I confess I worship powerful black men

i am a 21yo white male, and my fantasy is to be mugged by two strong black thugs. i want them to take my phone, my wallet, everything i own, then punch me just to put me in my place

when theyre about to leave i will get on my knees and beg them, "fuck me, i worship the superior black race"
mmmmm, and then they take me off the path and into the woods a bit and take turns taking my dignity and my virginity
my little white dick shooting cum the whole time
their big long black dicks fucking me so hard and deep that my eyes roll into the back of my head
they fuck me retarded until they're ready to shoot their thick nigger cum deep inside my inferior white boy pussy
i feel their dick throb inside me and i know exactly what theyre doing,
"thank you so much for turning me into a faggot, thank you so much"

My beautiful wife cheated on me with a nigger and it destroyed us both. It happened over twenty years ago. Our marriage ended shortly after this. I left her but have never been able to get past it...neither has she. She wa a hit as hell 21 yo girl..5'5 with chestnut brown hair and a lithe body with small but perky tits with nipples that could cut through glass and a true bubble butt.

The incident was consentual....but was on that borderline between non-consent and coercion. He knew her through her work and played like he was simply wanting friendship. He kept wanting to go out and have a drink and maybe some dancing. Afterwards they went back to his place. He had been a perfect gentleman until he got her in his house. He then started to try and kiss her. She tried to make him stop. He got up..locked the door and dropped his pants and showed her his dick. Apparently she was scared but turned on....she told me she was mesmerized by it...and he told her she had been teasing him. He walked up close to her with his dick right in front of her. She protested that she was a married woman and this should not be happening. He said he did not care that he wanted her. She felt she had little choice...but also said it was still cosentual because she did not refuse any further. She said she was really turned on and wanted it to happen.

Apparently he was really hung and was very aggressive. She said he was twice my size..litterally and fucked her hard...very hard for about an hour. She said she got to the point she could not take it any ,ore and begged him to let her suck his dick to finish. She said she plead with him to let her suck him off. He finally agreed.

This event and the knowledge of who it was and how good it was to her has destroyed me. I am a racist guy...at the time I tried to not be so. We all are to a certain degree. Now I do not even try...I hate them. This event tore me apart and though the pain was horrific...as time has passed it has become my obsession.

The thought of my beautiful white wife getting monsterfucked in a dingy mill house in the late night hours of January 1994. Being fucked silly by a black motherfucker who was willing to force her..but she demands it was consentual....in the town of Camden. S.C.

To make matters worse...this was a small southern town and people found out about it. They were both employees of the city and word spread fast. I was not only cheated on by the woman that I loved with every once of my being but was humiliated by it. I never will get over it.

That is my confession....I have never talked to anyone about it. It is one of those things that the people that know me and know what happened avoid. I moved away and do not talk to anyone from my hometown except family. I never re-married and it is because of this event. My ex-wife did but to a man who she does not love....he is simply a "good man" as she describes him. She willing confesses that she is still in love with me. She has descended into depression that has left her a recluse and physically a wreck.

It will never end....it has been this weight that I have carried since that night. It ruined my life...in many many ways. I should probably see a shrink....but they do not really solve pain...they just help people deal with it. I am so ashamed that even the prospect of talking to a real person is un-imaginable to me. So I have lived with it by myself for over 20 years. This is the time I have told the true story even in an anonymous fashion to anyone.

I confess that I'm white and I had a nigger on his knees blowing me today.
He knew who his white master was and begged for more.

Craigslist Joe showed up as I finished up removing my body hair with Nair hair removal cream. I blissfully greeted him at the door wearing a towel and a smile with my long, damp hair on either side of my neck. I took yet another gulp from my bottle of whiskey and asked him to wait while I applied my makeup and stretched my faggot cunt with my butt plug. He obliged, knowing that he arrived early and I caught him looking at me in the mirror, patiently as I grew excited with my rubber phallus, stretching my shit cunt. I peeked back, winking and making small talk while he was polite and waited as I applied my eyeliner, lipstick, etc...

The door was knocked on yet agin, as to my surprise a very dark skinned, fat lip nurse showed up to my hotel room with a BBC in his trousers. I gave him a French kiss as he entered and asked him if he was ready to fuck this bitch faggot up tonight. He laughed and sat on the opposite side of the bed as he and "Joe" conversed as I finished my face and dressed. Joe asked, "How much do you like dressing like a slut for strangers?" while I undressed myself in the mirror. I replied as I knelt on the bed. "Last one to put their raw cock in my slutty faggot ass gets to fuck my throat! " They were naked in no time, where Joe spat on his dick and forced it inside my hungry shit cunt, I eagerly choked and gagged on the black cock in front of me.

I was spit roasted for awhile by these two strangers who replied to my Craigslist ad, until the stench of shit blew out of my bowels with Joe deep in my faggot cunt. He slapped me and whispered into my ear, "You're going to be sorry for that faggot !" and without hesitation, pulled his shit covered cock out of my ass and jammed it into my throat. I didn't hesitate to take his dick, but I puked as he forced his stinky dick into my faggot throat. The stink was overwhelming and I love to vomit, so to me, this was ecstasy. With the black dude watching, Joe was finally disgusted and left after taking a quick shower.

The black guy sat next to me while I was covered in filth at every orifice, and asked what I really like. I drank some more whiskey and showed him videos of myself eating shit, puking and fucking myself with massive dildos. He cuddled with me for awhile before he squatted over my mouth and squirted his rancid diarrhea into my willing toilet of a mouth. I gargled his diarrhea and begged him to violate my ass with his naked black cock. I spat in his face while he endured the stink and called him names like "faggot lover" and "shit nigger", only to have him pull my hair, donkey punch me and tell me "I'm his AIDS bitch now and I have him to thank for the diseased semen dripping out of my shit ridden throat and ass."

When he finished, I passed out on the bed just before he left, only to video record myself vomiting the remaining whiskey I just chugged all over my shit crusted body for all of you delightful perverts to jack off to. I am black owned now, and a shit eating sissy faggot at the disposal of dirty old men who like to use dirty fags like me as their toilet...

Hail Satan !

June - July Vote 2022
So june is here... I have been dripping for all of you for a full month now since the last time you all voted to not let me cum... and recently my trainer took away my privilege of even touching my drippy desperate cunt which mean I can't even edging properly... if want to touch I only get to do so in short bursts... and I have to earn it...

I am pretty sure you most of you know the deal with these by now, You will all get a vote on if I will be allowed to cum in the upcoming month of June!

This vote will be for the dates of June 9th, my birthday... straight through till July 1st.
The vote will be called and concluded on June 9th as well so get you votes in before then if you want them counted!

This stretch will not include or account for the actual day of my birthday as apparently my owner has something planned for that. I don't know what and I dont know if it will involve any release for me... but you are welcome to message my trainer/handler listed in my profile to ask about it or give suggestions!

As for the vote:

Vote YES and I will be allowed to cum after June  9th and until july 1st... with a white persons permission of course

Vote NO and I will go straight into another stretch of denial... no breaks, no relief not even  allowed to touch and edge anymore... just more dripping for all of you

The choice is yours, ether way I will have to live with it and obey!

As always I appreciate ALL votes... yes or no... so the more votes the better... but please... PLEASE consider voting yes... its already been a month I am so fucking horny and I just want so fucking badly to touch my greedy drippy monkey cunt... I know it is not my choice... and that it is selfish to beg just to the sake of my own primal nigger urges...
I also know many of you already plan on voting no... but maybe some of you... please, please consider voting yes... would be so very grateful to be able to cum for my birthday... *whimpers*

Thank you for reading and I am sorry for being such a greedy nigger animal and begging like a slut *whimpers*

I look forward to your votes!

still dripping...
~Monkey

Ok here’s the deal mother fuckers. You guys all think it’s cute to say how hot a nigger bitch is.
STOP
Them cunts are barely fuckable among the men monkeys.
I’m not racist, I’ve fucked a half dozen of these stinky cunts. One was a very expensive whore in Vegas. All smelled fucked up. All were monkey looking. All had fake hair. All had a big loud mouth that only begged a fist to shut it for them.

Nigger bitches stink , they’re ugly, and don’t fuck like people.
Throw them to the wolves.

Male monkeys.......Suck a dick with your bitch ass threats over this you jobless inmates

TODAY I WAS A VICTIM OF A HATE CRIME.
I AM A 30YO BLACK FEMALE FROM DETRIOT MI.
I WOKE UP THIS MOING AND WAS DRIVEING TO MY JOB WHEN 2 RACEIST WHITE COPS PULLED ME OVA. I PULL OVA AND THEY HAVE THERE GUNS OUT ON ME LIKE I AM SUM CRIMINAL. THEY TELL ME TO LIE ON THE GROUND. I TELL THEM 2 LEAVE ME ALONE AND THEY PROCEEDED TO BEAT ME. I BEG THEM TO STOP BUT THEY WOULD NOT. THEY CALLED ME A NIGGER AND TRYED 2 RAPE ME. I MANAGED 2 RUN AWAY BUT I WAS BEING FOLLOWED LIKE TRAYVON WAS. I CANT GO INTO NO STORE WITHOUT BEING HARASSED ALL THE TIME. BCUZ I HAPPEN TO BE OF COLOR. I LOOK AT MY KIDS AND WONDER HOW MUCH RACEISM THEY MUST ENDURE. I KEEP HOPE BCUZ I DO KEEP FAITH IN JESUS AND OBAMA. I FACE THESE KINDS OF INCIDENTS ALL THE TIME. I CONSULTED MY LAWYERS AND THEY SAID I CAN SETTLE FOR 500GS BUT NO 1 WILL PAY UP. I NEED THAT MONEY 4 MY KIDS AND 2 GIVE THEM THE OPPORTUNITYS THAT BLACK KIDS ARE DENYED EVERYDAY BCUZ OF RACEISM. I WANT MY KIDS 2 BE TREATED EQUALLY AND NOT BE CALLED NIGGERS BY YOU WHITE FOLK. THEY DESREVE A BETA LIFE. SUMTIMES I GO ON2 BOARDS LIKE MOTHERLESS AND CRAIGSLIST AND SEE ALL THE RACEISM. DONT U CARE THAT BABIES OF COLOR WILL SEE WHAT U WRITE? STOP BEING RACEIST 2 PEOPLE.

Love fucking married woman begging for Nigger cock.. i give em just that! hard fat black cock and cum in them deep. Nothing beats making a white wife a black cock cum dump

I can no longer tame my hunger and desires of thick black cocks! I was racist but now I beg to be gang fucked and filled with black sperm. And gaped deeply. Make me take your cum as I beg for that nigger nut to make me your slutty fuck toy! 

DISCLAIMER: This confession could be viewed as hateful or vulgar. However it is a wild sexual fantasy I hope to be consensual with someday.

I have a confession to make & I need to know what people think of it or maybe its common. Let me say a few things really quick though. I'm a big black guy who was raised by a white family. So growing up I always liked white girls & never black girls. I don't know why but that's just what it was. Then at about 29 or so I really started having a thing for black chicks. I was watching black porn, checking black girls out. I had the crazy urge to just be able to cover a black girls face with a load or two of Cum. That lasted for sometime & then just stopped, I thought it was a phase. Then one day I was on a free chatline for the phone & came across a black women begging to be degraded. (Sorry If this isnt aloud here but I think it is.) She was begging to be called a Nigger over & over while she listened to us. Any name we could think of she wanted me to call her. She kept saying how she was just a useless slave. Confession number one, Im sorry but it was so fucking hot. She turned me onto Raceplay.

So confession number 2 is a idea of sorts. I'd love a Personal Nigger Sub who just wanted to be owned & degraded. When I get home from work I can just make her suck on my cock & lick my sweaty ass or I could have her walk around naked at a party & catch cum with her face. If I have a bad day, I can face fuck the dumb cunt. If me & the lady are fighting we can always degrade her & take it out on her. It just makes me so hard thinking about it but I know it shouldn't I guess. I'm not in any form a racist. I just have some fantasies. What do you think? Is anyone else into this? I would have loved to be a little more vulgar but I didn't know what's aloud.

I confess that I worked fo this cracker ass at a trucking company that hauls super loads all over the country. Would smoke weed every day on the job. We had some bullshit drug test but I knew I wouldn't get fired cuz that cracker loved my nigger dick too much. Failed the test and he begs me to stay, telling me he'll do anything. So this cracker sucks my dick before getting me a second test but I didn't care, I failed that one too. So the fucking cracker tells me I'm fired while taking my cock in his ass and after I finished I went and slashed up his truck and sued the fucker for discrimination!