Not saying it's the best advice for your situation (since I think that has already been given), but this was during my Army Basic Training, September 1996. We had a suicide attempt in our Company who was taken out by ambulance. A short time later we were formed up outside. This was our First Sergeants speech; about 99% verbatim:
"Sure you can kill yourself, and we'll have a nice memorial for you and we'll put your picture up in battalion, and all this other nice shit. But within a year, NOBODY will remember you. It's not like dying on the battlefield for your goddamn country. If you kill yourself you're a pussy. Don't. Fucking. Kill. Yourself. If you feel you can't last a day, then last 5 min. Then another, and another. After 6 rounds you've been alive for a half an hour. Try to go another. Next thing you know you've been alive for just one more day and that day could have changed your life. Don't kill yourself. Kill the one thing that you KNOW you can beat. Life. Beat the shit outta it. Make it your Bitch, and that's the ONLY Bitch you can beat, remember that. Killing yourself is a Permanent Solution to a TEMPORARY Problem.....That is all."
