do now, but i kinda want to crash at his place again lol. im married too and have never done anything like this.

I was always fixated on oral, giving it, more than receiving it. I have been this way forever, and more than once I have been commended for my skills in that department.

I am married for 19 years, and my wife enjoys this aspect of our sexual life, to the fullest. From the front, so she can watch me do it, from the back, while rubbing her ass against my nose, face sitting, both ways, without or during 69...

If a care to remember, in these 23 years we have been together, there has maybe been a handful of times in which we had sex, without me going down on her.

Last time we had sex (this Saturday), I was done, and she was still shivering, when she asked me to "kiss her some more".

That was a dirty thought, since I just came in her. It was... awesome.

She was so wet and wide open, I felt it on my chin, even though I tried not to consume it. She came within a minute, while pulling my head hard, against her pussy, even though she came once already, during fucking.

I think my wifey found a new fetish.

I would love to find an 18-year old fat nerdy guy and give him blowjobs on a regular basis. As I'm sucking him off, he would be looking at nude pics of my wife that I gave him and would tell me what he plans to do to her. I would bring her panties to him so he could sniff them and spunk in them (when he's not nutting in my throat or on my face). This nerdy guy, who would never have gotten the time of day from anyone before me, would get very cocky and arrogant after having me suck his cock, lick his balls and kiss his ass all the time, while giving him my wife's nudes to do as he pleased with (including sharing with his friends). He might even tell me that he is thinking of charging his friends for blowjobs from me as a way to make some extra money...

What's with all the weird and gay questions people ask on the boards? What would you do? What order would you sniff their toes in? What kind of pancakes does this slut like, regular, banana, or protein? Just post nudes and let me jack off. I don't want to take a fucking pop quiz. 

How am I feeling right now?

Let me first apologize to all of the men out there for making a post that will not help you mastrubate.

Having said that.....

I worked late last night at the restaurant. Crazy busy.

I got home and provided a leftover platters of food to my nephew.

Then i got up very early the next morning.

Because I suggested to the head chef, my wonderful boss, that I do a cleaning project when it was super slow. When there was no big event happening. When I could be in the kitchen, by myself. And move stuff out of the way so that I could access the walls behind. Move this over here so that I could scrub the walls behind it.

It went very well. It looked wonderfully better and I really didn’t have to do too much. All of the dirt and grime came off very easily.

OK. So I just got done doing all that. And mind you, I’m drinking whiskey the whole time.

I am way too old for this!!

So now, I am so so so tired. I’m happy but I’m exhausted.

I am so comfortable sitting down right now. I don’t want to get back up.

And at the moment I’m deciding whether I want to get up and go to the bathroom or not.

Because if simply peed on the carpet of my room then I’d not need to get up and walk again.

I commented on a post of a pic of a hot girl that “if I had a cock I would fuck her.” Someone then replied asking what I would do, because as a woman I had “special insights” into how to pleasure women. I then wrote out a response but when I tried to post it the initial post had been deleted. So I decided that instead of just letting what I wrote be lost I’d share it as a separate post. Hope you men can learn a thing or two from it!
(note: in original post “pomegranates” referred to her breasts)

I would fondle those pomegranates, tracing where the curves of her breasts meet her body. Running my fingers over her nipples till they wet nice and hard. Gently and lovingly kiss each pointed nip then kiss up her chest and neck until our lips met. Then lie her on her back, spread her legs, and slowly push up her skirt until it was just over her knees. Trail my hands down the insides of her thighs. Let her hands explore my strong arms and manly chest. Tease her lovely rose with my fingers until she moans. Slowly thumb her clit until it’s come out of its folds, proud and hard. Run a finger along her clit to check if it’s wet, taste her juices. Lean over her, planting one arm either side of her head, and slowly slip my hard cock inside her. Star slow then build up rhythm. Fuck her hard and fast, but tease her by suddenly going very slowly every now and again. Keep doing this until she cums. Then blow my load inside of her. Then be the big spoon, one arm draped protectively over her as we drift off the sleep together.

Here’s hoping that today, one of our female friends decides to toss some pussy our way. They’re all sitting on this goldmine of pleasure, and just have to bend over or spread their legs and let us do our thing. It’s all so easy, so just make it happen, ladies.