Not feeling crazy because my Master refused my call for fun. But I will write something honest here. Okay lol I am not allowed to have the privilege to please Him. Being it Him busy or just messing with my desire to please Him and not allowing me. Even tho what I offer is making me sooo nervous but can't resist the urge to do something that makes me nervous in order to be His good slutty girl and match the mood He might be feeling. My honest is that I just crave my Master to check His slave a little. Like for two seconds. You do say I am always Your good girl. So please I am reminding You. Not saying that You won't. But just reminding my Master on whtt He agreed on, when He took me as His. Reminding Him because He is busy and day can slip off. If no play no play.. yeah it drives me crazy but will bare that mental and physical torment with my Master if needed. He can't have fun no fun for me neither. But do please don't mess with the check on Your slave. I know besides me just being good girl and playful and how I am Uou don't expect anything else. If my expectation to just hear You randomly when we can't play or taste each other is too much of expectation. Then You have to let me know and not make the promise in future. It is too much for me. And the mental limit I can't work well with. Lol we are limitless on kinky things.. but my mind and emotional well being has some limits. Please don't push that it's taking away my playful. Willing to hear if You think it's something silly or not based on something rational. But do please discuss it with me. I do get You get intense and not in some mood for the playful or such.. I don't have expectations of in which mood You will show up. Just to check me. It's a reminder lile I remind You of the questions and things like that. Just wanted to offer something that might match Your mood right now ;p 
ahem.. it's okay.. I will just calm down my slutty urge to do whatever it takes. Don't want to push my deeds on You when not in mood for us.. soo very sorry if it sounded like pressure I am just feeling playful and in same time like no no noo don't whore me lol.. oh god.. good night my Lord. Tho I am still with them! I know!!! I am very crazy!! I offer it even tho I am dying and my masochistic cup is sooo filled!!! Buttt with You around things balance! Yesss I know hahah can't resist to offer You something very kinky just because You like it and it shocks me!! What can I say You are my weakness and my devotion ;p

Bing my Master's porn and good girl hopefully- So while my Master was away I created sinful interaction between prof and blonde having her suck his cock while I was just pushing her head down his cock and making her gag and giving her kisses and petting her head like a good girl while corrupting for my Master. And then my Master craved that to be recreated just this time with me part taking as well.. so after last night meeting and me always wanting to be a good girl and craving rewards or at times just being not selfish and try to help my Master's intense mood. Lol am I choosing wrong, I think this always makes Him more intense making me His whore and porn. So yes I promise I won't be greedy for Your cum and better sit still not making actions on my own. What?? I want to make You happy but it backfires, it's fact. So meet with them last night and figured to prove my Master my devotion.. wasn't wet just stubborn and slutty determined.. flirt was easy because prof is already always into some kinky things.. it does feel like punishment when I just have to do it to prove, without my Master around to play with me. But regardless yes it was greedy desire to have Your eyes on me. I am happy slave if that was the case and still waiting Your positive reaction. That makes me playful and wet. It's like ohh I was soo good... toyed with his lap and showing her how to sit in his lap and made him hard next thing I know we are on our knees sucking his cock and then turning her back so he fucks her pussy and then sucking him off again while I sit on her face and watch his face while fucking her.. then back on our knees sucking him a bit me a bit her.. until he came on her face while I was holding his cock.. figured my Master might like I corrupted her and got her first facial.. i gave her a kiss and a lick of his cum ;p

I have a kink that’s hard to explain to most people. It’s not just about being naked — it’s about being seen. Exposed. Turned into something that’s not quite a person anymore... but more like a filthy little trophy.
I send strangers nudes of myself — raw, slutty, degrading photos — and I beg them to use them. Not just to jerk off. That’s too easy.
I want them to keep me. I want them to slide my photo into their wallet like a secret. I want them to make me their phone background, my legs spread wide for every text notification. And when they go a step further?
God, that’s when it gets good.
One man printed out a photo of me on glossy paper and stuck it to his fridge — right between his k**s’ artwork and the weekly grocery list. He sent me a pic of it with the caption: “You’re family now.”
Another man framed one of my more explicit shots — me, bent over, plugged, drooling — and set it on his office desk like I was his fiancée. Right next to a coffee mug and a photo of his dog. His coworkers had no idea, and that made it even hotter.
But the best?
One guy told me he was having a get-together — drinks, music, friends. And right before guests arrived, he cast my photo up on his giant TV. Full screen. Full spread. Lights low, image glowing.
He said nothing. Just let it sit there as people came in and noticed.
Some laughed. Some stared. A few asked who I was. And he just said, “She’s mine.”
I came so hard when he told me that.
Because this is what I love. To be humiliated. To be displayed. To be owned by strangers in quiet, wicked little ways. I'm not their girlfriend. I'm not even their secret. I'm just the slut in the frame, the whore on the screen, the background they scroll past during meetings.
And I wouldn’t have it any other way.