OP here. Thank you for the support. I expected more than one negative. But thanks Mr. negative I have already thought about all those things.
Here is a letter I wrote her. I have not sent it to her yet.
I lost my daughter this year. She did not die, I lost her to drugs. I am not completely sure if she was mine to lose as I was not present in her life for the first 16 years. I know the girl I met at 16 I grew to love and cherish as the daughter I had always longed for.
I have a long history of losing women in my life as it all started when I was 10 with the death of my mother. I am accustomed to the hurt and pain of losing a loved one but this is different. She is still here but I cannot hug her. She is here but I cannot talk to her. I loved our conversations. She is here but I cannot sit in church with her and feel the love. She is here but I can only see her smile in my dreams.
I believe she is gone forever from my life, but I will hang on to hope if you do not mind. I will hope and pray that one day she will find herself and realize that the only person that does not love her is her and the only person standing in her way is her. I will hope and pray that she finds happiness. If she finds these three things I could live with the pain of never seeing my daughter again.
Please if you see her tell her I love her!
