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27 Jan 2017 10:00AM

Wow, thank you so much for your kind words. People might find it odd that I would open up about something so personal here on this site, but it makes you realize that even a "community" such as ours on motherless, there are some really decent and kind people. I don't actively participate on any other websites so this is where I felt like I could be open and honest with my feelings and there would be no repercussions. I appreciate your advice about talking to someone professional. I actually have gone to the free student counseling center on campus and the person there I have talked to has been great and told me that all my feelings and actions are a completely normal response to my grief. Some of my friends here have told me I should just start dating or at least hooking up with other girls, and there are some I know that I know would be interested, but I just don't feel right doing it yet. Its weird but since Sara passed I don't really have much of a sexual appetite and have barely even taken care of myself so to say. I will come on here and look at videos and board posts and interact with others in chat or via messaging, but that's about it. Again, my counselor here said that was all normal and just give it time and also for me to not be afraid of interacting and getting close to another girl when the time is right. I have always been a realist and I know that the reality is that everyday it will get easier and then one day it just won't hurt anymore, but it still does for now.

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