I have post traumatic stress disorder now. The nightmares are getting so much worse. I scream in my sleep. Sometimes the sound of my own voice wakes me up. I sleep with a knife under my pillow and always wake up holding it. Everything triggers flashbacks. Once they start, they repeat for hours. I live my life in a constant state of fear.
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30 Sep 2013 8:29PM
get some help man and get rid of the knife, it took me years and I still have them once in a while but its better man much better, get help dude it works
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01 Oct 2013 1:37AM
Really? See, I have never understood this crap. Yes, I called it crap. I never got it. I mean I have bad dreams now and then, but they vary, they are not all about combat. Sometimes they are just about falling off a cliff or something random like that. So, I don't obsess about having PTSD when I have a combat related dream.
I am able to tell when I am in a safe environment and when I am not. So, I don't have things triggering flashbacks. And, even if something reminds me of a combat situation, I am able to tell reality from fiction. Just like a flashback from listening to a good song from my youth doesn't make me get up and start dancing out of control.
Maybe try some dream therapy. I can control my dreams. You can learn to control yours as well. In your dreams you can save those that are dying, you can rampage like the Hulk through any thing, obstacle, enemy forces, whatever the source of the stress is, totally dominating and/or destroying whatever it is that is distressing you in your dream. I mentioned before I sometimes have combat related dreams, but now I am like the comic book hero Sgt. Rock. I always come out victorious as I simply take control of the dream and make it go as I wish it to go.
Or, maybe you just need to get it in your head that you too will die. You don't know when, or how, but it will happen. Such an event is ultimately out of your control. If you get that straight in your head there is less stress that occurs when you find yourself in a situation that would otherwise cause you to freak out as if you are back and combat and your life is in danger. There is a peace that comes with that understanding.
Ok, I apologize for saying it is crap. Just because I have never experienced it doesn't mean that others cannot experience such stress. And, maybe for some it really is outside of their ability to master. If that is the case, I feel sorry for such people, as I believe their entire life will be a struggle. Because, if they cannot master this, there will be a lot of things that will master them in life and make their lives miserable.
That's my two cents on this topic.
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01 Oct 2013 2:28AM
Yeah like others have said just get help. You are not the first nor the last. BTW I am not in your shoes so its up to you but sounds like you are on the wrong path in coming here for advice.
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02 Oct 2013 8:24AM
PTS has been well documented to originate from experimental vaccines used on Troops!!!! Do your homework and PROPER RESEARCH and you will see I am 100% correct. This can be treated but not by those whom you have already trusted and permitted to stick you with those B.S. vaccines...Wish you well, god bless and go find the truth.
