My aunt and cousin (female)found my male cousin two weeks dead hanging in his flat. So much trauma is still around 10/12 or more years later. Its okay for the deceased they are out of it we think, but those left behind are left confused and hurting, we,d smoke and have a drink hang out together never heard him mention it once, never. Hearing he,d bailed out it was a body blow, the fact is you speak of it so that is good, once your doing that your not....
Only you Know what makes you have those dark thoughts you probably can get help with the issue if its not some terminal illness type thing, what happened at twelve years of age might be blocked out by hypnosis, please don't do it you never know whats around the corner, maybe your turn for bliss-full joy and happiness, the lover to take your heart away, what ever. Your not a quitter I feel it, people do care you only need to find them... Best of luck on the rest of your journey.
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15 Jun 2012 7:02AM
