I understand, 20+ club here too. Main difference is every time she's stopped for a few months I've crossed something off my bucket list.
Around our 15th the bedroom died off a few months. I told her I was doing a solo weekend fishing trip. I stayed at the cabin but didn't make it to the lake. Ended up at a Swinger's club all 3 nights. They had catered food, football party, and better music vs the remote lake town. Ended up in a balls deep orgy Saturday night. Got sucked off again at the pool party on Sunday before hitting the road. Lots of condoms, clean STD test, worth it.
Near the 17th it died off again for a few months. On the way home from the gym I did one of those Asian massage places. Cute woman, definitely mid 20's. Spent some money but got to ass fuck her. I'd never done anal before. Holy crap. Having a tight 20 something Asian ass being spread in front of me was incredible. Her asshole was so tight. I saw stars busting that load. Again condom and a clean STD test and back to fidelity.
A bit after our 18th it got quiet. I was on a work trip in Texas. I hit up a Latina at a strip club. She recommended a friend. Not sure if you've had a pair of DD's in your face while a second pair titty fucks you but it's a new definition of heaven. I took turns on those two in VIP. Absolutely incredible skills.
Most recently it was a black girl I met at a coffee shop. No offense, not racist, never had dark chocolate before. Very passionate. Fucked on her patio. Mish and doggy both insane. She joked about race play and not wanting to kneel and suck. I fingered her into submission then face fucked her finally busting on her face.
My point don't bother with guilt or with revenge. You do you, explore your kinks in a safe environment. She holds out either work on it or cross things off the bucket list. Not gonna be around forever you know.
