I'm sorry for snapping at you, that wasn't cool. I've just had a lot of meatheads harass me with stuff like 'ok but when are you gonna get dp ;)', I shouldn't be so quick to take that out on people. As for my lengthy absence, there was an upset in my family that took a long time to deal with, but I won't go into that here.
As for your interest in specific instances, I've given a lot of handjobs to my little group of friends in our playtime. I love the way it feels; The skin is very pleasant and soft, I think of it as an almost silky texture but maybe that's just me. Feeling and watching the dick swell and pulse as it grows from soft to hard and the way the head almost seems to bloom if that makes sense. The boys are uncircumsized (which I like on moral grounds as well as physical; I don't think it's right to mutilate a baby regardless of the gender.) and so I get to take that moment and watch the way it fills up until it's too big to stay in the foreskin and it peeks out of it with that nice pre on the tip, it reminds me of dew. To me, the act of this sexual contact with them is liberating in that it's purely close friends helping each other relax and feel good. There's no emotional attraction at all beyond the platonic, so it doesn't have any of the seriousness or weight of romantic relationships. I feel as if that's why it's made the relationship between my girlfriend and I so much stronger, because instead of all the steam building up from day to day life getting blown up on the nearest person (which is of course her, as we live together) I can let it go in a comfortable and easy-going setting. Thanks to that, all I have left emotionally when I get home to her is joy and affection and a great deal of passion; It's so much deeper and less complicated to make love with her without any stress or negativity from other sources.
I get a lot of satisfaction from those non-penetrative acts, I think in part because my girlfriend and I tend to use fingers and toys most of the time and toys have all kinds of interesting textures and features, so being penetrated vaginally or anally by a man wouldn't do much for me because it's more like a plain dildo in that way and those practically put me to sleep, so it makes these other kinds of acts feel very naughty or taboo in and of themselves despite how simple they are. Obviously it feels nice to me as well or I wouldn't do it, and I usually masturbate while we're doing those things. I like to see my friends' faces looking so ecstatic from the chance to touch me and interact with me in those private ways, which makes me feel very valuable, as if I'm in a position to have very high standards. Sort of like I have my own VIP club and I'm also the bouncer and the club itself. It's a powerful feeling to have someone rubbing against you, breathing hard and squirming. The dirty talk and jokes are a lot of fun, too. The mood is always light, cheerful, and playful. For one example, being knelt down servicing two of the gents turning my head side to side to switch between them and one of them shot into my ear, which made me yelp and flip out with a mouthful of cock and as he was apologizing profusely, the other said that his nickname for the rest of his life would be Q-Tip and nobody outside of our group would ever know of his shame lol
Again, I'm sorry for snapping at you. If you'd like to get more in depth with detail (I keep it somewhat general here-- They say never to lay all your cards on the table at once, right?) then you're welcome to message me privately. I'm quite friendly once I stop screwing up first impressions, I promise.
