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My first confession here, and yes, I am new to this place. How I found it, and how I ended up here is a long story, which I can begin to explain by saying that I have always been very sexually active. You can't say that I was promiscous, but I always looked at sex as something normal, healthy and generally a thing no one should be ashamed of.
I am 38 now, female, married for almost 15 years, mom, and. a good wife. My husband is a love of my life, I am still very much attracted to him, we have good sex, and, there is not a single reason I should be unhappy. But...
My sex drive was always higher than his. At the start, when we went at each other like rabbits, I was fully satisfied, I gotta admit. But, since many years have passed, our sex is not as frequent as it once was, and that pushed me to self pleasuring, on a frequent schedule. And, long story short, I somehow ended up here, not for the porn, but for the written word, that can be mostly awful, and clearly made up, but it can be very enticing and exciting to see and read about the experiences and turn ons by others.
So, I guess this is where my story actually begins. I have always been flirty and I have been told more than once, that I am charming, as generally a very socially oriented person, but in the past few years, I have been using flirting as a kind of a vent, fully knowing that it won't lead nowhere, but still practicing it, for the fun of it. Combine that with, always growing self awareness, and the fact that I understand that time passing by is not getting me any younger, a compliment here and there makes me feel warm on the inside.
To be clear, I am objectively aware that I am above average looking for my age, but still, we all have our inner doubts, and we all enjoy our doses of serotonin.
So, in July, I went to a short holiday to Greece, with my mother and my offspring (as I understand the other word is forbidden here), as my husband was prevented to go at that time, because of work, and we also planned another little trip in August, when only we will go to the seaside.
First day, I have noticed a guy working at the kitchen bar, looking at me. It was a small hotel beach, in Rhodes, with a restaurant / caffe on the beach, and an open kitchen, looking at the beach. We chose a place right underneath it, at the top of the beach, and I caught him looking. It is not the first time someone gawks at me in a bikini, so, I forgot about it instantly. That same day, when we went to lunch at the same place, when our orders came, I saw that only my salad had eatable flower decoration on it. When I figured that out, I instinctively looked at the direction of the bar, and he was looking back, with a smile, obviously waiting for my reaction, and if I will figure it out.
That is where our game began. I thought nothing of it. He was a semi/handsome man, in his 20s I would say. Tomorrow, we located again at the top of the beach, and I deliberately started teasing him. You know, nothing special, turning the subbed so he can see me, moving my bikini so I can tan my bottoms. Again, flowers in the salad, plus, the waiter brought a rose in a little vase, only to our table.
Same the next day, as I got a little more daring, when the other two were in the water, I got my top off, to catch a few rays, while also checking if he is looking. He was.
The next day, I was deliberately standing in his sight, while oiling myself to prevent sunburns. I did it slowly, and I did it in a cheeky, sensual way. I also made eye contact for a few seconds, while doing it. And it was exciting, I must say. Not the fact that I wanted to do anything with him, but the fact that he was obviously attracted to me, and that he enjoyed this play, more than I did.
On the 4th or 5th day, I decided to drink my cocktail, standing at the bar, and as the caffe bar, and kitchen bar are continuing to one another, I chose the place at the division of these two sections. He was clearly sweating, not just from the heat, as I saw he was battling with himself if he should talk to me. For a moment, I thought that the kitchen staff is forbidden from talking to the guests, but that wasn't the case, he was just nervous. Then, I realised, he is maybe 24 or 25, and I might look scary to him, as I forgot that I am an "older lady" for him, and that made me feel bad, maybe I have over done it.
But, he found the nerve, and started talking. He was asking me, in bad English, these profane questions: where I am from, am I enjoying the holiday etc. I acted uninterested at first, but he didn't give up. The next day, I started flirting, you know, for flirting sake and my dose of serotonin, and that soften him up a bit.
How I felt? I felt wanted, and one day I even got a little horny, and sent my husband an unsolicited topless photo.
So, I guessed that will be it, even as our flirting game continued.
On day 8, I went out at the evening to the city of Rhodes, since the hotel is not far from it, by taxi, and just wandered around. My trip companions weren't up for it, so I was alone. Just walking, looking at the shop windows etc. And guess, what, around 9p.m., when I was gawking at some silly local made sandals, I heard a silent "hello".
It was him, with a grocery bag, smiling at me. My heart started beating faster, I wasn't expecting him out of the hotel. He politely asked me for a coffee, and I agreed.
What followed was very hard for me. The poor guy outright admitted his feelings for me, like a high school kid, started talking how he works those seasonal jobs during the summer, that he is from continental Greece, etc, etc... That is when I asked him about his age. 21. I felt like the crappiest person in the world. I found an excuse why I have to rush back, mumbled about seeing him tomorrow, and fled.
I thought about how I must've done harm to this young man, and that this time I went overboard, by teasing him into thinking that something could have happened. I really felt bad. Tomorrow, I chose the sunbeds lower, by the sea, so I could avoid him. When I went for a shower, since the showers are at the top of the beach, I caught him looking at me. His face... He was obviously aware that the charade is over.
On our last day, I was laying at the beach, with these thoughts racing through my mind. And at one point, it was after lunch, I just got up, and started walking towards the bar, not knowing what I actually want to say. To apologise?
As I approached, his smile was there. And I just blurred out "I wanna say bye, I am leaving tomorrow"
He was still smiling, and said something like "I liked having you around, looking and talking to you"
And that is where I snapped. "you have a place where I can give you a goodbye kiss"
Regreted saying that, the moment I said it. It looked like he was about to choke on the words not able to come out of his mouth "bed room, around corner"
As I walked to the "bed room", I had the urge to run away, but I thought, you made your bed, so now...
As I got around the corner, I realised that it was a room with spare sunbeds, not a bedroom. He was there, in his apron, breathing heavily. When I got in, and closed the door, we were in a complete dark for a few seconds, before he reached for the light. In those few seconds, a year passed in my mind.
I have never cheated on my husband. Never. My, before mentioned sexual appetite has only been fed by myself, in moments between encounters with my husband. I thought I would never cheat on him, since he really didn't deserve it, but on the other hand, I just wanted to give something to this young man, who I used maliciously, for my own fun, not fully understanding the scale of his feelings. I wanted to have sex with him, at that moment, I did, but from the bottom of my heart, I felt ashamed for wanting to cheat. So when that light came up, I got on my knees, and gave him a blowjob.
He was confused, and obviously very horny. I think he wasn't really experienced, since he was just standing there, stiff, while not touching me at all, except for a few light, gentle touches of my breasts, over the swimsuit. He didn't last long, maybe a few minutes, and he really wanted me, judging by the amount of cum, that I wasn't able to swallow by a single gulp.
When I got up, trying to hide the tremor in my legs, I acted all normal, and kissed him on the cheek. And just went out.
I can't remember the last time I was that wet.
Now, two months later, I am still haunted by this. On one hand, I feel terrible for cheating on my husband, and on the other, I can't stop thinking about that whole event. And if you are asking, no, there is no way this or anything similar will happen in the future. I am out of the flirting game, for good.
In a world where there is no top/bottom/dom/sub/alpha/beta or so on.... Just fall in real love and care for all so one takes no risks or will risk anyone being real and always telling the truth. In short not this world as it is....
I would love to find out who loved me was inside and out what I am inside and feel I can never be on the outside... Inside I am a guiding and real loving soul... There has to be deep forever connections to fall in love and share our self to each other...
I am born male but left to turn into what ever my soul was by parents with open minds... I seem male in passing but found to be loving,giving,thoughtful,caring,protective (in correct ways) of others... But soft and sweet too and not anything like so called alpha take it all types...
A dominate Bi female got to know me as a friend and I am her only equal and she makes that clear to others that in they think they can be anyting but submissive to her, WRONG... I am the only one who can say no,tell her to stop and think or anything just as she can me.. We respect each other and help where the other may need a different view or know when to back away from something...
She says I need to own I am on the inside a dominate kinky woman to be cared for, pleased and worshiped as her... She showed how any gender should be to her and we talked about how many things I could not do to another...
She said thats fine. They still have to treat me as they should (then smiled hugging me and telling me or she would make them lol...)..
So I dream of someone that when alone they are the soft and loving type as I am.. Sweet and giving...
I will say her ideas turn me on to think of.. Make me think of more kink and dirty things being treated as they do her but return that how I want to as she said I could and they want me even more as I give when given to..
I guess thats why transgenders leaning feminine but will be strong for who they love and defend what they love and care for what they love deeply...
I am never a sub ever...
I am something I see no term for...
I guide and help.
I want to share and add to what we share and want the other to talk and be a real part of what we explore and find what we both like or find some common ground in how its done that makes us both need it dearly :)
As a fact and no gender or social ideas, I want so many ways to share love.
Anal both ways..
Oral both ways.
Play both ways.
Master bate (ok, speller will not accept one world.. Love tech, dont you lol) each other or help each other too...
Pleasure shared at the same time AND swap giving it.
All and no more or less of someone in any of it.
In side I am drawn to females loving each other very sweet and warm not as objects but as the most alike way of showing love that Is what my heart needs and wants to give... Not two guys tossing each other around....
I do not need hot...
Just someone who knowing all about them and we share so much is what draws us deeply to each other and our loving,caring compassion for each other and in general others drives us both to always stay in a falling in love state forever to each other...
When all said and done...
I dream if whats in the pic can ever happen...
That who is on their back got cleaned inside and just started getting me hard then got like that and told me they got clean and need means showed their anus to me with their hands in their ass making them gape a little as they relax for me to penetrate... I want to feel all as I slowly enter and feel their warmth around my cock as I go deeper...
Even if they just bend over and want me to start then, I still WILL always think of them so if they want me to shove in or what ever then they have to guide on that... I will always think of their feelings and want to do all I can as I feel pleasure to also focus on putting their orgasm before mine unless they guide me to do different...
But that is both ways... If they give anal then they need to feel as I do when I give..
Same with oral or play... To give pleasure...
If nothing is said then we without question have a need to return that pleasure to who is pleasing us.
What would be the best If I was giving anal?
To feel and see them orgasm hands free and I last as long as I can but being pleased they tell me deep and close and then grip me and tell me they need me love giving anal and do what I love the feel of the most as they see and feel all as I build to and then cum and go as long as I can stopping against them and inside as long as I can as we feel together all we feel....
What if getting?
If they could cum two times in a row every time then I would orgasm on the second if they could do that but I want them to be like me and want me to cum first....
They knowing what I wish but putting me first would make me want anal even more if they always wanted to put my feelings first and cum from just pleasure by anal when they start in me.
Just as I hope they would at times just want to give fully to me and give oral for my pleasure only or anything for mine only, I want to do the same even more if they do for me...
It would be funny with oral I think....
I can see us starting to give and find hands on ours giving pleasure as oral is being given and have to lovingly swat their had off knowing it is in fun but also knowing the other is so much wanting to give pleasure too... :)
I can see oral being any time every day if wanted..
I know I would love anal when ever it could be...
I hope they would want it and want to give it at least every day if not more...
I might even say it does enter my mind and draws me to want anal as a craving when I think of someone who loves to clean me, care for all, play and pleasure my body, LOVE to play slowly giving pleasure to my anus inside and out.
(i do not mean this as many show when this term is used...)
They are intent on making me cum even if I am worn out from orgasms....
Seeing my body react to their touch and love I hope keeps them turned on...
Seeing my pre cum and taking a taste I hope drives them more...
Seeing when I am moist (yes I do get that way) and it has a mind of its own wanting their cock in to touch all the areas screaming for penetration and being made love to badly to the point it is contracting and twitching...
I truly want to have a way to see it all...
I want to see them play and all that I feel giving me so much pleasure....
Seeing them enjoy making my body react on its own and even producing slick fluid that I know I do from my play and I hope it turns them on I get wet like that :)
I want to see them as the get near my anus.
I want to see the head on my entrance.
I will try and relax so I can see the tip make its way in bit by bit as they draw out a little for my fluid to help them go deeper next slow little push...
I want to see when the rings allow them to enter and feel my lover slowly fill the area needing to feel it and see then slowly sliding in deeper till fully in...
I want to see as they adjust and slowly pull away and find the right way to give me max pleasure and hitting my p spot so well I can tell I will cum soon...
When they find the way to enter and thrust I so want to see what ever size they have (I can cum from 1 inch of a finger lol) sink into me as I feel them and feel what my anus sends in feelings of pleasure...
I hope they edge and milk a little cum to the tip that they finger up and suck off :)
I hope they love seeing and feeling how I am to being given anal in a way I love it and want more and more...
If they truly want me to crave anal then they do all they can to last longer and longer...
They work with my body and make me orgasm better than any other way wanting more....
They feel me getting tighter and adjust to not pop out as other do in pics...
They listen and what ever I ask they do but make sure not to over do it what ever I might say of faster and harder or deeper (you know, when balls deep you push a little more lol)...
I want what they feel to be amazing to their cock as they are doing so well pleasing me...
I want them to make me cum herder than I ever could on my own or other ways and keep making me cum as I orgasm...
Can one imagine the feeling you gave an orgasm to who you love?
How would that make you feel?
Would that be a huge turn on?
Better than taking could ever be? :)
All that and as I am getting where I can grip their cock and they know it is because I am deeply pleased and looking at them wanting to see their cock going in feeling pleasure as I feel them in me and seeing them react to making it harder to push in...
They know I want them to orgasm from pleasure and want their cum they kept safe from risk so I could with no fear want them to cum all they can in the warmth of my anus as I know they will always pleasure me greatly any time I need without question and even when I did not expect it :)
I want to feel how they make love to me as they orgasm and keep a tight grip till they slide deep and rest as I feel them contract too try and stay hard...
I will relax so I can keep their contracting cock in me and feel them doing all they can to stay in me so I can feel them as we look into each others eyes...
I want us to know we gave and shared and that we will always love each other and find so many ways express it and share it...
If things are magic, Well, I may be hard and they may too...
As they slowly start back, I am not sure if not being so close as before if I would cum before or with them...
I hope they figure this and in that exception they play with my balls,pubic skin and cock till they know they can make me cum again and I then want them to cum also...
If they realy love giving anal and love to make me cum from pleasure.... If they crave it more than once a day... Just shock me by being eager to clean me with pleasure and I will be so ready for anal right them :)
Someone who makes something so great and fun can truly lean me to wanting to get anal much more than just expecting it.
Drive me wild and make me dry cum like crazy first and I will always want to make sure you love the feel of giving anal and want to adjust to your orgasm is just a great...
Do not think I am a bottom..
I want to give like crazy to as the craving hits me...
But if you make getting better than me giving then what would you think I would love :)
But there are times we just give oral and then play with anal...
Like one thing I may like... :)
As we 69 and are hard...
I hope you have got clean and want to play before we started :)
To a giving being I want to try things..
When we are both hard, I lay back some and my mate slowly lowers their anus around my cock...
I want them to let their weight be supported on me :)
Now in my love there may be two ways to go or some combo :)
One would be they can try and see if they can cum just from contractions like others can...
I hope my cock in them as something to grip helps :)
Just to lay there as they find this magic other do and see if they love it and just keep hard for them as I watch and smile might be fun and even more if it makes them cum and they want to do it more...
Note I did not say I cum :) I want them to find how to place me and them self for their pleasure as they would know what they feel and I want the best for them :)
I hope many times along with oral we can just touch and rub areas we only let the other touch..
Spending time even if limp just relaxing.
Placing or hands on pubic skin fingers spread a little so the cock is in between...
Pressing a little in a kinky hug :)
Taking a finger and getting to the head and around it and the skin behind...... Just making a slow rub caressing the others cock and passing time...
Sometimes slowly with some fingers gliding over the balls and behind to find areas that tingle to be rubbed ;)
Tracing the middle line back up to the base of the cock and gliding slowly up the cock to the head and running slow rings behind the head finding those spots that can feel so good it almost is too much :)
Just doing that together sharing time together....
Others would be like when I hope they want to be in my lap in them....
I wonder as I slow play and rub if they like it better with their love touching them and not their own hands...
Do they like having their love in them at the same time?
I try to just keep hard as I explore their lower area finding anything I can tell makes their body tell on them they like the feel :)
To get them to precum and look into their eyes as I finger it off and suck it..
I am playful :)
I may tap their nose with it lol :)
But I will finger it off and suck it at times :)
Might they adjust me in them to feel my cock better as I play :)
Do they want me to keep going slow or speed up some?
Will they now love doing this to me :)
I hope I feel them get tight and even a twitch :)
But I do want them to tell me so they do not cum till I am ready to do whats next...
Do they want slow anal or still me touching their body to make them cum?
In any case DO NOT CUM....
When you know it will happen tell me quick so I can hold and close off the end to save the cum inside till the orgasm is over....
Now. I am hoping the first time they have questions whats next :)
Slowly they lift up and make sure we are clean... I want to get where I can take their cock as if giving oral....
Sealed I let go and suck the cum all out of their cock I held back... every last drop... :)
I wonder what they think of this :)
I hope they crave to do the same to me :)
Now if they are not one to oral after anal (at this time I am not sure if I could.. Would see in time), It would be nice if the told me to take them now I made them cum...
To have them so clean and wanting me to give anal but they are giving them self to me now I made them cum.... Well.. Thinking of it turns me on... :)
So many things so many ways so many times we just want to give to the other but end up sharing and both orgasm and cum...
Just some things I wish others were like out there so the one for life would love to care for me forever and we love each other for ever :)
Do not think all this means thats all..
after all I did out of no where like Lady gaga and born this way...
I wish we all accepted each other and stopped the degrading and hate part...
So much more out there to share if all genders and races truly cared and were not like some are with a few doing all they can to mess up others and even give them sti/stds for fun! no way.. hard limit.. You do not do what one may not want and you do not expect if YOU know what you have that it is up to them to do it all...
To do whats right take way more thought of others and I wish others would see that and get how a person like that would see them as more also...
I am not against people who inform each other and are aware and all for their kink to be happy...
I am all for people to do as they love but respect others rights just as a being as you would want others to respect you...
If you get what I mean... I can stand with almost everyone and their kinks even more so than many would or did....
But I do draw in stone a hard line....
One I do not think is so hard to accept...
I have in my life seen many who would not think I could accept them and think I looked down on them be shocked and just start talking and learning all about things when they know where I stand.
It may be why the least expected ones will be drawn to me...
I stand out at times when around a friend I have I run into...
I seem just standard male...
They can be goth, dominate female (but I am their only male equal), Furr, or any type if their souls are anything like mine and sees and cares for all except who hates and harms.
I truly stand out as the odd one they laugh and say ;)
So I may not want to be a part of something like scat... But I have found later that some people who I would never guess were...
We knew our personal differences and our common ground.
Piss,scat,dirty rim, what ever.. No harm and never pushed ones rights about it.
We did find it interesting to talk about things blunt and open with no insult...
I do find others interesting even if it is not for me lol :)
We can joke.
I was asked if i would like to have a bite and talk to someone I had not seen for a bit..
I laughed and said I will not be having what you will be having and they truly laughed...
One asked if I had those little stoppers I use.... What? (they know I do not mess with anyone unless it is forever and the genders and things I would do... They know I would love just doing 69 to pass time with someone who was with me for life not even to cum but just edge each other and relax)..
The stoppers I said?
Yep, they had a hot date and wanted to suck but could not stand piss..
Ha ha.. In truth I laughed as they can not understand how I can be drawn to oral any gender (just not the ass) and the piss not bug me...
I have no clue,
But never know till someone like me loves me and who knows...
I wish respect was the rule of all for each other above ones personal ideas.
That would allow safe and sane caring to rise and so much just be normal and less hurt and other issues...
Well...
Paws up..
(ya know.. the song.. )...
I kmow this is an odd place to turn for advice, but I'm curious what responses I will get. I am a 27 year old straight male with pedo and ephebophiliac tendencies, and some twisted sick fantasies. I'm not proud of it, but I've grown to accept it. I go weak in the knees whenever I see a cute girl about 16 or younger, and my heart races anytime I see one in any stage of undress. And I can't even begin to describe the feeling when I catch a glimpse of a hairless, pre-pubescent little pussy! Now I would never hurt a child, and while I fantasize about things like molestation, rape, blackmail, sharking, etc., I know the difference between fantasy and reality, and while I might go out of my way to peek up a tween's skirt or spy on a little girl getting undressed, I would kill myself before I ever knowlingly allowed harm or caused harm to come to a child.
Now having been a pedo most of my life and a male for all of it, I'm no stranger to being unfairly judged. I constantly hear the terms pedophile and child molester used synonymously. I know what it's like to always be passed up for a child care or sitter job even though I'm better qualified than another candidate simply because I'm male. I know what it's like to not even be able to confide in my closest friends for fear of being judged or told to stay away from their family. Quite frankly, it sucks.
So here's my issue. I've recently fallen in love with and gotten married to a wonderful woman who is, surprisingly, almost 9 years older than myself. She knows about my interests and is thankfully both understanding and forgiving. But with this marraige I have also gained two young nephews who live close and are a very active part of our lives now. Now I have never been interested in boys, so there is no problem there on my part, but my wife and I are about to take in a new roommate in the form of my brother, who is also a pedo. And unlike myself, he started off liking only girls, but over time has grown fond of boys as well, and to be honest, I think he actually prefers boys now.
So why is it that I, a pedo who hates being unfairly judged without being given a chance, is hesitant to allow my own brother, who is also a pedo, to be around his nephews without someone else to keep an eye on him. I know it's hypocritical, but I also know how difficult it can sometimes be to always behave and not give into temptation. I know that I can police myself, but I just don't know how strong his self control is.
So am I wrong to pre-judge my own brother for the same thing I have hated being pre-judged for my whole life? What would you do? Would you trust him with the boys? What about if they were girls? Would you trust him then? Would you trust ME? My wife and I are trying for kids of our own, and so this is just as relevant to our own future family as it is to my current sister-in-law's family now. What's your opinion?
From time to time I write about this because it makes me laugh.
I went to college with a set of twins, most people think identical, they were fraternal, brother and sister. He was sort of her inside guy and would admit which guys had what crush, turn one etc. She was his inside source providing female intel. All said including them the group was 10 of us. As a total joke... honestly a joke... someone made a glory hole in one of the dorm closets. They had a spare door, so stupid college shit there it is.
The plan was we draw straws, female goes in the closet, male outside of it, definite handjob, more if you felt like it. No talking, no sound, 10 minutes each. To ease minds he told his sister we rigged it, so each person had their crush. And in truth we did rig it. Halloween prank, stupid college kid shit, paired them up so she'd give her brother a handjob. He had no clue, she had no clue, only a 3 of us knew (me, 1 other guy, 1 girl).
Perfect plan until after it happened. She told her friend it went from hand job to blowjob to fucking real quick. She hadn't planned on fucking, didn't have a wrap, and was disappointed because he didn't last long and blew it in her but she wasn't worried since she's on the pill. Once we realized what happened we swore not to talk about it ever again. I said my crush did way more and I didn't last. So did the other guy. This provided cover. We kept a close eye on both, didn't want that secret out and possible self harm.
But yeah played a prank and Murphy's Law it royally backfired and her own twin creampied her. Thank god she was on the pill! Taking that one to my grave!
So what does one do when stereo typical terms do not match me? (no smart ass answers, it will just show you can not read nor take anything to heart from anyone who asks.. think about that please).
This pic makes me wish there was someone who truly wanted to be mine.
It makes my heart pound and crave many things.
I am not submissive and will not dominate.
I want who ever to talk and truly tell me things and I can tell them.
I would love for someone to want me to guide both of us but I want them to truly share in what we do.
I want them to have a real interest in finding new ideas with me and be open to all to learn about but we find what we want to share and how and what we do not want.
If someone in general has been watching us in what we look at for ideas and what drives our dreams AND what we do and how...., The words could only be the following in general to describe what they feel looking at it all...
Warm, Loving, Kind, Giving, Thoughtful, Fun, Hot, Kinky, Caring, Protective, Sweet, Funny, Real Love and so on.
Terms are used to place a box for someone to fit in...
A box can not define all I am and what I am not. That should be good :)
What I crave to give and someone to crave to give to me?
I like to take time and even edge for pleasure and NOT to use against someone.
slow 69 and for sure share in a kiss or swallow :)
Touch and play with each other to relax and bond.
Rub balls and any area to the point of pleasure and NOT harm or use in CBT or those ways.
Lightly pinch and rub nipples and breasts.
Lick,kiss and such nipples.
(can say same for cock or real clit and not what some call a dick).
Rub areas of body softly.
Edge each other.
Hug each other with nothing on and might just close eyes and just feel safe and loved.
Kiss and not just the lips :)
Both will at any time want to just give oral, lick and play with the others clit or cock and by default we want to do something for the other but can ask they watch and just enjoy too. Same for many things:)
Play in the bath or shower together.
Let me know they crave getting anal be cleaning their self well.
Let me know they crave we share anal be already being clean and wanting me to go to a nice place we make at home where they sexualy and with love and care touch, clean me out, play with ass, out side the anus and inside. If they want as they play, I want to play with theirs also :)
If they want they can rim me but I do not need that. If they do, I truly think of doing that also but so afraid and am not sure if I can.
Being so clean might mean we need time and play to cause our anus to make the mucus as we get turned on and want anal even more. This part if done right I like the feel and hope they would too:)
Before any anal, I truly would love any oral given and want to give it too:)
We talk about how we want to share anal. Do we want the other to slide in the others wet hole and just go till we cum then swap?, Give to the other for their pleasure then swap? Both edge how ever we want?
Want the other to ride at any speed or how ever hard but not more than the other likes.
Want the other to sit in our lap in them and they contract their anus and do what ever feels great to them even if it is to jerk to edge and enjoy the feeling over and over or jerk to near cum and then ride hands free to cum and then play to get hard and do again?
Ride dick till near cum and stop, then when they are ready ride some more and see how long that can go?
Every way one can think but both talking and together doing any of it all together any way it can be done.
I can not be called a sissy or alpha as I do not act or do as others show those terms to be.
I want toys to be included in ideas.
Size of the person is not what I need.. It is the want as I have to share pleasure and find ways to make that even better even with toys.
I can cum from my fingertips just penetrating over and over just in the lips (for lack of better terms) of my anus just as hard as when I use a toy over 6in around.
It is the persons need, want and craving for ME and to give me pleasure I want more than anything.
But I am the same so I must have someone like me who loves to give for the others pleasure but also wants to get pleasure being given just because they need,feel,crave,want,love to as I would.
Any race or gender that matches the respect and deep care for me that I have for them is fine with me. I am more open to beings and their hearts than the outside of their body.
As one small example..
If they are just 2in fully deep but foreplay makes me cum hands free when they give anal then I will crave them making me cum hands free first and want them balls deep and they cum from my anus being warm and tight around them as they do not pull back and slip out but as they work against my clamped tight anus they can push deep into and cum like crazy as I watch them :)
If they want to fill me up, then use a nice thick toy (I am not into long and pain so I never myself used a long toy.) that is 5 to over 6.5 inches around... I have used them and it has not made me where I can not choose to grip tight :)
If they want toys then great!
Nothing like each having a vibe near the P spot controlled by the other as we do 69 :)
I kind of like the idea :)
well...
One day I hope someone like me finds me :)
I wish in general the world had terms and places for many like me....
Not into hate or shame but shared love deeply with a true soul connection :)
Red Flags and Dating Tips for Kinky People
“Red flag” is a term to describe a personal trait or behavior that is common in people who are harmful to their partners. When getting to know someone online it is very important that you look for these red flags. When you see these red flags slow down or stop the relationship. Understand that none of these red flags alone are definitely a sign of a bad person. They only tend to be an indicator of a problem situation. The more you see these red flags, the more you are at risk. Many of these red flags can apply to both unhealthy Dominants and submissives.
These recommendations are to help you avoid getting into an abusive relationship. If you think you or someone you know is in an abusive relationship please visit NLA’s Domestic Violence Project web page at: http://www.nlaidvproject.us/
Red Flags:
• Tries to separate you from your friends, family or BDSM community
• Avoids talking about personal details. Gets mad when you ask or quickly ends the conversation or answers questions with questions.
• Has no BDSM references or friends you can talk to. Gets angry when you ask for references or ask around about them.
• Is inconsistent with details about themselves. Does not give you their home and work phone number at the appropriate time.
• Only communicates with you at strange hours and gets mad if you try to contact them at other times.
• Criticizes the BDSM community and refuses to participate, especially if they never were part of it.
• Consistently breaks promises. Always finds excuses for not meeting.
• Always puts blame on others for things going wrong. Does not take personal responsibility.
• Has bad relationships with most or all of their family members.
• Pressures you into doing things you do not want to do. Does not respect your limits, negotiations or contracts.
• Pushes you into a D/s relationship too fast.
• Falls in love with you way too fast and swears undying love before even meeting you.
• Hides behind their D/s authority and says that their authority should not be questioned.
• Tries to make you feel guilty for not being good enough. Says that you are not a “True” sub.
• Loses control of their emotions in arguments and regresses to yelling, name-calling and blame.
• Puts you down in front of other people.
• Turns instantly on their friends, going from best friend to arch enemy at the drop of a hat.
• Treats you lovingly and respectfully one day and then harshly and accusingly the next.
• Goes to great lengths to get revenge on people.
• Lies or withholds information.
• Cheats on you or is overly jealous.
• Will not discuss what your possible future relationship could be like. Tries to keep you in the dark about what might happen next in the relationship.
• Does not respect your feelings, rights, or opinions. Belittles your ideas. Blames you for your hurt feelings.
• Abuses alcohol or other drugs.
• Is constantly asking for large amounts of money from you or others.
• Threatens suicide or other forms of self-harm.
• Deliberately saying or doing things that result in getting themselves seriously hurt.
• Monitors your communications (emails, phone calls, chats) with others.
• Only interacts with you in a kinky or sexual manner as if role-playing. Will not have normal everyday vanilla conversations.
• Never shows you their human side. Is emotionless. Hides their vulnerability behind their D/s role.
• Has multiple online identities for interacting with the same communities.
• Disappears from communication for days or weeks at a time without explanation.
• Is rude to public servants such as waitresses, cashiers and janitors.
• Never says thank you, excuse me or I am sorry to anyone.
Safe Dating and Correspondence Tips
Before meeting:
• Do not give out personal information to strangers right away. This includes your name, phone number, address, place of work or email addresses you use for other purposes. Set up an email address that you use only for BDSM. There will be a time when you will share your information so they can be safe too. However they do not need the information until preparing for the first meeting.
• Do not send money to your online interest. There are online users that earn a living by faking love and pretending to run into hard times.
• When you do make telephone calls, make sure your phone blocks caller ID or call from a public phone. Do not call collect. Your number will appear on their bill.
• Exchange multiple recent nonsexual photographs to avoid embarrassment and hurt feelings.
• Get a background check before meeting. There are several services that will do this through the Internet.
• Make it clear you are not going to engage in any BDSM activity on the first date.
During the meeting:
• Meet in public places, preferably with a friend. Do not let your date pressure you into going somewhere else even if the date is going fine.
• Try to make your first date a daytime event.
• Drive yourself to and from the meeting place. Relying on them for transportation can put you in an unsafe position.
• Establish a safety net complete with safe calls and details on your date. Tell your safety net your date’s information, where you will be going and what to do in case you do not make your safe calls. Make sure your date knows you have a safety net set up. It is a great deterrent.
• Bring along a cell phone on your date and do not become separated from it.
• Do not drink alcohol on your date or leave your drink unattended.
• Never engage in bondage during your initial BDSM session if you are there alone.
• Do not leave your wallet or purse unattended. Your date may dig through them to find out information you do not want them to know.
• If you are traveling to the meeting, do not let them meet you at the airport or bus station. Use cabs or rental cars for going to and from the public meeting place. Do not stay with them or let them make arrangements for you. Do not let them know where you are staying.
Be aware that safe words, safe calls, contracts, negotiations or gut instincts will NOT fully protect you from a real criminal. Take your time and be sure what you are getting into. Criminals have less patience for difficult targets.
Think very slow before thumbs up/down.
See the being in the pic?????
I am asking the viewer and not using any words my self.
What do you see?
Male?
Female?
Mix?
TransGender?
What do you see?
Now think...
It was just announced in the USA there will only be male or female during a speech.
Do you care?
Do you think this way?
Would you want to see beings like this not be allowed to be who they are in life or even share a life with a being like this?
Does the talk of making all the resources a being like this needs to be who they want to be banned or made harder to find than it was bother you?
Do you still think who ALL is in power now cares about them or do they want them to disappear?
Do you support a side that is against non straight people here on this site?
Do you not like those others who are not male or female being here?
I see down votes on anyone who only repeats what was said by the ones who are going to have the power to make the laws that will choose the outcome of many here.
To me, a down vote on this post is a vote against many who feels they belong on this site and have a place in this world.
An up vote shows you want all the diverse beings we have and support their right to be here and have a life along side and shared with the termed "male and female" now declared as all the USA will recognize .
That's not my words.
If you watched, You saw those words spoken and YOU the viewer has a choice in how it all turns out be it one way or the other.
Do not joke around.
Truly listen and see the actions taken by sides who have shown they will enforce their will and views on others and expect total compliance with no other option.
With that...
Do you support all who are on this site and in the world to be here with us and those hiding being protected and allowed to be in the light with the rest of us?
Then up vote...
Do you not want them to be here, have choice and want them to go away then down vote...
I always have had an open mind and raised to accept anyone who is good and their actions are show to have care, love and compassion to all.....,
BUT reject those whos actions show nothing but harm and hate for others for only them being different some how in some way even when their heart and soul has nothing but good and love with compassion in all they see and do.
I vote up and always will respect and have an open mind and heart to others unless they show they do not deserve such ever by their own actions.
Well, Its the viewers turn...
Read and see what your about to do here...
Read and see what others think of who is here.
Read and see how many care and how many do not.
I can never side with hate and will push away and never look back to who has and uses it in their actions against who has never done a thing to earn such condemnation form anyone.
Vote up if you think one should NOT place people in high places who have no place for others to have rights to be here and with us in life together.
Please think before you make that choice here and any place.. Your actions do result in other events that affect others and shows more about if you care or if you are one with those who hate.
Thanks..
I am voting this up.
I am a 29 year old male looking for a female I can control.. I want to feel the power of having control of some one. I enjoy the thought of making you do things, asking for permission and you needing my commands.
What I expect
A girl 18-35 who is a 6 or higher. If you have to ask don't then don't waste my time.
Weight between 110-170
Enjoy sex
Enjoy tasks
Trust .. I expect you to trust me I do not lie and I will not lie to you.
Some form of private communication
You to enjoy self pleasure
What you should expect
Random tasks.
Respects of the limits you set
No harm
Privacy
Humility
Pleasure
This is internet only for now. You are not my first and I enjoy girls who are new.. my intentions are simple and clear. I enjoy power I love the feeling of it.. I have no intention other than to have fun between you and I.
Send a short description of your self, what you are into and what you expect. Picture are a plus but not necessary at this time. Other ways to contact you.. I have used snapchat in the past
I confess that we are a mature professional couple who met because of our mutual interest in perverted, nasty sex. Our lives have now taken a path I never considered would happen but am very happy it has. I have always been attracted to women that are sluts and like being fucked by lots of cock. I've shared any woman I've had a relationship with since my early 20's. I have fucked many wives/gf's with and without their hub/bf present as well. When I met my GF several years ago, I quickly learned she was the most sexual woman I've ever met. She is a very horny slut that has regularly fucked new men since she very young.The more she shared with me about her sordid past the more I was attracted to her and fell in love with her.I encouraged her to continue fucking anyone she wanted even if I wasn't there. (which is often due to business travel) The large majority of our swinging was getting her fucked and used by other men, preferably groups of men and especially if they are black. So I pretty much made myself a cuck because nothing turns me on more the seeing the joy the woman I love gets out of being used like nothing but fuckmeat and a cum receptacle for most anyone. The one thing that was always an issue between us was her telling me she no longer could do a lot of the filthiest acts of debauchery without me being there, at least not as often or perverse. Our mutual favorite perversion is my eating her used cumfilled cunt after being fucked. She also LOVED my not having a problem with sucking cocks that were ready to or had just fucked her. She is so turned on watching me lick clean cocks that just dumped a load in her and suck them hard so they could fuck her again. It was much more of a turn on for both of us when I suck big black cocks. Whatever label that gives me I don't care. My sole interest in being a cocksucker is to give her pleasure. I have no attraction to men or their cocks other then to fuck her like she loves. Neither she or I consider me bi as some of the many self proclaimed experts that love dispensing their "wisdom" polluting sexually oriented sites. I certainly am a cocksucker and proud of it. Or should I say a cocksucking cuck like the love of my life loves me to be. Fortunately only of couple of men had to shown that it doesn't mean I am a wimpy, tiny dicked, sissy. Or that because my lady loves being a filthy, no limits cumpig it is an invitation to cause harm or injure her.
Here is where the change in our lives cums in. Whenever I return from out of town I encourage her to show up having been recently fucked and filled by one or preferably several men. And during our passionate sexual reunion have her give me the details. She did it sometimes but always made it like she only did it for me and that she couldn't think about other cocks fucking her the couple of days prior to my return. It has always caused friction as well as suspicion on my part that she had tempered many of her preferences. I just found my suspicions were more true then I could imagine as a result of her confession. Much to her relief I am more turned on then ever. What I didn't know about her is how much it turns her on to cheat and get over. Not only am I a willing cocksucking cock now but I accept that her body is owned by a couple of BBC Dom's who use her anyway they wish and let others do the same. I am a cocksucking cuck who has been eatiing strangers cum out of her just fucked cunt every single time I returned and didn't know it. And sometimes while I was eating their cum, they were watching me. As we speak she is out with her BBC Dom doing filthy depraved acts. And when she returns I will have to clean her and them before I can fuck her myself. For those who are into similar hot nasty fun I am willing to continue as well as share pics. I just hope the open minded perverts outnumber the pathetic moral cyber sluths that abound here.
I have seen many sites and profiles.
If someone on their profile is happy wanting another to do this an many other things like males giving all they have to worship a dominate female working all day and pleasing all night caring for her and her every wish then why is there no one to match me forever?
I can not treat who I love the way profiles and all I see treats someone nor can I be done to like I see and read...
If someone submissive in all the ways there are but wants to be hurt, degraded,dominated,used, and so on, why is there not someone who will care for all my needs and wishes and pleasing me all the ways I ask and want and everything but I care for them and love them also.
The dedication and loyal giving to only one and getting nothing but pain and all that is sad to me...
If someone were to protect me,care for me,want to be and do all I dream and worship all of me inside,out and soul.... Well, By my nature I care for and love them deeply without all that so it would be a dream if they deeply wanted to be all they are to a dominate but being loved also by me should be enough right?
For someone who will do anything and be loyal and care for everything because they dream to and want to as they love someone that way should find love in return right?
I am not like porn or profiles show and ask for.
I do have many desires and special things few wish to share but with others hating and so on they keep it to them self forever.. If someone respects someones rights, never takes from others and does nothing unless all are sure thats fine each time, Then I have much to share and they can tell me anything they always thought about and wonder of...
We can read and explore many things shared together...
I can guide them and help be someone they can talk to about anything they need to run by another first.
I can guide many things if they trust me to care and never take any risks or do harm.
I make better company than many.
I try to bring a silly and happy atmosphere to who I care for.
I cheer them up if I can.
They can tell me all their fears and I will never use them in any way.
I am a gentle lover who is thought full and wants to know what someone feels and thinnks.
The submissive male who gives all to a dominate woman is an example...
If they could worship me as they would them And I show love and caring in return for all they do just for me and loves doing it, Can that be enough?
Giving all to another who will not a_buse that trust and share all with them....
Why not pick me over others?
I wish what I have to offer would make a submissive want to do all and even love it more knowing I will be warm,loving and caring of them and want to truly share life and not just take from them and have no shared interest's in every day life and the very special time also....
Just as they hope they can please and be all they can for someone, I hope they are even more eager as they see a giving being can be better..
Just as they need to hold and show love to me and do all for me, I want them to feel it is good they found me to be that way to me.
To protect me, love me, care for all of me, do for me, give me a safe and secure life I never fear and they truly do love and want to do it all forever as they are deeply and forever in love with me brings that love in me for them out.
An example?
They would not be the only one just any time as they are wanting to, giving oral to share time and show love.
Never take, always ask. I will give to someone who places me and all I am before them.
I am too afraid to ask in my profile if there is someone out there who has passed over all others as they just want to be loved for being submissive and worshiping who they love.
Look at all the people and the life they ask for wanting to be less than human for someone and used like trash..
Why can one person wish and hold on to hope to find the one like me?
I would love someone who truly wants to be what others wish for to me.
I hope they waited looking for someone they know being their first and only to worship and give them self to and are glad they did and found me.
I have so much to share and desires I hope they love to be a part of and share...
What ever they do I dream and ask for will not be a waste.
I love who loves me that much to be my everything.
This will be a long confession, so if you do not have the time, just skip it.
I am 41, divorced, and I am currently in the sexual relationship of my dreams... or nightmares, I cant decide.
I married young, straight out of high school. He was my colleague, and my first real bf. I didnt have almost any sexual experiences in hs, since I was ugly, I had a big acne vulgaris problem, and I was desperate. Desperate to that extent that, my only "sexual" experience was, when at this party, senior year (we were both 18 at the time), this guy flat out told me he wants his dick sucked tonight, and I did it. That was the extent of male attention I got.
So, my husband was the first man who gave me any attention. My acne problem has started to withdraw a bit, after many, many sessions of therapy, and I was over the moon. He was my man, my perfect man, a man who loves me, who came to my aid, a man who I will share my life with. Sadly, after a few years of trying, we found out I am unable to get pregnant. He told me that it doesnt matter, that he loves me, but became distant over time, and eventually, started to hate me, so we divorced.
I was 24 when I got left alone, again. I was on a verge of self distruction - my life had no meaning. Those were some dark times, I thought about leaving everything and becoming a nun, or even to do the worst - harm myself.
Luckily, I got some therapy, and things started picking up, one thing at the time. I learned how to love myself, the way I am, and started doing little things, to make my life better. I became a fitness freak, dedicating my body to that goal, started eating healthy, and that really changed my own perception of myself. I started noticing male looks at the gym, and that pleased me. Over time, I have come to realize, that my body was "hot" even before I started my transformation. New found self esteem came rushing through my body.
Life was good, except, I was still alone. If I hadnt started masturbating very young, I would have thought that I was some kind of a frigid witch, since, my sex life with my ex husband, didnt really bring anything good in that department. Resolved to work on myself, I have totally abandoned the idea of a new love, or even a pure sexual relationship - this site is just one of few places I have visited over the years, while searching for a thrill, a fantasy, but being just too scared to pursue anything real, in life.
Now, when I come to think of it, there wasnt even a chance for me to meet someone, my life was work, gym, and home. I detected some flirts along the way, but I guess I was just too closed (or gave off that impression), that nothing came of it.
Until I met him. It was a year ago. He is ten years younger, single, good looking, and to be honest, when he started flirting, I was thinking something like "is this guy making fun of me". But he wasnt, he was, and still is very much into me.
As I have written here before, I was closed to the idea of meeting someone, but he was very charming, and adamant, to make this work.
He took me on my very first date, after more than 15 years. We had sex that night, and, oh my loving god, it was amazing!!!
We were like rabbits, doing it all day, every day. I wanted to make sure to catch up on everything I have missed in the previous life, so my world started revolving around sex. My orgasms were real, hard, tremor hard, I wanted to do everything for him.
And he is such a passionate lover, always finds a way for me to get even further, to cum harder, to enjoy every inch of his body, and mine too.
Now we are finally getting to the bottom of this story.
His favorite position is, when I am on top, he told me, since, it is the easiest one for me to get off. He started playing with my anus, when I am on top, and close to cumming. That made me shake like a rabbit.
Then, he started putting his finger in, positioning it so that, when I go down on his cock, I go down on his finger (one at start, later two fingers), making me choose the pace, and depth. It was getting so intense, that I felt that was the sexiest thing ever, made me want him to get in there.
But he wasnt, he would just do it, and one time, he pulled his fingers out, spread my cheeks wide, so I could feel I was gaping back there, and he whispered (you need a cock in there). I was still riding him, close, really close to cumming, so I just yelled for him to put it in, but he pulled me close to him, and grunted "you need a cock in your ass while I make love to you"... That was the hardest orgasm I ever had. I swear to god, I think I even passed out for a second there.
So, this game of ours, evolved, from but plugs, to smaller dildos, to eventually, big ones. This combo was, and still is, the best thing I ever did, and I am quite sure that it is the hottest thing one can do in sex. Eventually, in one of these steamy sessions, through the lust, he told me that "I need a real deal".
After we both cooled off, I wanted to talk about, but I wasnt sure, if he was serious. He was. He has a friend (I know him), who is pretty much his confidence, and they even had some threesome experience together in college...
Now, me, from five, ten, fifteen years ago, this prude unsure woman, would never agree to this, but now... I said yes in an instant.
First time was a disaster. All three of us were feeling weird, he came from a blow job, and couldnt get it up afterwards.
Second time we decided to get a few drinks to loosen up, and it worked, but again, as soon as he got into me, he came, my bf came, and I was the only one that didnt.
But, the third time it worked. And the forth, and fifth...
Now, the three of us are having sex once a week (at one period of time, we did it five times in one week), and it is amazing.
Now comes the tricky part - I am quite sure that this arrangement will have to end at one point. I saw the cracks in my bf. I have entered all of this, as his idea, with an open mind. So, last month, when they came to my home, and I got my period while showering, he was mad. Not, because I told him that, but because I offered to give them a bj. I did it, but I could see he was feeling off about it. Tried talking to him, he brushed it off, but I see it is not that way. Since I felt jealousy, I proposed to him for us to end it, he said no, again, he is fine.
Only, he is not, and I feel that I will lose him.
So, I am at this cross road, should I continue this, while aware what is going on, or should I be determined to end this threesome thing, trying to save our relationship, and most importantly, will I save it, or is it beyond repair?
These questions in the end are more rhetorical, I just needed to get this off my chest. In the end, decision is on me.
I saw yesterday females joining something called B4? Said every woman should join till "all men" treat a woman's rights with respect.
I always have.
They degrade my self image and no one seems to care. I have been hurting inside for every one the first time seeing the hate and rights being taken from so many including women.
I cry thinking about the future.
Now gender is all the words they said on TV having the chance to be clear who they are upset at.
I care for everyone that cares for and does not harm others.
I was raised to be and just that way by nature to be this.
For being born male and having the body I do and the genes I do has got nothing but being degraded,made fun of, hurt, pushed away, called so many things to make me feel I am not worth anything for just being human to others and it being seen as week or other things in a male.
I still care..
I still fear for others.
I still wish for hate to go away for ever.
But just being me has never been enough even when doing all I can to help and even step in the middle of abuse in public just because my stupid nature kicks in forgetting how nothing changes in how little I mean to anyone.
But does anyone see the issue here?
How many "good ones" are hurt just to impress jocks,alphas,and so on but then get included in the hate when they are hurt?
I still care.. No human should be treated how they and I see people treat others...
I care even after they could have for me but did not.
Am I wrong for being male and not like others but every time something about some males do something wrong to them then I now also am on the side they do not like again?
Being a caring,thoughtful,loving,warm human to all regardless of race and gender is not easy.
I have real scars to back that up.
I have little self image to back that up.
Why is it like this?
The pic shows at minimum someone being funny when they think it will never come back on them.
Do they bare anything for them being upset now?
If there is a point where hate,degrading and hurt makes one jaded and not care then I have not been pushed into that yet.
How much more before I have no idea.
How many others have been pushed past and now are what they did not want from the part they played in making it that way?
I have no idea..
I am not putting it all on them.... No...
I see the males who look down at them..
I do not think it ever was right...
Was it right when someone was not like that to be who they took it out on all the years I have been alive?
Only they can answer that.
Hate knows NO race, gender or anything... It is something ANY BEING CAN BE AND HAS SHOWN IT.
When do we treat others who treat us nice and respects us the same and only judge who harms others and cares less of their actions that harm and runs over others rights?
Not the gender and not the race but the person ONLY...
I do not know...
Only others can choose that path, I have always been on that path...
It is depressing to hold the line and never let the hurt push one to hate back at who hurt them.
This is where I am in my heart.
I am torn.
I care so much I cry and yet have been made to cry by the race and gender of many.
Does anyone see an issue that could cause issues here?
Is it enough to see a change in how one is judged to be treated is needed?
I can see the darkness made in me I fight when the question brings me feelings nothing will ever change.
For how long can I fight it when I am middle aged and nothing changes yet I fight the fight others seem would want me to.
But then when I am seen and that second to judge how you will react feel based on my race and gender not knowing how I would be to you... Is this not also wrong?
Only the reader every day can answer that......
I have parents and thats male and female.
I care deeply for them and all who cares as I do for others...
I only judge who takes from others and harms others against their will.
I feel so alone and still seeing all across the net and in public all the hate and careless actions others do to each other and say about each other makes me feel nothing will change even if I was the last person on earth to care and break down and cry in the middle of every one in the act of their hate of another...
I do all I can and my actions always are guided so.
Am I wrong for being so confused in others?
I have no idea anymore......
I can say for now I am still strong and have not fallen into the darkness hate from others at me can cause... I still care for so many and hurt seeing what's going on...
I hope others figure out that placing all genders and races in single groups and being upset at one group means there are some you wished would be different in that group you also just hurt with actions... Judge actions only.... The being, Their heart,mind and soul... Till you know that, do not degrade or hurt... They may have been a "good one" and now a "good one is gone"...
Sad the picture...
Do they feel the same now?
I do not know...
Only they do......
Hail Lilith the Black Rose, Goddess of Hell full of darkness and lust, blessed be the fruit of shedding in the womb the demons of the abyss and the offspring of Satan and letting the demonic arm reign over this dark world and hell reign over us with darkness.
Lilith tells me that she take back her power. She calls me to stay in my truth, embracing my darkness and my light alike. She tells me to stop playing small and not to be afraid of burning myself too passionately to worry about being misunderstood in the eyes of others. She tells me "Your fire is not for them ... It is for YOU."
I Am Satanist ▲☥▲
While it is said that good and evil do not exist except within the limits of personal preference and perception, I am not limited by moral barriers. I will not harm those who have not sought the destitution of my luck, life, freedom and happiness.
My fellow KLAN members, I swear my loyalty by my blood, and offer you all services under all stipulated rules and regulations. I promise to cherish and defend the vast realms of the underworld and Mother Earth. Because without it, life itself could not exist. May I rise to be wise through experience and trial. so I will be a bearer of light, a source of the Black flame of Knowledge. I will rise to the heights through education, experience, wisdom, and balance. And challenge myself to a greater self-directed achievement that I will be like the dragon that devours weakness and grows strong like the Angel of Light, to know all the secrets of this world.
My actions today will project a reaction and a reflection on the future of tomorrow intangible for everyone. That is why I announce myself as the ruler of my own destiny and I will place the responsibility of enriching my existence on my head. I am a Satanist, the Phoenix Goddess priestess, the goddess of darkness, the highest incarnation of human life.
I, The Priestess Goddess Phoenix, WELCOMES TO HER SATANIC KLAN. ▲☥▲
Cult of Carnality ~ Sexuality, Eroticism Spiritual, Mystic Sex Rituals Is The Proposal Of Our Satanic Klan.
Your Goddess Of Darkness, The Goddess Of The Devil, Your Priestess Goddess Phoenix 🔥
Your Goddess Of Darkness, The Goddess Of The Devil, Your Priestess Goddess Phoenix 🔥
I am a 66 year old man that had never touched any illegal drug my entire life. That is until 4 months after my 64th birthday. i had been planning my escape from my world into the bad world of drugs for years and had studied all the information I could find. I wanted the baddest of the bad that gave the best high you can get using the most harmful method to get high. There really was only one choice. I was retiring and while the people that I worked planned and gave me a nice party I was putting my own parT together. When the big night arrived everything was ready and except for a couple people that helped me get what I needed and a nurse my home was empty. I sat quietly quietly watching them make up what they told me were rigs. Not a big amount of the white crystals went into each syringe (point as i found out later)then they finished up by adding close to the same amount of warm warm water to the point and shook it hard until it was nearly clear with a touch of cloudiness. Next they asked for the 20th time if I was sure I wanted to go through with this and was I aware of the risks were and i said in a shaky voice yes it was going to happen no matter how many times they asked and to please do it already. Then they put a tourniquet on one arm i don't remember which and the nurse started tapping around looking for the best vein she could find next i felt the sharpness of the needle as it entered. I knew at that split second my life would never be the same and I may have stepped into a black hole never to return. I watched intently as blood came up into the point and the nurse slowly pushed the plunger down. She asked several times if there was any pain and i said no. The first thing I noticed was a slight taste of metal in my mouth then I could feel an intense pleasure rush through my veins I could literally feel the meth flow through my veins. It was the most intense pleasure I had ever had in my life, I realized at that split second Tina was going to be my master and mistress for the rest of my years, my one and only true love. The first rush lasted for a bit more than 7 minutes. I have had longer more intense and shorter less intense but I have never had a terrible rush. I damn near killed my self the first eight months I used. Months of slamming to soon or to much or not keeping myself hydrated and too big of slamm when no one was with me. After using hard for 8 months and ending up in the hospital. I realized something was going to have to change or I wouldn't live long enough to enjoy slamming Meth to really make it worth my while. I quit cold turkey in one day and for the next 9 months I was sober. it was all part of my plan because there was no way I was going to give up my lover Tina (meth), While I was sober I had a time lock safe installed and set it to open every Friday evening and let Tina out. I have never regretted letting Tina into my life and never look back
Something I will never understand...
All the years I have seen so many types out there and was shocked there are some who on their profiles on the internet truly ask to be done like this and .... worse....
I have seen people want to be own,used,hurt,give all their rights over to another,be a servant,give all that make and own, they will care for and pleasure non stop who treats this this way.....
Why is it so hard to find others who would give and do all and take very good care of someone and all the above EXCEPT they just with to be truly loved,cared about,thought of,share interests,explore what's out there to share pleasure with who they place above them who sees all they do without expecting anything in return as truly amazing and brings emotions to their loyal love that makes a safe place to talk and share all ideas and dreams with no fear to see what can be shared and loved together.
I can not see treating someone making my life stress free and so amazing bad at all.
By all they do and with trust just hand over to me I must be loyal to them and do what's right with all of their being they give me....
By things I have seen and read how someone will just give them self at any time for the pleasure one the one who they are forever with, Why Is that not so amazing it drives the one getting all this to give love back in thoughtful ways?
I am not happy on the words next, it more of the actions....
Someone who would worship me,my body,anything I dream them to and they truly love to do so with all their being would bring a giving side of me out I can feel safe to show and do.
Take say a total submissive man for a dominate woman.
I have seen the men say they will work and care for everything and she controls it all.
I read where some say they need someone to guide and help them make choices but turn it all over to her.
The guys I read of are sweet,shy,loving,giving and even if they are huge it does not change their soft,warm,sweet,giving nature.
What ever the race or gender who is like that....
Why only for dominate people who returns all they do with degradation and pain that shows like the pic?
I read dominate posts of their life and all that's done for them including any nasty and kinky thing one can think of to please them as ordered.....
Why could some one just be asked if they would do something and be that amazing at it that someone like me wants to show I care too and show it in return.
Could someone trade the hurt and shame in for me wanting to hold them close with my arms around them and truly have emotions for them they can feel and see?
Could they be shocked and happy I out of the blue sit next to them and just softly touch them and want to try and be so soft it feels nice where I glide my touch and hands?
If I patted my lap and they sit on it, I slowly put one hand open to cover as much of their pubic skin as I can and touch their cock or clit (yes a true one and not a dick) having light pressure like a hug while my other traces light light air many places on their body?
What if all they pleasure they do like give oral just because I am there and they want to please me brings the safe feel I am giving to someone freely and not to a dominate who takes and never gives?
What if someone as amazing as they are brings a urge to do the same for them?
What if the normal they want is for me to close my eyes as they slowly give oral and keep me on edge till I cum and keep going swallowing it all and licking my shaft and all clean and slowly touch and off and on give oral and make me cum many times even dry cum...
What if that giving and not taking makes me ask if they can move to where I can also give oral or touch them in their pleasure areas also?
If they normally smile and ask I let them please me then I would want so bad to please them too...
They could see it in my emotions...
I would try and see if they wanted oral just out of the blue any time too...
But I need them to at times let me please them as they please me.
Doing for me from love and their needs and wants builds mine to feel the same to them.
Some times they could see in my pleasure I was also sad. They should always ask if they see something in me like that...
In this case I would tell them I truly want to share love with them as they are so giving and amazing..
I feel bad I can not give to them at the same time....
I hope they see I have real care and feelings for them....
I hope they let me...
I would love 69 with someone so great.
I would love to pleasure them too.
I would love for them to be in my lap my arms around them and touching them all over wanting them to relax and love all I am doing for real and never faking it.
Say it is a male or trans who never wants to change having a penis.
Say by being so giving as I find submissive's can be to others that I feel safe to let them do something that alone I have found arousing and know I can trust them to lovingly care for my body.
I ask they slowly clean all of me while touching in a way to give pleasure and they clean me out in a way giving me pleasure... Then slowly shave my pubic area while gliding a soft hand checking for stubble and working to make me smooth with love... The touch I feel when I do that makes me hard and my skin starts to tingle where touched and feels so good.
They then do the same to the balls...
My hair is thin there and can bee so soft and smooth when shaved and have places that tingle if lightly touched even of my balls are being held in my hand snug and gliding fingers in the middle and all over.
Then the taint area..
Touch there has areas that feel great too...
Then the area I protect the most and only deep trust can bring me to let them shave there (this is after cleaning out at the start) also and feeling the touch as they play and see how my body reacts...
They care for the skin in all the areas and use what ever keeps the skin soft and nice....
If time was taken and done with so much love and care I will be so badly ready :)
Might even see pre-cum (I hope they like to touch and suck their finger my pre cum as that's a turn on.)
I hope doing all that aroused them and they are so hard seeing I could cum with a gust of wind... :)
If they ask if they can give anal... A firm YES would always be what I would say :)
If they go slow and we can feel our bare skin touching as they are in my warm and moist (and might be getting tighter) anus and I cum and they feel my orgasm and it turns them on more, I want them to let me know when I get control over my anus how I can grip to feel even better to them.
They were so great for caring for may areas and pleasing me that I need to give pleasure and need them to orgasm in me as I do all I can to being the best feelings I can to their making love to me...
I would always like when they orgasm that they go as long as they can and when they know they can not much more then slide in more and try to stay in me as my warmth around them they feel as they contract to try and stay hard..
I hope I can feel them :)
If they get hard again I want them to go again...and as many times as they can...
I hope to orgasm many times but I am giving my anus for pleasure for all they do for me.
I will never be giving to an alpha or Dom that does as so much porn shows like that's the only way...
I am not submissive and will not be taken from.
I am different.
My best friend says with a smile I am like her but sweet.. I am her equal and inside me is some rare form of a dominate female bisexual like her (shes bi but knows I am pan and can love anyone who loves me greatly).
I have no clue so I will go with what she says... :)
I have limits....
But some I may bend if done with care.
Scat is a hard line with that bend......
Say if during cleaning and they WILL NOT smear it anyplace and keep it away from my sight and local to the anus area... Well.... If it would please them then they can give anal when I have not been cleaned out fully....
I want them to be happy and makes out bond even stronger and unbreakable...
Just care and keep as clean as possible and clean me well outside and in after please :)
I hope they love letting me feel the warmth of giving them anal...
Sadly I need it clean as I have fears I somehow over come and truly want to give anal as it is...
I hope being giving that out of the blue they run to me with nothing on and smiling, take me by the hands and lead me to our soft bed and play area :)
They undress me and do all they can to get me hard fast....
They then get on the bed and tell me they got cleaned up and need me to take them...
They bend over and pull their anus open and know see it like that and so clean turns me on greatly...
I never want to hurt so I slowly slide my way in bit by bit till fully....
I want them to guide me so I do not hurt them...
Faster? harder? how can I make love and not hurt....
As they let me know I make love to them and after orgasm try contracting to stay hard.
My wish is to get hard again and make love in a way they orgasm....
There are times I want them to not just want me to take them in a loving way...
I want to be on my back and they slowly take me in to them....
They pull their anal lips open and sit on my pubic area getting all of me that can penetrating then :)
Once all their weight is sitting on me I ask they move forward to find how far they can and keep me firmly in and will not pop out by moving foreword too far... I can help guide them.... Once they find how far forward and back thay can go then I want them to adjust for THEIR pleasure.
I want them to ride me this way for their pleasure...
If someone says you can not feel pleasure if you want them to do it all in a way it feels best for them then your silly... A dick can get pleasure from anything and that's just how it works :)
To see them feeling pleasure, to have them put my hands where they need them and do what feels great to them... To feel them get tight as time passes, to see their body and all react to what we are sharing would make my heart pound :)
I want them to feel pleasure from anal...
I want to give this just as they give to me...
I want them to edge if they wish on the edge of cumming...
I will see the pre cum and as they have not given anal to me yet, I will take the pre cum with my finger and suck it off and return for more.....
I want to feel and see their body...
I want to last..
I need to...
Sometimes I will ask if they want me to hold the tip tight to keep their cum inside and I hope they do at times.....
I need to and would love to feel them tight and need to not move as much to keep me in...
I need to feel their orgasm around me....
I want to see the pleasure in their body and eyes....
When they have fully finished our share orgasm and they wanted me to hold the tip closed...
(note... I never said I had to cum when I want them to be pleased by anal..)
They slowly lift off and take my fingers place holding their cum tightly in their cock....
I can now take that clean cock and place my fingers around and push the cum back so they can let go....
I take the head into my mouth and let go and swallow and also between their legs milk all the cum to the tip as I suck hard and I lick the head and under the head taking all they have till dry....
They also do that for me when the other way...
Add all this and the other deep desires and ideas into a normal life of shared likes and anything we do together and have a bond no one can touch.....
I want a full relationship and shared interests and all they give me to have I need them to be equal in what goes on and the best ideas are followed....
I want it to be US,shared,together, for each other,always.......
So.....
Why being so many types out there of all races and genders who call them self many things and place them self always below and gives all they have..........
Why not someone out there all that but needs someone like me to be submissive to?
Am I not worth all they would give others?
I am over 50 and have been the rock for family and all in need so I find I have nothing to give but what I am...
I know I can never be used or dominated or done as I see others done...
If my best friend treated me as she does her gays and girls then we would NOT be best's in the first place.
She needed someone and I was there to give my heart and shoulder to.
Never had she needed anyone or cried in pain.
No one had ever cared and so in her life she said she just is what she is but I broke past that.
I am her equal and she is mine...
If in this world so many things can be as they are then why not someone to be my mate I dream of and would fit in where I fail and I fit in where they fail.. You know.. We complete each other fully...
I can only feel a safe place for my nature with someone who never take advantage of it or let harm happen to it...
I hide many emotions and feelings so no one can use them...
I truly need someone like me...
Great love,compassion,respect for ones rights and self,feelings for others,smart,imagination,strong will to now sway and loyal to who they made the choice to be with and keeps that choice through anything and adapts to what ever...
AND never picks a side who would not support them if they are good souls ONLY because of extreme dogmatic ideas and so on.
I am sad my belief has been used to make excuses for hate...
I went on my own and looked deep at every page and in order of history not how it is printed...
Please do not dump all I say before thinking first....
If seen in true light, It shows I am not them...
I am Christian...
That means the last word on all is Jesus and not the Bibles history...
He care for people and broke old laws.....
I looked at all on my own ant let his acts make my morals...
I am my own faith and will rub so called ones backing hate the wrong way...
He protected a prostitute from Bible law...
That should have been the first sign some things were off that man thought he heard and should be clear is not should have done..
Some feels added..
In one place someone said making good on doing something to another with gold is fine... No way..
Can not buy your way to being moral and free of doing wrong...
That has to be bull...
All can be found if one looks....
I will not risk others...
I will do whats right..
But do not see me as others...
All who do no harm and do not step on others rights are fine with me what ever race or gender...
Your actions are what will change my mind...
Any being who will love me forever how I wish and how I love them has a chance :)
does anyone have some self harm videos? Thx!!
I'm a therapist and I council mostly teens. I've seen a fair number of little hotties over the years and I often can't help myself tuning them out and just staring at them, particularly when they're wearing low cut shirts or mini skirts or shorts.
Here's my favorite girl at the moment, she's Felicia, she's 15 and she's coming to me because her parents think she has a drinking/drug problem, and I've also discovered she self-harms.
What do you pervs think?
Confession: I'm a therapist and I council mostly teens. I've seen a fair number of little hotties over the years and I often can't help myself tuning them out and just staring at them, particularly when they're wearing low cut shirts or mini skirts or shorts.
Here's my favorite girl at the moment, she's Felicia, she's 15 and she's coming to me because her parents think she has a drinking/drug problem, and I've also discovered she self-harms.
What do you pervs think?
That is a bio-hazard symbol. That has intent other than just sex. Many in their own words say the tat they have matching this is your only warning to expect anything you may not want...
That on a bare back sign has nothing to do with condom or not... One can do all they can and stay safe and when they are with another who does the same then risk is no different than anything one could compare and still be bare back without "bio-hazard" risk.
If a bare back sign with nothing else but all the talk of being close and what ever was on one side and this sign on another, I would never pick this one.
All in the intent behind the image.
I never deal with one who has this on them...
Look at bug chasers.
That is something if they respect others then they make it clear up front their way of life so the others right to choice is respected.
I have no issues if all rights are respected and followed... If risk makes you happy and who your with is fine with that then ok... But anyone else and both need to protect all rights by being up front...
If one protects others rights then I feel you protect their rights to as if done as I said above you are not putting one at harm against their will... They accepted the risk but also accept the respect to inform anyone else they are with as only they know the risks they took...
We could be in a place where we can do what we want with who we want and still be human and respect each others rights.
When one feels lack of info given to someone is somehow the right thing then there is no respect to the other at all for any rights or thoughts they have...
That build fear against who feels it is the other persons who needs to be a mind reader and do everything when the one who knows could have told up front with thoughtful respect for others with no exceptions or excuses....
I have seen people who do no harm and their actions are thoughtful of others and does all they can to do the right things but just because someone can't accept the ideas alone then they get run off and pushed away from any place to gather... Many would have had the backs of others if that respect had been followed for every ones rights...
Who will be there when your rights are in question?
Do not fool yourself into thinking it will never happen... Others are on the outside looking in thought the same...
One thing above any stance or some act of how someone should answer to no one is we should never loose basic rights and respect for those rights for others and our self... When others rights fall then that proves a right can be subverted by anyone so we must respect others rights always as that means they must do the same...
Who does not have this group respect places their own at risk as only we can protect each other against groups who thinks some group does not belong...
I know how I see others and respect them...
If they do not respect my rights then how can I trust and respect them?
I am like every other kid my age. An overwhelming sense of not-belonging controls my life and has driven me mad for the past 5 years now. After fighting a drug addiction and countless attempts at counseling I have been unsuccessful at ridding myself of my seemingly incurable disease. I feel that I am reaching a point in my life where things could change dramatically for the worse if I do not get my thoughts under control and I am unsure what to do.
I have been seriously considering suicide for nothing short of a year now and I have often contemplated extreme self harm just for the attention I would get to fill the void I feel. The other day I was driving home from a camp and an unbearable feeling of loneliness completely took me over. I Floored it and swerved into the oncoming lane at about 90-100 mph going straight for another car. Unfortunately I didn't have the guts and went back to my lane about 25 feet of target but I was so completely sick with myself I literally had to pull over because I was hyperventilating and freaking out.
At this point I want an opinion. An honest and true opinion (inb4 trolls). Do anti-depressants really work and if so, should I go back to counseling and get them? or should I take the coward way out?
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PRETTY
Pretty house, pretty flowers, and all the pretty people. That could be the start and end to the story there. However, what story wants to just be pretty? You can have your pretty dress and pretty white stallion, but in the end, the stallion just drops dead.
So, imagine this scene. You have two people, let’s say Steve and Martha. They've been together since high school and raised two pretty girls who are almost through high school themselves. Steve has his perfect dream job as a novelist. Plus, he has his fucking millionth copy sold party next week at The Garches. Martha stays at home, the biggest fucking prettiest house in the Upper Valley. She probably just lays around and suntans all day, trying to be that much...prettier for her husband. Not that it would matter much, they've already been to Hawaii twice this year, and it's only March!
Oh wait, sorry, getting a bit off topic there.
So, back to the story.
The couple Steve and Martha then go to Steve's millionth copy sold party, which they just decided to call their "Zeroooooo" Party. Of course they did. Here's where the story gets a little more interesting. So, their eldest daughter, a pretty little thing, just turned 18, let’s just call her Belle to simplify things. Well, she has this boyfriend, jock, quarterback, straight “A” student. A nice guy really. However, unknown to Steve and Martha, she decides to date this other dude. Well, dude not exactly anymore. Sex change, though, would have just been a little prettier. Let's say he is a "duder". As in, all grapes add the "r" when they become raisins. The duder is about 65 now, which only gives him a couple more years before he can retire from the exotic books business. The party is also going to be the platform for Steve to announce his new book. The duder goes up to the stage, and pulls back the curtains to the new jacket cover. Let's just skip all the pretty words, and the fight, don't forget the arson and the restraining order. However, let's not forget Steve and Martha's new jobs at Feed Freddies, the move to Downton Street, and the divorce. Also, Belle's perfect quarterback boyfriend broke up with her when she started wearing more clothes than Queen Elizabeth to school. At very least, the strip club is getting even busier with the Belle, sorry royal ass Eliza, running the show.
Pretty ending to that story, eh? Well, that's just the beginning. This is all just hypothetical, of course. Let's not forget that.
Now, imagine this strip club in the Lower Valley. It’s already been established that pretty young Eliza would be the up on stage shaking her two big moneymakers. You got to love the girls with daddy issues! Let’s say that her tips are pretty good, but it is never enough. Eliza then starts taking the men back stage for her fucking specialty. OK, probably shouldn’t go there.
There is this one fucking ugly duder that would always come in with the prettiest flowers, lilies to be exact. He had a fetish of making Eliza into his pretty yellow picture. Sure, things are going pretty and well for Belle, sorry Eliza, but why does the story have to end there.
So, her estranged father, Steve comes in during one night in carnival. Oh, that place is decked out in all kinds of pretty, from the pretty beads down to the pretty masks. Steve has a right old time, drinks some beers, has a couple nice views. He goes home later and neither of them are any the wiser.
Then, it is a week into Lent that something really happened. The duder is busy working with his Eliza canvas when in walked Belle’s former quarterback dude and his buddies. OK, true, they aren't 21 yet, but who cares when they come in with some perfectly pretty fake I.D.’s. Imagine it going down like this. The dude tries to cop some feels from his former girlfriend when she is covered in all the lilies. Naturally, Eliza tries to cover herself and run. Here’s the best part. The duder fucker grabs her ankle and trips her. He then pulls out a gun and tells her to don’t fucking move again. Before he can start arranging his flowers again, the dude grabs the duder. The dude then gets shot in the head, and so does pretty little fucking Eliza when she goes to help out. The old fucker runs and gets away.
Don’t you just love where these are going? At very least, it would sound better for the story if Belle/Eliza and the quarterback didn’t die.
OK, maybe it is time for a little change of pace, maybe something a little prettier. It probably would be a good idea to give this second duder a name, to make things a little easier to remember. His name will be Ralph, after this guy...Oh never mind. So, Ralph escapes from the Lower Valley. Let it just be said that he does get away with murder. OK, so, Ralph then goes to Amsterdam in the Netherlands. Flowers, flowers everywhere, but so are the pretty people. He especially loves frequenting the Red Light District. That old fucker does what he wants. So, the moral of the story is that Ralph finds a little money on the streets, goes and buys some dope, does it up with a cop outside, and gets arrested.
Justice served, well no.
Actually, there is an explosion the next day in the lobby of the jail. All those mother fuckers die but Ralph. He escapes and no harm done. Then, he goes out and buys a lottery ticket and make some good dough. Next, he invests some of that, and due to a great surge in the economy, he brings in all the big bills. Afterwards, he starts a modeling agency, where he can look to his hearts desire, each of which become a canvas of his own. His business goes under in a couple years, but would cares; Ralph got to live his dream. That is so much prettier than all those people.
That's it, done; let's end the story right there. There were rich people who found out their daughter was fucking some duder. Don't forget the naked cover. It doesn't matter too much, those people got what they desired anyway. Then, the next scene had that pretty girl from the first tale who works at a strip club. She doesn't even realize when her own shithead father comes into the place and takes a couple peaks. Her promiscuity at least was the end of her anyway, when this God awful duder shows up. Shoots her and her ex boyfriend. The story ends on a high notes when the duder travels to Amsterdam, and makes lots of money doing what he loves.
That could be the end of it; it just could. However, why do stories always have to end just when the going gets good? There are always those hardworking people out there that want to make more money. Those are good people and their work have to be honored.
More, more, more, that is all anybody wants now a days. Let's give the people want they want.
OK, imagine this girl...since this is a sequel, it would make sense to bring back at least some of the characters from the first part. So, this girl is Steve and Martha's other daughter...Trudy. She may not be the prettiest girl, but everyone says she's beautiful on the inside with doves flying out of her ass at least twice a day. Trudy is two grades younger than that ex-stripper sister of her's Eliza, Belle, whatever her name is. It doesn't matter anymore. The dove girl sings to all the other birds and dances on the moon. Well, at least before that was before her slut sister was rightly shot in the head. Then, Trudy becomes very introverted, thinking more about her pretty self than to that cruel, ugly world out there. She ends up dropping out of school as soon as she turns 16, and emancipates herself from her now deadbeat parents. Don't worry, she has a perfectly good job next to Feed Freddies at a place called Happy Harvey's; it's a pub. No, she doesn't serve the drinks. Instead, Trudy works at the daycare in the back watching over all the pretty children.
Not long after she started working there, she began to wear this pretty sequenced red dress everyday. That was the only dress she could afford anyway. She did it for this regular that would come in, taller, youngish. He made Trudy feel beautiful again. This dude was not a pervert; he would never touch her. Well, that was until she turned 18, and then they humped it out like hippos.
One day, she over hears him saying he lost his job, so she offers for him to stay with her. He was too much of a mutch not to take it. They lived, they humped, oh life was good. Things soon got more serious, and prudy Trudy was finally falling in love. Ah, isn't that sweet. Let's fast forward now to the part of the story where she finds out he is already married. The mutch only thought she was his friend. Trudy beats the shit out of his pretty head for that. It's pretty, no, beautiful seeing the sight of the bastard afterwards. He must have lost at least 100 pounds with all the stuffing knocked out of him. Now, his wife cop from down in the Lower Valley may have not fucked or, for that matter, seen the fucker for awhile, but she is definitely the daughter of a bitch. Saying she got even is good, but retribution sounds much better. Oh, that poor girl's beauty was just pouring out of her, glistening like a rainbow.
Let's make one this perfectly clear, Trudy does not die EVER! For, that girl's hind is as tough as her hippo brethren. Oh course, that girl did have to go to some physical therapy afterwards. With her new training she can consider herself equal, and close brethren to the asses.
So, imagine a pretty physical therapy center on the edge of suburban bliss. It is a place where stallions run as free as well, stallions. OK, the fence probably keeps them a little more contained than that. Anyway, the center uses the stallions as part of the therapy. Trudy loves the new freedom and the fucking feeling of wind running through her hair. There was just one snitch in her new found happiness, the stallion, Woody, collapses onto it's side while she is riding him. Trudy's other leg is crushed and then amputated. Oh well, lesson learned.
She returns to the therapy center a while later, overjoyed to find Woody is being helped right beside her. He is slowly becoming lame. It doesn't take long for Trudy to start to hate the pretty white stallion. She is becoming Woody's bitch, lower than an animal, as it turns out. Nobody could stay mad at those bit brown eyes for long and soon she no longer minded her pretty third class status. Even more pretty was the sight of her in her red dress, which now made her look like a fruity flamingo.
Enough, enough, story time.
So, uh, losing her leg doesn't stop her from riding Woody all she wanted, slowly of could, he was just too big, and one more blow would spell the end for each of them. The riding slowly got faster and faster as they grow more used to each other. Soon, it was love, big old stallion love. To put it a big more blunt, Woody is soon getting plenty of fill from his sweet little flamingo. So much so, he fell down again during their faster riding sessions. He cracked a couple of his pretty ribs, fractured his big old pretty skull. At very least Trudy continued living, but perhaps not too happily ever after.
Oh come on, the beginning did say exactly how the story was going to end. Get a pretty fucking grip!
I wish Pan/Bi/Gay/Etc. had the same options a dominate woman has.
Someone to care for me and want to make me happy and content.
I have cared for those who I love and they loved me.
I have also been hurt or should we say others damaged my body in pure hate and lack of care for anyone.
Years have not been good to me.
People seem not to value someone who has placed others before their own future.
Now middle aged and no one in my life I fear nothing but losing everything is all that's left.
I see so many types of kinks and fetishes including those who have a need take care of and do for others.
I am not dominate or submissive but have taken charge when the need has sadly come up.
I have cried as I could do nothing but be by the side of who I love as they fade away.
If someone loved me and gave all to me, cared for me, made the rest of my life stress free and make a place with them where I need not fear or stress over anything anymore. Someone who truly loves to love me and wants to do everything for me because they want to just as those who state just that about wanting a woman to do and be all for them. I dream as there is someone for others that there is someone for me.
I can dream of many things that if they want, they can hear my thoughts and dreams and share in them. I want them to tell me their dreams and we watch and find many sane and safe things we can explore and try and I hope enjoy and crave more of.
If they need to do things then I would love it if they would tend to my body in playful ways as they clean and care for me and turn me on and drive my cravings for many things.
We share many things in our life. Many common everyday things.
With a dominate person, Many on their profiles or write where they love and dream to pleasure and do any dirty thing that pleases with great pleasure. They say even if placed in pain would please the dominate then the submissive would enjoy what ever pain given to them.
I am not like that.
I would enjoy sharing joy and pleasure with who would be selfless and giving to me.
They say they at any time are ready to sexually serve and worship their love.
Someone being all those things to me and truly happy to do it and even more seeing me happy would build the need in me to also just out of the blue want to do nice things to them.
If they are always giving oral and anything I love and always tempting me to get oral or give them anal or even to give me a hands free orgasm from anal then I would love to have them near, hold them, touch them, touch their body in ways I hope excites and gives pleasure and even when they are erect I give oral and when they cum I swallow it all and suck and lick them more just for fun.
If they are clean and ready for anal I may just finger them and give oral and make them cum if they wish me to make them orgasm when ever I feel.
If they get clean and offer their ass to me to take any way I dream then I would love to.
I also want them for my pleasure to clean and then give anal but stopping before they cum and then repeat and train to last only leaking precum into me while making me closer and closer to an orgasm just from pleasing my anus in all the ways I dream.
Do they want me to piss in their ass?
Do they want to drink it direct from my dick?
That and all kinks are up to them as I am not going to make them.. But I will help provide what I can to feed their kinks in ways I can...
If there is someone out there for me who dreams of someone different to be submissive to and would like how I return love for theirs then there is hope I will not die in fear of being un cared for it loved forever....
I wish there were groups who could match mindsets and ways of not taking risks to place the other in any harm...
If with others who stay safe and take no risks and only share them self with the loyal lovers they match, I know I would not need to hold back anymore and we could go sexually crazy :)
No i did not ask for someone to be rude to this post...
I do not attack you so if you have nothing good to say then please find someone who wants that and attack there...
I am not one you would have any issues with if a neighbor and you just respected my rights as I would yours...
We all are different and can support the others cause and wishes so no one can take them away us.
Be well and have open minds for all :)
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