I confess I bury my problem with drugs.It has been an issue for 20 years.Im a very strong and driven person so I always bounce back.I have got in trouble a few times in the past with drugs and again I always wiggle out.So I had to go to court ordered out patient classes and they were dumb. I would find away to get out of those to.I went to a phyc/substance guy once.He was supposed to be one of the best and I was really there for Adult ADHd or whatever they were trying to figure out.They never do anything for me because when Im good Im good.Well my divorce ended a couple months 4 maybe.Well I been going backwards since.I dont know why I have not been fired Ive missed 39 days this year.I am very good at what I do.My x and I were trying to work things out I thought.Some dude called my phone at 5am. I was sleeping being good so I can spend weekend with x.He asked who I was and why was I calling her phone..I explained who I was and he said dont call my gf anymore.First he is a troll ill deal with him.But I have never felt so bad in my life when she said yes i fucked him the next morning.Im crushed destroyed. So of couse I self medicate and It didnt work.My confession is the only answer is now to leave this place.Enough is enough.No reason to hang around and burden anyone else or feel this way. My mom will be the only one I worry about but she will under stand. Thanks for reading......................................................................................................................................................................................................................Nah Ill just get a sandwich and jerk off and feel better...carry on
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Forget the sandwich, get a gun and blow your fuckin brains out. Do the world a favor you spineless wimp.
Call a hotline for help. You don't have to live like this anymore. I felt the same way a year ago. I reached out and got help. I went to meeting and did what was suggested and this Saturday I'll have a year clean. One Day At A Time...
Make that call, what do you have to lose??
lol new that was coming...I got a gun.I left my spine in yor moms ass.
YOU GUYS ARE FUCKS!! This guy may really need some kind fucking words & you dumb ases say shit like that!!
Man Im on a down slope at the moment with my addiction but bro it gets better. not only are you a life that is here for a purpose but think of what any rash actions would do to your family. Also tomorrow is another day. GO sit your ass in a NA meeeting ASAP!! HOLLAR AT ME IM DERMEAT1 on here if you need me.
