i am a guy who just got engaged and i can't stop looking at other women. i fantasize about fucking the girls i see at church. i like when they kneel for communion, i try to see their panties.

I confess I "hack" into my ex's facebook.

I don't contact him and have no desire to. I suppose it just gives me a sense of relief knowing all those years he spent telling me I was imagining things when I accused him of cheating were years I spent being right.

Currently, he is telling five different girls that he loves them, that communion with them is blissfully sinful and tasting crimson darkness with them is transcendent or some bullshit. They have no fucking clue.

I know it's wrong and completely, absolutely, totally immature. I know. I don't need a lecture. There really is a part of me that kind of feels badly.

But mostly not.

I owe everything to the superhuman race of mighty Blackness. I will be forever in your debt. Oh glorious Nubian Kings & Queens, hear my prayers! I hereby forsake the inferior white ways. I blaspheme the inferior christian gods. I gleefully destroy hundreds of years of family heritage. I accept & appreciate the Gospel of the Almighty BNWO. It is with tremendous pride that my white bloodline will end with me & BBC. Oh’ Ebony Goddess! Oh’ praise your holy name. As I bow before your Holy Blackness, please hear my daily prayers. Grace me with your Melanated guidance as a faithful missionary of the BNWO Holy Gospel in anything & everything I do.
  OH’ Almighty AFRICAN SAVIOR, I bow before thee as your humble white sissy. I beg for communion with your life-giving Black Seed. I eternally pledge my obedient heart, a loyal soul, & my mind of shame from wretched whiteness. Kneeling in awe before your Darkness reaffirms my love of Black servitude. I am amazed. Nothing compares to the greatness of the Black Race.
  Pound my pussy as I preach the pulpit’s these final words of worship! From the top of my cum-stained lungs I now proudly proclaim! Oh’ ALMIGHTY AFRICAN SAVIOR…..you are the one true God. The King of Kings. Lord of Lords. Ruler of Everything. African Divinity, the Alpha. African Divinity, the Omega. Omnipotent African Divinity Eternity. To this Superior African Sacredness, I solemnly swear this eternal public declaration: 
 — Take my heart, Oh Great Blackness, make it yours.
  —Snatch this body, breed me as your whore.
   —My mind is now for Black Control.
    —Take this christian soul & turn it BLACK as coal.
🖤💋✊🏿💋♠️💋🙏🏿

Communion

S.P.I.R.I.T. - Southern Plantation InterRacial Interactive Tradition
SPIRIT is a genre of heterosexual erotica involving dominant whites exercising their social southern tradition of sexual rights over respectfully submissive blacks who are willing servants, not slaves, and always answer their dominators with "Sir" or "Ma'am", but never "Master".
Although the terms nigger, niggerbull, boy, niggerlupa, bitch, girl, whore, are accepted as standard designations, domination never involves humiliation or physical abuse (such as gagging, slapping, choking, suffocating, spitting, cumming anywhere outside of a woman, pussy/ass to mouth, homosexual acts, etc.) as the niggers are always treated as valued breeding stock and pets. Complete submission is always achieved upon the firm gentile grip of a white person's hand upon a nigger's genitals and then upon the nigger's head exhibiting the social authority of white power as the nigger goes down to their knees to give head in the sacred act of nigger communion.
The practice of albadominus (white sexual dominance) is enabled by the lifestyle of nigerservus (black sexual service) in which blacks accept their social purpose of sexual subservience to be the natural result of ancestral breeding on the southern plantations. As the careful breeding of enslaved black women had produced black bitches who could not resist white cock, so too had such breeding inadvertently produced niggerbulls aroused by the sight of the plantation pairing with their nigger wives while never being able to resist the lure of a white cunt. As the genetic disposition of the black bitch predisposes her to sexually seek the personal comfort of the social protection and provision that can only be provided by a white man (socially referred to as white power), the black bitch always experiences powerful orgasms from the idealistic fantasy of being safely owned by a white man along with the actual sense of complete security that she can only experience from having the white man's cock deep inside her. Likewise, as the genetic disposition of the niggerbull predisposes him to be a committed servant and protector of the white woman, nothing arouses the niggerbull more than feeding at the white cunt of life before devoutly offering his massive load of niggerseed at the pleasure of the dominant white woman.

S.P.I.R.A.L. - Southern Plantation InterRacial Antebellum Lifestyle
SPIRAL is a sub-genre of SPIRIT pertaining to niggers who choose to give up their jobs and possessions to go live naked (though not barefoot) on southern plantations where they are taken care of as breeding stock.
Divided into house niggers and field niggers, house niggers live in the big house and perform casual housework tasks in addition to their sexual obligations while field niggers live in the stables and perform casual gardening tasks in addition to their sexual obligations. SPIRAL also takes place away from the plantations in the urban centers where single niggers and nigger couples live with their white homeowners. SPIRAL ultimately occurs in secret, off of the road, niggertowns, where every household has niggers who regularly walk about the town naked and where niggerbreeding is at the foundation of the local economy.

S.P.A.M.M. - Swirl Pearls And Mature Mandingos
SPAMM is the SPIRIT sub-genre of spoiled, interracial desiring (swirl), petite teen white girls (pearls), sexually dominating mature Mandingos (M&Ms) whose duty to them is to protect and serve them addressing them as princesses.
Any conceptions to occur results in the pearls deciding the fates of the babies with no involvement from the fathers.

P B & J - Polar Bears & Jungle Bunnies
PB&J is the sub-genre of SPIRIT erotica pertaining to stout mature white men (polar bears) sexually dominating and breeding willing younger black women (jungle bunnies) usually with both of them in their socks and t-shirts in front of the jungle bunnies' nigger husbands.
Jungle bunnies always have un-straitened hair and hair surrounding their vaginas and refer to their first polar bear as 'Sire' as he will always retain primary sexual rights to her and will present her with a collar that she will always proudly wear in acknowledgement of his rights over her.
When a sexually active black woman is taken by a white man for the very first time, the event is referred to as being an A.R. or Antebellum Reunion in which the black woman is said to have been 'restored' to her proper place and function.
Any conceptions to occur results in the sale of the zygotes to an underground adoption agency for $10,000 to be divided between the bear and the bunny. This modernized honored southern tradition is known as niggerbreeding and allows the polar bear to form partnerships with several jungle bunnies to provide an adequate source of income on the black market for both himself and their families who acknowledge his white seed and white power as making him their household's primary income provider as well as the actual man of the house.

B.A.J. - Buckras And Jungle Bunnies
The BAJ SPIRIT sub-genre celebrates the coming of age tradition of virgin teen white boys (buckras) encouraged by their fathers to sexually dominate and breed a grown jungle bunny in front of her nigger husband to earn the badge of white manhood for which it is always a great honor for the jungle bunny to have been utilized in enabling a white boy to become a white man.
On very rare occasions, a buckra may actually meet the challenge of earning his badge of white manhood through a disrespectful black woman with whom he will seduce into submission to having an A.R. to teach her proper respect and restore her to her proper place and function in front of her nigger husband (if she's married). On such rare occasions, the restored niggress will usually become the devoted black bitch of the young buckra who thereby becomes her sire.
Any conceptions to occur results in the sale of the zygotes to an underground adoption agency for $10,000 to be divided between the buckra and the bunny unless the bunny is a restored married niggress who enthusiastically accepts the honor of baring and raising her young sire's child.

Avrila
The Avrila is the SPIRIT sub-genre celebrating the coming of age tradition of teen black girls who are presented by their mothers for deflowering by polar bears to officially become proud black bitches.
If the mother is without a polar bear to call upon, when time and finances allow, the mothers will coach their daughters while they're vacationing out of town at a motel or hotel on how to present themselves to an available white man for deflowering.
Any conceptions to occur results in the black bitches keeping their babies with no involvement from the fathers unless the black bitch is fortunate enough to become the personal breeding bitch of her deflowerer who then becomes her sire.

Real Queens of Spades
The sub-genre of SPIRIT for Real Queens of Spades refers to established white women known as either queens or albadoms sexually dominating niggerbulls for pleasure and occasional breeding.
The symbol of the queens is a crown atop of a spade bearing the emblem of a 'Q' and usually displayed at the center of a Confederate flag.
Niggerbulls often serve as butlers wearing bowties, tight t-shirts, and footwear, at albadom functions casually providing them with head upon demand. The niggerbulls are usually trained in the service of the Daughters of Freya, a religious fertility cult of white women devoted to the goddess Freya by maintaining stables of devout niggerbulls trained to worship white women as goddesses for sexual pleasure and breeding and holding every act of giving or receiving head from the white goddesses as being the giving of a blessing. Other niggerbulls are trained by albadoms; independent white women who train niggers from off of the streets to become devoted niggerbulls.
Any conceptions to occur from breeding results in the queens keeping the babies with no involvement from the fathers.

How many White women out there would just love to have an obedient big black bull to serve and protect you? Someone who will service your every need while keeping you satisfied like no one else can! His mouth, ever willing to engage in communion with your cunt and his big black cock ever willing to sink deep within you and fill you up.

My daughter was baptised into the Roman Catholic faith when she was two months old. She is now six, and should really be gearing up for her first communion.

am i really a bad person just because i want a priest to fuck me on the communion table during church while i am dressed as a girl?

im afraid my son doesnt believe in God anymore. he refuged to his communion and said "fuck off dad, i just want to rock!".

so boot camp?