Any women in here from Sac? Ones who PnP? I'm moving back home tomorrow and I'm looking to meet all kinds of new people cuz the whole time I've lived out there before I was kind of like a loner but I'm going to do it different now so I don't know if there's any chick's out there hmu 

My mother is terminally ill. She's the only reason I didn't kill myself years ago, I couldn't put her through the suffering. She has a year or two left, tops, unless a miracle happens.

I like to think I'm a fairly intelligent individual, well liked to some extent. But I'm a loner, I don't identify with other people on a personal level. No significant other, only a handful of close friends.

I've resigned myself to the fact that she will die, soon, but there's still some hope I suppose.

In the event that she does die, I've decided that I'll eat a bottle of Klonopin and call it a night.

Not a cry for help, because like I said the event could be a couple of years down the road.

I like the outdoors, I enjoy camping. I picture the scenario something like this - I'd take my truck into the woods on some old logging road somewhere, set up camp - a tent, maybe, who knows. Write a note, have a small campfire (obviously not if there's a forest fire risk), spend the day there, and at nightfall eat the pills.

My apologies to all the sick pervs with cock in hand expecting something hawt. Just felt like getting that off my chest.

Hey Motherless community. This is the story of my first love, how we met, and what happened following that with as much detail as I remember. Enjoy!

In my senior year in high school there was an Asian girl in my class named Kim. She was a petite girl with a very small chest that probably wasn't even an A cup. She had short dark hair, brown eyes and an innocent look about her. I had never talked to her before as in high school I was quiet and considered by most to be a non-approachable loner. I was into bands like The Pixies and Radiohead while most of my other classmates were into whatever garbage the radio was whoring.

During Geography class in the middle of the semester we were given a project that would make up a huge chunk of our grade. Our teacher explained that we would be assigned a partner to be working with. For the project we had to choose a country and give a presentation on it in front of the class. Kim and I were paired at random and a look of horror came over her face. I felt kind of bad for her because she was obviously extremely shy and I was basically an outcast.

I approached her desk and introduced myself trying to sound as friendly as possible. The first thing I noticed about her was that she smelled really good. So I just casually blurted that out when we were talking and a look of shock formed in her eyes. It was probably not the brightest thing to say, but I was very inexperienced when it came to situations with the opposite sex. After that I stuck to talking about what we were going to do for the project.

We decided to do the project on Vietnam at my suggestion as I was reading a lot about the Vietnam War at the time. I invited her over to my house to work on the project and she told me that she would ask her parents, but thought it would be okay considering it was for school. So we exchanged numbers and I awaited her response to see what was up. Well, her parents did not like the idea of her going to a guy’s house one bit. So they were forced to invite me over to their place to work on the project. When I knocked on that door I was never so nervous in my whole life…

If you are interested in hearing more let me know.

NOTE: The image I posted is not of Kim. It's of some girl I found that looks similar. I won't post real photos because I don't want to jeopardize her identity or mine.

When my wife(19) left me(22) I was mentally broken and I let a lot of people use me. well not that many but a few. In particular I had my first same sex experience. I am not attracted to men. but for some reason I was absolutely willing to be truly abuesd. there were four(almost 5) men and three girls and one much older woman I did things with. the first experience He was between 40-50 chubby stubbly and actually not handsome in anyway. he made me into a regular fuck. he'd come around 2-3 times during the week and use me. the first couple of times were just oral. he told me to be in just a t-shirt and boxers when he arrived. the very first time he told me to get on my knees open my mouth and stick out my tongue. i closed my eyes. heard him unzip as he asked i if had ever sucked on a dick before. I replied, no. I think he liked that. he shoved a weak semi hard cock into my mouth and told me to suck him till he finished. he made me deep throat the first time. I didn't throw up or gag too bad. he wasn't as long as me but he was thicker. he finished on my face and said to be on my knees mouth open just like today next time he came over. he said he wanted me to call him daddy.

The guy liked my quietness and submissiveness and said I was very cute. he eventually got me to give up my anal cherry. he started by pulling me to my bed told me to set up doggy style he pulled down my shorts and licked my hole. I was so shocked and scared. I started apologizing but he said I was clean and he liked how I tasted. i tried to tell him not to because I afraid of catching something. I didn't want him to fuck me. he said he had a rubber and made me slide it onto him with my mouth. then he licked my butt some more and spit n it. I was so embarrassed. he slid it in and fucked me telling i was such a good boy. he kept at it for a few minutes then said the condom was probably making it hurt more and took it off and slid back into me before i could reply. he pushed my face down into the bed hard so to keep me from resisting. I was scared I felt raped and dirty and violated. I could feel him building up to orgasm as he said i'm going to breed yu. I started struggling and trying to push him off but he just held me down Ive never been very strong. he started saying be a good girl and take it. then he came in me. it was a lot there was so much. i just layed there cum dripping from my butt hole. he started chatting saying how good and nice i was as he started fingering my wet hole. I kinda felt good that i made him feel good but also like i was just raped because he didn't stop when he should of.

he kept fucking me for about 4-5 months 2-3 times a week sometimes less. he wanted to be my daddy and i had to be his little girl. he always preferred to cum in my ass. i tried to get him to use my mouth but he'd use it to get hard then he'd flip me around and slide in like i was property. i just finally gave in and let him tell me what to do. he preferred to take me doggy though a couple of times he spoon fucked me pinning me down my legs hooked immobile in his, my arms pinned and his hand on my throat. sometimes he'd make me cry and he'd muffle my mouth or force me to suck on his fingers. I finally cut him off when he started calling me his bitch and he was gonna breed me like a bitch in heat. he usually talked awful like that but it got worse and worse and when he wanted me to give it up to his dog i didn't let him come back.

I then found another guy(Teen) but i was scared after that first guy and just sucked him off till he came in my mouth. I never talked to him again.

There was another guy(30's) but he didn't like me and got super paranoid after he smoked something. Maybe pot but I think must have been stronger cause he kinda flipped out.

the fourth guy(20's) was a random thing and had a huge piercing on his junk that made me bleed he came in my ass because he ripped the condom. he was nice enough but he left me dripping cum and blood so I never saw him after that.

The fifth guy(50's) was big bristly fat but scary strong and gray. he took me to his house after finding me online. it was a long drive(longer than he said it would be) maybe 40 min I was so scared. deep into the country. truly the middle of nowhere. He had an incredible house was well off. very smart. gentlemanly. but he scared the living out of me because i don't get lost easily and I was really lost. I had smoked a huge 2gm joint before he picked me up. when he got me to his house he made me lots of sweet cherry alcohol drinks(hard stuff too) and then gave me something called a popper to sniff i've never heard of that or since but the whole night was disorienting. I'm tall and slim nerdy and with few muscles and he was built like a brick house short thick and he had muscles. he had gay porn on and asked if i would dress up cute for him. He pulled out a few boxes of women's clothes and kink outfits I of course gave in. I dunno why. I'd never cross dressed before. He picked out the kind of clothes that drove me wild when I was with my wife. A long tight thin dress(the grope fantasy kind) nylons a black bra and matching panties. he said he wanted me clean so he showered and washed and shaved me before he dressed me. I didn;t have a hair left(except on my head) after he was done. The whole time he kept up with the alcohol and poppers. I was feeling pampered and feeling good. Between my submissive nature and all this attention and admittedly the fear I was getting truly turned on. He asked if he could tie me down but I couldn't let him. I was far too afraid. He told me I was passable or more or something. and he loved me and I really gave into him. I dunno why(maybe the drugs and stuff) but I let him have it all. He took me so many times that night I lost count. I fell asleep in his bed with him. and if my ass brushed into his cock he took me again. he fucked me in ways I was sure would break my body. he put my ankles up next to my head and I thought I would die. In the morning before he would drive me home I had to cum for him. That was the first time a guy had ever expected me to cum. I always had just given. Even with my wife I had mostly given though I did cum often in and for her. I'm not easily pushed to orgasm. So he made me lay in his bed stroking myself until I came. when I got home I fell asleep with his cum still in me and he had fucked me so hard long and roughly I was bleeding again. I of course never contacted him again but I've been tempted. The way he treated me was really well even if the whole ordeal made me feel like i was going to be murdered. that was my last bi/gay experience.

i might tell the stories of the girls i did stuff with during my breakdown but I mostly just wanted to get this out there. I'm a loner and I don't have any family so I've never had anyone to confide in I also have high functioning autism and PTSD from being orphaned and put in the system. Might be why I took my separation with my wife so hard. that and the abuses she inflicted on me. I'm just looking for any genuine thoughts. I don't want to be heckled. I know that what I did was weird and disturbing and dangerous. But I wasn't my normal self. So yea. that's about it.

pretty sure this girl has more videos

My Dorm Mates GF

I'm a loner. Never cared too much about company. Nevertheless I lived in a shared apartment with 3 other people. I tried to avoid contact as much as possible, staying in my room playing video games when the others were in the kitchen etc.

One day I noticed a toilet bag in the bathroom, which did not belong to any of us 4. It was colorful, so I assumed it was from a girl. I heard chatter from the kitchen, so I went to check if I was right. As you can guess, I was. She was tall, about 6 feet almost. Long blond hair, dark blue eyes (which I didnt immediately see, I didnt look her in the face for long enough), and C cups. I introduced myself, she said her name was Anna. From the way my dorm mate acted around her, I easily guess that they were a couple. After asking basic questions like "what do you study" etc. I made my excuses and went back to my room. She looked so damn good that I wanted to fap, so I went online and looked for porns with girls that look (or atleast have the same body) as her. After I was done, I went to the bathroom to clean myself up. I saw her toilet bag again and thought "I should cum on her brush next time" since it just lay there in the open. But thinking of all the drama that might bring, I discarded the idea immediately.

I dont really know if it was this night or some other night Anna visited, but I sometimes could hear her and my dorm mate fuck at night. She was quite the squeaker. Everytime I heard them fuck I would masturbate to pictures of a girl that looked just like her, imagining me pounding her pussy right now.

Sometimes when Anna came to visit, I would try to flirt with her, when her BF (Jim) was not around. She always reacted reluctantly, so I didnt push too hard. Just saying "You look nice today" or just ask how she is. O/C that did not get me anywhere.

Sometimes Jim went to University the whole day while she stayed in the dorm. On one such occasion, the day went as follows:
I woke up (late). Went to the bathroom to see Annas toilet bag there. I still had morning wood, which got pretty hard then. I tried my best to aim my pee, hard task when you're rock hard. I went back to my room, still with a boner (7 inch) clearly visible in my sweatpants. I had an idea. I made sure my boner was staying hard by stoking myself. Then I went to the kitchen door and looked if Anna was in it. Luckily she was. Sitting at the table, eating her toast. She wore just a tshirt and shorts, I could see the outline of her tits under it. She looked so fucking hot, i became even harder. When she saw me she looked at my face and said Hi, then her went to my bulge and stayed there for a while. I said Hi back. Now the shelf with all my shit is above the table, so I had to stand right next to her to reach my breakfast. I went really close to her mumbling something like "sorry.. I ... sor... I have to... if you dont mind" - here you have to know, Im really tall, so my cock was on the height of her face - and tried to reach my food. She didnt move, so my dick touched her face for a short time before I got my food down. "Sorry again" I said, she smiled and answered "its all good". I was too insecure to have breakfast right beside her while I was rock hard and just shoved my dick in her face, so I went to my room.

After that incident, I thought to myself "next time she visits, I will cover her brush in cum". Some weeks went by without her visiting (she does not live nearby) so I got unsure of my plan.... But when she finally came back I saw my chance.

She arrived at evening, and I did not want to go for it while Jim was in the house. So I waited. Heard them fuck again. I had to wait till morning. But I still fapped that night, for some hours too, cumming multiple times. The next morning I heard Jim leave, so I went to the kitchen again to see Anna sitting there in her shirt and shorts again. O/C I was hard. I went for the "sorry ... " thing again, standing so close to her I thought I could feel her breath. When I reached up and my dick touched her face again, I thought I felt something, so I looked down while taking down my food and just saw her hand retreat from my pants. She didnt really touch my dick, but her hand was at my pants I'm pretty sure. I mumbled "sorry again..." and she also said "sor .. i mean no problem". I sat down with her that morning. We chatted for a bit, but she still seemed reserved. I think she saw how much I was looking at her chest, so she covered it with her arms.
I finished my breakfast, while she was still drinking coffee. When I got up, I saw her staring at my dick again. I went to the bathroom, shut the door and started masturbating. When I was close, I took her brush and sprayed my cum all over it and the wall over the sink. I cleaned up the wall, and looked at the brush again. It was covered in cum. I wanted her to brush her teeth with my cum, but like that she would see it immediately. So I washed some off until I thought it was barely visible. When I came out of the bathroom, she was already standing infront of it, I was so surprised I nearly fell over. "woah you scared me" I said. I thought "did she hear me jack off?" She said: "sorry just want to brush my teeth" and smiled. I smiled back and went to my room. I heard her brush her teeth and was hard again, so I fapped to that sound, thinking of my cum in her mouth.

When I was done fapping I started to realize what I had done. Shit. Did she see it? Did she taste it? What will she say? So I stayed in my room the whole day. I managed to avoid her. When Jim came home though - nothing happend ;-) lucky me. The night went by with me fapping more. O/C. The next day I had breakfast with her again, but didnt push my luck - or my dick - in her face. She didnt mention her brush in any way, so I thought I was safe. She caught me looking at her chest again and ask me: "Do you like my tits? You stare at them all the time!" I blushed, I think my whole face went red and said "sorry, yeah they are nice". I was still looking at them so she said "stop looking please." So I looked at her face instead and smiled. She winked back.
After the breakfast I went into the bathroom again, cum all over her brush again, but I managed not to make a huge mess this time around. I left on a bit more cum this time, before I went out of the bathroom. She was standing in front of it again, and I jumped again. She smiled "again". I laught and went to my room. I wanted to watch her brushing and I could because our bathroom had a window that went to a hall (the hall went to the attic, yes confusing, but real :D). The window itself was opaque but always ajar, so I could peek through the slits. I managed to get to the window without making any noise and looked while she brushed her teeth with my cum. She could have seen me as well, I was visible in the mirror, but I thought she didnt spot me, till the very end. I was not sure if she looked at me for a split second. I hurried back to my room before she came out.

Again I waited the whole day if something was going to happen. Nothing did though.

Next time same procedure, but when she went to the bathroom she left the door open. I could see her from my room, again brushing her teeth with my cum. This time I was sure she didnt see me.

This night, after everyone else went to sleep, I was still awake, reading a book. I heard steps in the hall. Then I heard a soft knock. I wasnt even sure if it was my door, but then it was pushed open. In the hall - Anna, wearing only a big t-shirt. She came in and closed the door before I could say anything. "what the..." she shut me up by putting a finger on her lips. I put the book away and she sat on my bed as said "Be honest, did you cover my brush in cum the last days?" I was shocked, not sure what to answer, and overwhelmed by the direct question I said "Yes..." She smiled at me, and asked "Do you want to see my tits?" I nodded, not knowing what was happening to me. She pulled the shirt over her head and was completely naked. I was stunned. She removed the covers and revealed my rock hard dick - still in my boxers though. She was in control. But not for long. I knew she knew I wanted her. I grabbed her left tit and pushed her onto the bed. "I like to be dominated" she said smiling and added "we have to be quiet, but I'm rather loud, you'll have to silence me."
I had handcuffs under my bed, brought them up and cuffed her to the bed, arms overhead. She playfully shifted her body - as if she would try to break free. I was harder than ever before. I held her down and shoved my dick in her mouth. She willingly started sucking it right away.
I hadnt had sex in a bit, so I was close after just 2 min of sucking. I shot my load without a warning as deep into her throat as possible. She choked a bit but swallowed it all. After she cleaned my dick with her tongue, I took of my boxers and stuffed them in her mouth. Then I went down on her. Her pussy was already soaking, so I licked her clit while putting two fingers inside her pussy. I heard her moaning through the boxers. After a few seconds of fingering, I pulled out the fingers and stuck one into her ass. I did it so fast, her waist went upwards for a second before falling down again. My other hand was massaging her tits roughly. After her ass could take one finger well, I added another. I wanted to spread her. As the second finger went in, I felt her pulsing and gushing in my face. She definitely came. But I didnt stop. She started winding, trying to get me off, but I didnt stop fingering her and licking her clit. When she came the second time, her squeaking was so loud, I was sure it must have been heard by the others. So I stopped and listed, only to hear her panting while everything else stayed silent. I sat up, turned her on her belly, made her go in to doggy position. My dick was so hard, I felt the blood pulsing through it. I started pounding her as hard as I could. Everytime i hit her ass with my body *SMACK*. She was moaning hard, harder than I ever heard her moan. When her pussy thightend around my dick, I couldnt hold back and shot a big load in her pussy. She collapsed, I removed the boxers from her mouth. She was breathing heavily. I uncuffed her and lay beside her.
After a few minutes she went to the bathroom to clean herself up, then went back to Jim.

The End. Want to hear more? :-)

I like to meet interesting women online. Smart, funny, younger. Sometimes we'll meet in real life. Sometimes I'll find them next to me naked. That's not an unusual thing to do in life I don't think. Suspect we both know the game. Eventually send them packing back to hubby.

Now something very odd has happened. A young lady I'm not sleeping with has appeared. She's more than 30 years my junior. A smart graduate student. Not a beauty queen, but very smart, educated, laid back. We've been taking day trips and touring the area. I'm not chasing her. She's coming and visiting lots on her own. I really enjoy her company. At a deep level. We've got a specific no-sex gameplan. At the moment. And we don't have that sex "click" that's sometimes there. Just that fine slow burn connectedness. She's a loner. I'm a loner, mostly.

She'll move, probably to a place I actually know, well over 1000 miles away. There's nothing here for her really. The culture doesn't match. And she's revealed how much it doesn't match me really. Funny thing, she's inviting me to come visit ASAP after she goes. To stay with her. She doesn't need men. Very independent.

I'm tempted to keep this up, to start to run a double life. This young lady is just fine with me being married with a family and children about her age. She's not openly interested in sex with me. She's not looking for a husband and kids and all that. I absolutely know that if we went somewhere over night we'd wake up cuddling. And a couple of days of cuddling between people usually leads to kissing and screwing.

I see this type of thing on TV. It hardly seems real. She's not a petite cutie, more a wash and wear back country type. I'm a beat up field guy, scars and a limp from years out in the world. But we're both thinkers and can feel the world shifting to bring us together. What's reassuring is that I don't have the fantasy stuff starting really. I'm not absorbed by the idea of kissing her. When I'm screwing my wife, I can think about this young lady and it's OK. But it's not really a primarily sex click.

Frankly, I'd love to spend time with this young lady hiking and talking. Snuggling and drinking beer. Sleeping next to her under the stars. If sex happens, well. That's usually a great thing.

We both like so much privacy. A couple or three multiday visits a year might give us all we need.

It's really weird to confess that I find myself wanting to share part of my life with someone and sex isn't really driver. Kind of refreshing.

i confess that i love all you fuckers on motherless. the racists, self-proclaimed niggers, socialists, tea partiers, pedos, rapists, camsluts, black intellectuals, dickheads, dirty dads, stupid bitches, closet homos, confession deniers, confession fakers, confession faker defenders, confused boyfriends, naive girlfriends, angry moralfags, amoral fags, cuckold couples, attention whores, alpha males, beta males, omega males, jessi-briana fans, 4chan folk, tor users, submissive whores, clueless virgins, power-hungry admins, horny brothers, and the rest of you angry loners make my life a little easier to deal with. thanks!

i have a confession
When i was a little kid i got abused by my uncle,we were neighbors and when our rents were out of the house we usually ended up at the Aunts house.
My "uncle" was married to my fathers sister,he has 2 daughters,(my cousins got abused as well).
Recently i started to deal with my issues talking to my girlfriend,she is an amazing woman in every sense.
So thanks to her telling me about her past,i learned to deal with mine.
Anyways,when i was about 4 he used to lay in bed with boxers,(witch i hate just the sight of them today).
He was buddy buddy with my father (another idiot),and i think they got the kicks with children.
I remember a few incidents where i was laying in bed with him and he will put some jelly on his dick and made me lick it off,i was so young that i didnt know what was sexual and what was not.
Then will put some on his toes as well, and made me lick it off.
This went on for a year or so.
I even remember some instances of my father watching,but those are more vague like a dream in my head. (maybe cause i dont want to believe it)
Until i told my grandfather when i saw him peeing that his toe was larger then my uncle's.
He grabbed me and got down to his knees and asked me,who told you that the penis was called a "toe".
So i told him what i did to my uncle,and he started to cry,then he grabbed his shotgun and drove me to my house,(next to my uncle's).
Later that night my father came and had a talk with me,about sex,i was only 5 years old!. But he didnt feel bad or anything about shit,he just gave me the talk.
But since that night i felt that my family has cast me out of everything,felt guilty for getting people in trouble,so i retreated to be a very introverted person.
Then after the years went by,i became a teenager with my hormones raging all the time.
Well.. i got to live for a short period of time with my Aunt i always flirted with her,and she did with me,i got to see her naked plenty of times,and she would not mind at all if i was looking at her.
I touched her breast many times but never did anything sexual with her,she probably got turned on thinking of me masturbating to her.
But then again,i didnt pursue her much,i was more in to flirting with my cousin,she was older then me,and what happen one night led to the other one,
With me getting a blow job from her, inside of the closet.
The great part about this story is that i got caught by her dad,he flipped the fuck out.
I remember him so mad and red,spitting saliva like a mad men,he was yelling at her to the top of his lungs.
Then he turned to me,cussing me out and grabbing my arm like he wanted to rip it off my socket,and said wtf is this shit,how long this has been going on?.
And i said to him, this was the first time i made her suck my "toe".
He started to puke and i ran out of the room.
Never the less i got a beat down from my father when i he came to pick me up from my grandpa's home.
I am almost 40 now,and it took me this long to realize how my childhood fucked me up in every sense,i was never able to be intimate with anybody,i never felt wrong for having sex with too many women,always treated them like pieces of meat,and i never let anybody get too close to me,i am a loner and i suck being around people,Now i have a girlfriend in my life,and well i just want to thank her for making me fall in love and making me deal with my issues, that is the most beautiful experience in life.

Is there a loner vid of these three?

kind of a loner, wanting to smoke T with someone for the first time . any one in noho?
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