You post your whiny story here, and thus offer up your case to the grand jury of your peers.
Your story is that of a self-absorbed failure at life. You add to the dismal picture of your existence below, by adding the woes of your screw-ups with a previous ex.
If you're looking for sympathy, you'll find it between shit and syphilis in your Fuckin Wagnals. Not in this court of perverted opinion.
Now, do the world a favor: Go away, and grow up.