This whole post makes me laugh! OP sounds like he picked a winner of a women. No job, no money etc. sounds like a waste of space. Probably all the OP could get and married the first girl. Also likely to have all this anger cause he was blessed with a small cock and drinks so much booze and eats McDonalds that he cant get good erections. Also lacks any sort of stamina to give her a any decent action.
Sober up, get off your make believe power trip cause you can be anyone who you want to be while behind you computer.