Emotion is the usual downfall jack off buddy or friends with benefits. Inevitably, one side falls in love while the other considers it purely casual. The best thing I can suggest is that you learn from this and move on. Keep your fond memories come on but signed a new friend and playmate. Trust me when I say that finding a new playmate will be difficult, and you will find something wrong with every single person if you let yourself. Find someone who's into the same Kinks and fetishes as you and you don't look back unless it's over your shoulder at your new sex partner
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