And yes my slave self want Your eyes on me and all I do for You, i desire to show You as it should be. But this place I hate more than half year and without Your eyes is place where I don't want to be for long but, we haven't made a new place, and I have no other way of reaching out. The comments are mostly idiotic, the messages are even worse, it is boring me to death and that might as well show, I cannot fake my energy

Am I delusional or You really like trying to make me frustrated when You are frustrated?

And the masochist I used to be haven't got softer or gone, she just wants to know do you still like it as before

And can't stress enough how much I like the Voyeuristic tendency You have and how i like being watched, but by You then only then I don't care who else is watching, and only then I tease the others and enjoy the kink. And only then I can forget how dangerous this all is. So the question is- how much You like all of that?

I am not trying to emotionally manipulate or approach to this in some toxic way. Just my need is not meet. It's simple to fix and deal with if You have the will for the growth with me. Yes I know month still didn't passed by but You also said You will let me know before are You stressed and so on

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It si not okay that I have no way of reaching you and you to stop messing with my head when it's over the limit that is healthy for me, I checked with you, you accepted it, you also accepted all my emotions. Over the years it's been too much for me not knowing when you will just leave and when come back. And all I asked you to let me know now and then. If you can't keep the promise just tell me

Not an add for new master, just simply message to mine

So shocking that I have a thing to discuss with my Master outside of the play, because this is not play? Wtf indeed

This is not coming from place where I am demanding or want to take some control.  As I remember you are the man who likes seeing a woman with a spine. Never lacked of that until I meet you and got too swayed.We need to talk, because whatever I post here it comes out as play. And as much as it might be hard for me as you make me weak. I should stop being playful till you accept to hear me properly. It is being an issue that no matter how playful I am cant hear my Master, and no matter how much I adjust it in playful way, nothing. 

You can break the promise if You want to punish something that taste like deviant heaven for You. And take away the taste of me, one that makes You bite Your fist

After few of my posts figured...  I don't want to be like an old couple where she is mad and nagging and he annoyed and grumpy. Figured I am not banned from cuming as many times as I want and have teasing fun on my own. So I'll drain my wet mind and body with my own session.

And why is that

Rather let Your stubborn no mercy takes all the deviant, corrupting, fun relaxing fun we think of? You said there is always a way for me to grab a little of Your attention and do something for You. How am I ever to learn and grow when You are not allowing me? Don't You want us to grow?

Or my Master is saying that my chase to make His days more naughty more fun more sexy can't make His heart softer and cant allow my sexy playful nature to enjoy the fact I can do something for Him, instead just letting me know I can't? And that my sexy then deviant and then masochistic actions makes it just worse rather than fun and tasty wrong?

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Devil, do I have Your attention now?

Yes that's the way my Master rewards me so I have something to keep me hungry, think of His touch and being reminded to who I belong. One of the ways. But that's an old gif, wish my Master would trade to leave a mark on me, I have a good idea to trade it for that reward

Unless I am not even allowed my hunger to be poked. Not the easy one calm one but one reminder that keeps me on my toes. That makes me squirm get mad get furious but crawl.. think and craft, high up the playful and makes me knock on Hell door hoping two things at the same time.. to be devoured and beg not to!