i fucked this girl and she shat on me so i beat dat ass and she fell down the stairs and now shes in a coma what should i do

This is just a way to clear my head.
This isn't your normal confession.
This isn't some made-up story or even something that really happened. Well, not in the sense most of you are expecting (that is to say, if anyone actually reads this).

Anyway, I'm an 18 year-old boy. I'm socially awkward (5 true friends, all of them female). I'm intelligent (holding steady at 7 or 6 place in my school). I'm pretty fugly (not so much my face, I'll admit, but more my body. I'm fat and have loads of body hair). I have issues with my self-esteem (which should be pretty freakin' obvious by now). I am sexually repressed (read: first masturbated at the tender age of 12 and only ever had one girlfriend. Possibly one of the best things that happened to me, and I screwed it up). All-in-all, I'm a stereotypical nerd, glasses and all.

But sometimes, my mind goes a little weird. I'm not talking about suddenly having weird fetishes (I have them, getting to that) or dreaming strange things (again, later... well, maybe) or having a psychotic break or nervous breakdown (never happened unless it was in sports). I get these little things stuck in my head and my mind won't let it go until I do it (case in point - this post).

One of those little things that I actually have come to adore is to put whatever girl-I'm-with's pleasure first (note that I said one girlfriend. Nothing about casual hookups. Well not hookups, some making-out and me playing with her breasts). That means that I don't really care if I feel good, as long as she feels good. Well, that's a lie. Making her feel good makes me feel good. Let em tell you, nothing quite as stimulating than having a girl moan into your mouth and you know it's because of you.

Aaaaanywaaaay... This means I try a lot of things. Little kisses up the collarbone, biting the chin or neck or bottom lip (even her nose at one point. It was fun, okay?), tugging at her hair, pinching her nipples through her shirt with her bra slid down, all sorts of little things. All for her. Like I said, makes me feel good to make her feel good.

Which doesn't sound that bad, right? And it isn't. It really isn't. It's kinda fun. Make a game out of it. How fast can I make her moan? How long till she rubbing herself against me while she's on my lap? How long can I hover just out of reach before she tries to kiss me again?

But I always stop before things go to far. No touching her privates. I want to say nothing below the belt or under her pants, but I've gone groping her ass a couple of times. Anyway, this means the farthest I've ever gone is kissing, licking or biting my girlfriend's breasts and nipples (and even that didn't last long. She felt uncomfortable and, to tell the truth, so did I). Hell, that casual hook-up I mentioned? I actually stopped her from taking off her bra.

And that's not even to mention the little things that set me off, sexually I mean. A girl biting her lip? Hello, my little friend. Girl wearing stockings (which is hell in a school with a uniform, by the way)? Down boy. Lots of little things. Some strange, some not so much. A girl giggling when I do something silly like bite her nose while making out? Or looking into my eyes as we kiss? Nothing better. Nothing on earth, I'd wager.

Then there are the other things. Like lipstick. Good god, but lipstick sets me off. I've been jokingly suggesting to a lot of my girl friends (note: not girlfriends but female friends) to make leave a lipstick kiss on my mirror. Or one of my fantasy's involving a girl kissing me all over, leaving kisses like that in her wake.

Or picking her up against a wall, her legs around my waist, all the while just kissing. Having her lie down and not being allowed to do anything as I kiss her all over. Having her sit on my desk as we kiss. Little things, tame things, but hell if it doesn't get me going.

Also, sexting. Not anything really dirty (as I lack the experience), but still. One of the weirdest things was when I joked about a girl sending me a picture of a lipstick mark in her cleavage. She did it. I've never been harder in my live. But, no offense meant to her, she likes sending pics like that. Nothing explicit, but just enough to get her male friends a little hot under the collar.

I'm not saying I'm a nice guy or anything. Hell, look at where I'm posting this. But some days...

Not the point. Actually none of this has a point. This is just me venting a bit. Feels good, actually. I might have to do this again.

-ForgottenGeist, saying Hello World.
I'm still here.

... Fuck it. I was going to delete this after I wrote it (it was just a way to get rid of some things), but now that it's done... fuck it. May as well post it. give me something to coma back to when I feel like this again.

Went over to my neighbor's house on Saturday evening to watch some of the late college football games. He's got a pretty sweet setup in his basement with a 70 inch screen with all the bells and whistles and a nice fully stocked bar. My wife was back at our house with the kids and probably close to passed out by 9pm with her typical weekend night bottle of wine and an ambien. His wife and kids were asleep on the 3rd floor of his house, so we were being loud watching and it didn't seem to be waking anyone up.

I was probably on my forth double of good scotch by the time halftime rolled around when he asked if I wanted to step out back to smoke some weed with him. Been a while since I smoked, but I said sure, why the hell not. While out there he made some comment about how much it sucks being married for 7 years now because every weekend night he ends up drinking in his basement by himself, smoking a little weed and then when he goes upstairs to bed his wife is long since in an ambien induced coma and she hasn't shown much interest in sex for a while. I laughed and said I know exactly what he means, since my wife has been the same way of late and we probably hadn't had sex in about 3 months. He said that was even longer than him and I must be completely pent up with sexual frustration. I told him he didn't even know the half of it and that on some nights I would jerk off standing right over her passed out in bed and had even thought about trying to fuck her while she was passed out in her pharmaceutical bliss. He told me he had the same thought about his wife before when she was passed out but always just went to the bathroom to rub one out before bed. Then he said, "hell, we could probably both go up there right now and fuck my wife and she wouldn't even know it happened in the morning." I couldn't tell if he was just being a smartass or was serious, but being that I had jerked off a few times to the thought of his wife who was a pretty good looking MILF, the thought of fucking her right then started to get me turned on and I felt a chub forming in my shorts.

We could see the second half was kicking off so we went back inside and I sat back down in the lounger I was in before, but I still was definitely sporting the chubby that had sprung a minute before when we were outside. Steve poured me another scotch and when he brought it to me, he looked down and could clearly see the erection in the athletic shorts that I was wearing. He looked at me and said "what the fuck man, are you that excited for the second half or was that talk of fucking our passed out wives turning you on that much?". I said back to him that specifically the thought of fucking his wife had got me worked up and since I hadn't gotten laid in 3 months pretty much when the wind blows my dick gets hard and it takes me either blowing my load or a good 30 minutes of just sitting there for it to go back down again. He said back to me, "well I guess we can wait 30 minutes or we could just take care of you blowing your load right now" and he reached down and grabbed hold of my hard cock. I flinched big time at first as I have never had another guy touch my cock before that wasn't my doctor during an annual check-up. But because I was so freaking horny and hadn't had anyone else touch me in months, I just said to myself "fuck it" and said to him, "why not, let's take care of it right now".

And with that he dropped to his knees in front of me, pulled my elastic waistband down and my hard cock sprang out. He started stroking me and then leaned forward and took my cock in his mouth. I just closed my eyes and sat with my head back in the recliner and enjoyed having another person sucking my dick for the first time in ages. He was working my cock like a pro, when he stopped and said that he wanted to hear me tell him about how I would fuck his wife. So I started into a dialog of describing her and her body and taking off her clothes, then eating her pussy and asshole, before fucking her from behind and then her riding me and as I went on his pace on my cock picked up, and then right as he begged me to tell him how I would finish I told him I would pull my cock out of her asshole and shove it in her mouth and make her gag on my hot load, and right then I sprayed 4 or 5 huge ropes of my cum straight into his mouth. I looked down and saw him eagerly swallowing what he could while some was dripping out of the corners of his mouth. He licked my cock clean, pulled my waistband back up, grabbed his drink off the end table and sat back down in his chair. He just looked over and said, "Well, I hope that you are feeling better now." and we went back to watching the game.

I sat there in complete silence for a few minutes as he just kept talking about the game like nothing had happened. When the game was over I said that I better get on home and thanks for the drinks and good times and he replied "anytime, and I do mean anytime. And maybe next time you can return the favor if you were so inclined." I got to admit, it was a great blowjob. Not sure I am wanting to give him one, but as my sexual frustration at home grows, I am sure I will be back over in Steve's basement.

Hello everyone!

I am a 45 year old Guy, who is your pretty typical person I suppose. But that is not why I am here! The problem is..I forgot how to jack off due to a bad coma I experienced. Someone please help me out here!

She was in a car wreck. Was in a coma for three months. She's a little slow now and has almost no short term memory. Would you take advantage of that?

Big ass asian squirts after almost masturbating herself into a coma.

a saterday night about a month ago my self and my sister went to a relatives 21st birthday..later that night we hit the club and ended up getting very drunk she was unable to even tell were she was. later that night we got home and put a pizza in the oven as we had gotten hungry. and watched tv while we waited and as i lifted it from the oven and sliced it she had drifted off into a drunken coma so i had the pizza to myself

it was only when returning the plate to the kitchen i noticed she had shifted on the sofa on the other side of the room. one of her legs had lipped from the cusion to the floor. and exposed the gusset of her canary yellow lace panties i could make out her clean shaven pussy so i inched closer. i tried to fight was was going on in my head so i tryed to shake her awake but nothing was moving her. but the more i looked the more i got turned on then for some reason i found my hand sliding up her smooth thigh and then i started to massage her pussy through the matirial of her panties. after a couple of minutes of that and carefully watching her reaction...or should i say lack of reaction i then pulled them to one side and begane to massage her clit with my thumb.

after a bit the strain in my pant was starting to hurt so i opened my fly just for a little releif but i did not relise it popped out untill i felt it rub against the inside of her thighthen total lust seemed to have taken over because next thing i remember was i then was running the head of my cock along the cleft of her still exposed pussy. i tryed to push it in her but she was still a little dry so i spat on onto the head of my cock and slowly pushed it into her still watching for any reaction as i did.

ever few thrusts i got a little deeper as she got looser i get it slowly and gentle so she would not wake up as i went in all the way to my balls.
after a little bit i got a little more courage and pulled down one side of the halter neck she was wearing and just watched her tit bounce slightly as i fucked her. i begane getting a little faster as i felt her get wet. as her body moved with the light shunt of me fucking her her breast bounced more witch set me off so quickly i did not have a chance to pull out but thinking it was to late anyways i filled her up and slowly pulled out leaving my mess to drip from her and then pulled her panties back into place and went to bed

but my confession is that for the first time ever i am glad to hear a woman comaplian about her period being early over the phone to a freind

When are you going to realize you are in a coma?
we all miss you and love you!

This is a true story, I'm now 40 yr SWM and I had a very very frustrating childhood, growing up in a house with a VERY HOT MILF of a mom and it was just her and I, Dad is long out of the picture.

Got really tired of all my friends saying " Dude your mom is so fucking HOT! " have you ever seen her nude? this was constant during my teenage years and of course I masturbated to my mother constantly and was always sneaking around stealing her dirty panties whenever possible.
This went on for years and it finally got to the point where I just some how had to see her nude....I would find myself laying awake at night sceaming and trying to figure out a way for this to happen....It was late winter and then the idea came to me and well I'm not proud of this, but I think it was the only way it was going to happen, now this was back in the mid 1980's....and I thought of the idea in Feb. and had to wait til like May or June.

Well it was May and I started looking at the Calendar for a Full moon and Warm weather to set in, because I knew my mother slept in the nude regularly during the spring and summer months.
I remember early in the winter I was having a difficult time sleeping for a bit and that my sleep schedule was all messed up and I was 16 at the time and my mother gave me a Tynol PM or something like it, Well it KNOCKED ME OUT! I usually got myself off to school everyday since I was 12 etc... took this stuff and I woke up at 2:30 PM !!! WTF !! and felt like I was in a coma !!, but I said Hmmmmmmmm???

Anyways! it was MAY and I reviewed the Full moon and was waiting for warm nights to start, So I found a perfect night about two weeks away praying for warm clear weather !! The night came it was going to be a full moon....Mom went to work 6:00am as usual I got up and did my morning ritual grabbed her dirty panties and licked them as I jacked off my morning load. Then I went into her bathroom and found the Ba-Bye Pills and took two of them and gridded them into a fine powder and waited til that evening, The evening came and my mother is a huge baseball fan and we would watches baseball together regularly " Yankees Vs Redsox's" and I said " Ice Cream mom? " she say yes, but plain no crazzy sundays or anything, little vanilla
I'm serious, I said ok....I went and got the ice cream and took the powder Ba-bye pills and mixed it in good with the ice cream and gave it to her and I was a little worried it might taste chemically or something? So I put in a little Maple Syrup on the ice cream, mom loves maple walnut ice cream, so I got some walnuts and said I tried to make my own, she gave me crap about it, saying " You don't listen " I said sorry I know sorry, but she gobbled the ice cream down not saying ANYTHING! she noticed me stairing at her and she said WHAT? I said nothing? trying to not look like what I just did, Well grabbed the bowls went back to the kitchen and then paranoia set in and thinking what if I put in too much, I could kill her, FUCK! then I calm-ed down and went back in sat and watched the game, I want to say it was like 30 minutes later she was starting to Doze and head bob and I said Mom, go to bed and she said I'm fine, then little snorts and I said Ms. Piggy! go to bed and she agreed and got up said good night ! mumbling !!! it was a warm night and the full moon was out and it was clear.

I waited like an hour and half and went up stairs and leaned up against the door and could hear her in full snore mode !!! I opened the door slowly and peeked in and the room was lighted up like lunar park !!! I said YES! and mom just had a sheet and I could see she was I think in the nude? So I said in regular voice " mom " nothing, then again, but louder MOM, nothing and then again " MOM! " then the final test " MOM! DADS! HOME! " she hated my father more then anything and if anything would awake her, it would be that !!!

I closed the door leaving a crack and went to my room and stripped down to my boxers and my hard on had already started growing....I always slept in Boxers and T-shirt so incase she woke up I would look normal except for the hardon.....I went back opened the door and slowly
walked over and gave another test shout " MOM! loud " She was OUT !!! I walked over up close to the bed and there she was leaning to one side with just a sheet and the moon had the room lighted up perfect.....I grabbed the sheet and slowly very very slowly eased the sheet off her and Finally there she was The MILF of Princeton N.J.and my jaw just dropped seeing her 5'10 long 120lb body with long blond hair and 36C cup breast and her bubble ass, my cock was raging and raging, she was leaning a bit on her side and her ass was sorta pushed out, I was able to get down on my knees and get my nose Inches from her ass like 1/2 inch away and I could smell her pussy and asshole,with that musky smell from her panties it was amazing !!!
I sat there and just looked and looked like I was looking at a pacasio painting and was stroaking my cock and I would get my cock inches from her ass and pussy making a thrusting motion, trying not to make any noise....and then she rolled over and I hit the ground like there was a sniper in the room and waited for the snores to start, then i know it was clear, I stood up and she was laying flat on her back and there were her gorgeous breast !!! I got my
face so so so close and I wanted to just touch them, but I knew it was too dangerous taking that chance...I continued to stroke myself and got my cock inches from her face stroaking imagining my huge cock just blowing a huge cum load all over her face and then the force was getting way way too close and was getting to the point where I was going to blow my load and the feeling was so great, because I had achieved my almost incestial fantasy seeing my mother alone in the full nude for about 45 minutes I finally knelt down and got my face so up close to her pussy hairs where they just brushed against my lips and I just put my tongue out the tiniest bit and just barely touched her pussy hairs and then I could feel myself starting to almost spurt and shoot and I got up and slowly walked out and went to my room and pulled out a pair of my moms dirty panties that I had kept the week before and just grabbed them and put the cotton part in mouth and imagined the images in my head I just had seen and stroaked about 5 times and then the flood gates of warm sperm just came flowing out like a fire hose and I had a good 45 second steady flowing stream of cum shooting all over my body, too this day it was probably the biggest loads I have ever had and one of the best orgasms I have ever had and I layed there for about ten minutes before I cleaned myself up and I mean cum was everywhere on my face hair, the head bord, the lamp, the clock , I mean it looked like a jar of mayonnaise just exploded in my room !!!

Here is a picture of my mom back in the day of her glory and I retook her honeymoon picture so it would be digital and touched it up with today's technology of editing, just did the light and contrast.....So maybe you can understand what it was like having to deal with this everyday your whole teenage life, talk about having a hardon for your mom....Feel free to e-mail me with comments this was real and I never had sex with my mother, but wanted to do it
every single day to this day and I still steal her panties when I go home to see her to this day.
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I have a really sweet boyfriend, he treats me like a princess and will do almost anything for me, we have been engaged for 2 months now and dated for over 4, so next week is my friend's birthday and we decided to surprise her with a birthday party. My boyfriend is not a fan of shopping (yes I take quite some time when I shop) so while I was searching for gifts he accompanied me and was constantly complaining so jokingly I told him that if he complained one more time I'll scream "Rape!" and say that this guy is assaulting me, my boyfriend laughed and said try it, no one cares. A few minutes later we enter this new shop and he starts complaining again, I probably wasn't thinking straight and in the heat of moment I screamed loudly, the world around me froze and this group of 4 well built black men ran to me and asked what happened, I said "This guy is trying to rape me!" Pointing at my boyfriend, his face flushed of all the colors and the guys literally jumped at him, before I could say anything else they were beating him to a pulp. My fiance is now fighting for his life, and this is taking a huge toll on his family. I’m scared he might not make it through, and his family needs lots of prayers at this time.
He is in critical condition and is unstable. He is in a medically induced coma and on total life support. There is trauma to his brain and a 5-inch section of his skull was removed to keep the pressure down. Due to fluid in his lungs, he now has an infection.
I am still numb. This is so hard to come to terms with and see my boyfriend in a vegetative state. No one deserves this. I just don’t understand why I let my joke get so out of control.

One of many outrageous confessions. My fav anyway. It's a true story.

I (male, 28). Ended up chatting my best mates long term partner on Facebook one eve, with the intention of being cheeky of course as I knew he was away. I found out her best friend was over. They were drinking spirits and were very tipsy.

From the "what are you doing" convo, I linked them a risque TV shows that feature a lot of hot, all but porn scenes in, which I faked I was watching. They took the bait and the talk started getting flirtatious. So I started explaining how "bored" I was, and needed entertaining and asked for advice in which she said. "Us!"

My response immediately was. Sounds as if you were offering a 3some or something...

They didn't reply straight away, So I said - "Would you guys want to?"

The reply was simply - "Yes".

I went straight over. It was strange knocking on her door, of a place I have been in a lot. I could see them very faintly through the blinds. They were just in their pants and tank top. Very hot.

They opened the door, we were all smirking at each other. That is when I knew it was on,

I shared a drink with them. And then it happened. I was on a big sofa and told them to join me. They got either side of me and got them close to me. After a few minutes, we all started kissing. She led us both to the bedroom and we have about 2 hours of the most insanely hot, dirty, sweaty, bareback sex you can think of. At least 3-4 times me and my mates partner (who they are still together) talked dirty about how naughty it was and need to keep fucking (we never have since, but we both agreed how great it was).

I had fingers in their asses, rimmed them, almost tried some anal but didn't want to complicate things. I got them both squirting together too. It did exhaust me! I ended up filling my mates gf full of cum, before we fell into a bit of a sex coma.

I left around 5am and never regretted it.

My closet friend recently lost his favorite uncle and asked me to help him move his stuff so I took off work he said hell be a few hours late and told me where the spare key was I started with the kitchen and the living room a couple of hours went by so I decided to call my friend and he said he’s held up in 5 o’clock traffic and he’ll get here as soon as possible im not use to packing up other people shit plus it smells funky in here but fuck it he’s been there for me at crazy times so w/e I took a small break and went in his uncles room and this man had a complete fully stocked pharmacy store I knew he was sick but damn he had bottles of medicine everywhere im a nosy fuck so I get to googling shit then about after 7  to 10 min i come across 5 full bottles in his nightstand i said to myself whatever this is he didnt like it very well I looked it up and it read something very interesting like this was some super strong as sleep meds I mean put super man in a coma lol I took them all and some more things like for pain I knew my friend didnt mind he was 7 hours late plus he asked me to throw everything that was in his room away except for pictures and his Remington shotgun he finally showed up and we finished cleaning and packing things up, putting them into the U-Haul truck he took me out to a nice steak restaurant and we proceeded to go our separate ways later that night I did more research and oh my God this is what I’ve been looking for this whole time. It just landed in my lap a few days ago by and I put my children to sleep and join my wife for a glass of wine. Well, a few glasses of wine where I proceeded to use this in her last glass lol it put her into a deep coma. I mean, deep I started playing with her eyes nose, asshole smacking her. She didn’t move a muscle. I mean, I’m really rubbing the tip of my dick on her fucking eyeball and she’s not moving at all. I’m literally holding up her eyelid and pissing into her eye.I’m glad his uncle never took this shit. I’m bout to use it to have as much fun as possible this shit works wonders. I’m like literally smacking the shit out of her. To the point where her face has started to turn different colors oh well, I’m gonna tell her she drank too much and fell I think tomorrow night I’m gonna drop a Duce in the center of her face. She cheated a while back and I never got over that shit i literally just found my perfect revenge I can’t wait. Stay tuned for part two 3/27/25

I wrote this a few years ago when I was thirteen or fourteen and posted it on another forum. I've edited it for grammar and spelling since, but the language is much still the same (troll away about the ten dollar words if that's satisfying for you.) I'm afraid I don't have a very satisfying epilogue for you, but maybe you'll enjoy reading my fantasies.. I confess that I want to fuck basically everyone in my family!

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My mom lives with her new wife, and I live with them and my adopted sister most of the time. My dad lives with his sister, and I'm with them in the summer. I think I might be a nymphomaniac because all I can think about is fucking them, all of them.

I found Mom and Sheila's toys in their closet while they were at the store with my sister Renee a couple weeks ago. They just started leaving me home alone. They had a dizzying assortment of dildos, butt-plugs, handcuffs, ropes, vibrators, strap-on harnesses, lubricants... they even had a strange dildo on a huge half-cylinder that plugged in. [ed. when I posted this story I was informed this was a Sybian. I also later learned that one of the objects I didn't even take notice of at the time was a sex swing. (It was disassembled.] I sniffed and licked every toy they had, but they were all clean. I was really disappointed, but that didn't stop me from picking out one of their smaller toys and popping my own cherry with it. I actually got a spot of blood on their carpet, but I don't think they ever noticed. I resolved to start listening at their door and even hoped to get a peek at what they were doing sometime. The idea of them fucking each other with these dildos (some of them were HUGE) was just fascinating to me.

I didn't have to wait long to get my voyeuristic jollies. That night, I went to bed and closed my door and started reading. When I heard Renee go to bed, I crept out to find everyone's bedroom doors closed. I crept over to Mom and Sheila's door, and carefully pressed my ear against it.

The first thing I heard was my mom giggling. "Stop nibbling, that tickles!" It was a few moments before I heard anything else, and it was mom's gentle moans, slowly building in intensity. Eventually I heard Sheila gasp "Talk dirty to me.", and Mom said some shit I had NEVER heard her say! This probably isn't exactly how it went, but it's as close as I can remember.

"Yeah Sheila, you dirty fucking whore, you lick that pussy, you worship it, worship me. You're MY fucking whore."
"Yes, mistress, I'm your whore."
"I didn't tell you to stop licking, whore. Don't forget my asshole. OH YEAH you're a well-trained little whore."

I began rubbing myself while holding my ear to the door, nearly suffocating trying not to make any noise. This went on for a few minutes until finally I heard mom screaming, I guess because she came. She asked Sheila if she'd cum yet, and she said yes, and mom asked if she was ready to switch. I assumed that meant that Mom was gonna eat Sheila's pussy now.

But then mom started begging "Please let me suck your big dick, mistress." I guessed they had gotten out the strap-on. I heard some gagging sounds, and rubbed myself thinking about my Mom kneeling in front of Sheila, deep-throating a 12" strap-on. (Their biggest one was, indeed, 12", I had measured.)

I had to step away from the door and lie down on the floor in the hall to frig myself to an orgasm. After I did, I found that I was still horny and curious so I put my ear back to the door to see if anything was still going on.

"Fuck me, Sheila, fuck my pussy, I'm gonna cum, I'm gonna cum!"
"Yeah, you like that, bitch? You like massaging my big dick with your tight pussy?"
"Oh yes, I love your big dick in my tight pussy, please please please cum in my pussy."

I expected Sheila to get mad since Mom actually seemed to be pretending she was a guy, but instead she played right along.

"Are you sure? If I cum in your pussy you might not get your ass fucked tonight."
"Oh baby please fuck my ass I need you to hurt my little ass with your big cock."

Wow. Even having seen the butt-plugs for myself that day, I hadn't fully made the connection that my Mom and Sheila enjoy anal sex. I started rubbing myself again. I wished I had something to play with my asshole with (using my fingers did not occur to me at the time) so I could feel a little of what mom was feeling.

I listened at the door for a couple more minutes, and heard Mom's initial moans as Sheila pushed the strap-on into her ass. Eventually they built to a rapid rhythm (I could tell by the sounds of flesh slapping) and I got so excited I just had to see. I pulled my hand out of my panties, licked my fingers clean, put on my best "I have been laying down trying to sleep for two hours like a good girl" face, and threw open their door.

I saw Sheila mounted on top of Mom doggy-style, with a large dildo hanging halfway out of Mom's pussy, a magic wand on her clit, and Sheila's very large, very REAL, attached to her, non-strap-on, actual fucking human dick buried to the hilt in Mom's asshole, and it just so happened that at the moment I threw open the door they had both begun to orgasm. I saw mom collapse and begin to convulse wildly on the bed, and Sheila followed her down, obviously pushing hard as if to bury MORE than all of her dick in Mom's ass while she came.

I watched until they both stopped shaking, and they didn't notice until I spoke. "Uh, mommy?"

Sheila immediately jumped off of Mom. Mom gasped at the shock of her emptiness, and I saw two things that would become a lifetime obsession for me: a woman's (my mother's!) gaping-wide asshole, and a long, fat, beautiful, glistening tranny cock. It must have been 9 inches long, and if anything unusually thick for its length. My pussy was BURNING.

I received a 15 minute impromptu lecture on sex, gender identity, and privacy, generated an excuse about looking for some tylenol, and went back to bed to frig myself into a fucking coma.

I am looking for as many opinions as possible, from anyone. I am not a police officer nor do I have any connections to law enforcement or any governmental agency. I am a private citizen doing research on a subject. I am not here to judge you, sting you, rat on you, whatever. I don't care if you are a sex offender, someone with fantasies, or someone who is completely against the taboos discussed in this topic. I am a former student in Criminology (the study of criminal behavior). My younger brother is a convicted sex offender, sentenced to spend at least another 15 years (his offense was non-violent, and there was no actual victim involved- he was surfing chat rooms for adult porn. Another user sent him a hard drives worth of old that flooded his whole comp with viruses that caused a whole bunch more old to come in automatically. The perp also attached viruses that took screenshots of the hard drive, including credit information, then ripped my brother off while he was in prison. One of the old files had an attachment courtesy of the FBI that ended up screwing him). Due to his case, I took an interest in so called "sexual deviants" and the studying of paraphilias. For one assignment, I had to choose an offender to interview. The instructor put up a list in the class with no information, just a number. At the end of the class, the number we chose from the list was the number file the instructor gave to us. That way, we did not know anything about the offender we were to interview prior to us choosing the case (I guess this way those that were squeamish could not avoid the assignment, and those that were way too interested in the subject could not choose a specific offender they were interested in. We had to work the case, no matter what. My subject seemed to be rather normal- he was a former intern for a doctors office that treated convicted sex offenders and broken families that had been hurt through domestic violence, rape, pedophilia, molestation, etc. During his employment, it was discovered he was stealing case files from the office and using them as masturbatory materials. After several months of lifting files from the office and fantasizing, he decided to act on the fantasy. He began dating a woman with young toddler age children, and gain their trust. One day while his girlfriend was at work, he hit her two year old daughter so hard that her brain severed itself from the spinal cord due to severe whiplash. She remained the rest of her life on life support in a hospital in a coma, as a vegetable due to this. Her mother finally took her off life support at age 4. During his incarceration, the subject was diagnosed with a brain tumor that had been growing in him since he was a teenager, and had it removed. After the removal, his urges seemed to subside for awhile. But after several months, he found himself masturbating in his prison cell to the same violent fantasies as before. Concerned the tumor came back, he went in for an emergency checkup. The doctors saw no return of the cancer, and no other neurological abnormalities in the brains function, and all chemical levels seemed to be balanced. Intrigued by this, I began doing background on the subject. He lived a normal childhood, in a normal middle class family. He was a a B average student all through school, had normal relationships and friendships with peoeple in his own age group, and had no sign of severe mental illness traits in either him or his family. Aside from his conviction and sexual urges, there was nothing in his environmental or physiological traits/background that would point to his reason for these desires other than the brain tumor. I discussed my subject with a neurologist who said the tumor could have changed the chemistry of the brain, but due to current scientific limitations, this isn't showing on any modern test. A sex therapist I went to for a professional opinion saaid that though the tumor caused the imbalance and urges to begin with, the reason she believes the urges continue is due to the fact that his sexuality was de-sensitized during his experience, and this is the only way he knows and is attracted to in order to orgasm. He does truly feel remorse for what he did, and most likely will not offend again if he can maintain the minimal self control he demonstrates by keeping his fantasies as fantasies and not trying to make them reality, while continuing therapy and treatment.

When asked what he thinks of during masturbation, he began recalling the case files he stole from his previous job: the man who tied his wife to a chair in the kitchen, then called their young 1 year old toddler in the room and began beating her while the mother was forced to watch. The mother/father team who beat, molested, and eventually began a full incest relationship (including a so-called marriage ceremony when one of the girls had her first period, and the father took the daughter into a pedophilic polygamous relationship- the girl was 11) all 4 of their children since before they could walk, and were not caught until the oldest child was in her mid-20s. The other mother/father rape team- a young woman (age 24) would masturbate while watching/video recording her husband (age 27) with their daughter (age 4) beating, slapping, pulling hair, choking, throwing, and twisting/locking her joints to the point of severe pain. They apparently also filmed several child rape videos with the child. I compared cases with another student in the class- her subject was found to be in a pedophilic incestuous relationship with his 7 year old daughter. He started with her when she was barely a newborn, performing oral on her, and masturbating/ejaculating on her. When she was 2, he sodomized her for the first time, and this activity continued until he was arrested. By the time she was 3, she was performing oral sex on him. When she was 7, he raped her vaginally. During school the next day, she went to the nurse with severe stomach pains. When the nurse was examining her, she noticed a large amount of spotted blood near the childs crotch area, and had the girl admitted to a hospital. That is when the sexual abuse was discovered, and the investigation began. When interviewed in prison, he showed no remorse, guilt, or shame in what he had done, claiming that he loves his daughter in the same way a man loves his wife, and believed he was showing acts of love whenever he touched or had intercourse with the child. His background is not unusual for someone who displays this type of behavior- rough childhood, parents who abused alcohol and drugs, physically abusive father who left the family for a stripper when subject was 9. His mother eventually abandoned him at age 15 on the street, since him living at home meant she couldn't afford her drug habit. He was in and out of jail as a teenager, and was raped at 13 by an older cell mate. The girl he was convicted of abusing was mothered by a prostitute the subject was dating, and has since improved her life as a healthy and happy young adult who runs support groups, and an inspirational speaker who specializes in abused women and children.

I am not here to pass judgement, support any viewpoint or suggestion, and am looking to remain completely neutral regarding any of this. I am mainly looking at it from a scientific point of view, and have a few curiosities on the subject.
Since my class, I have had the same questions mulling around my head, so I figured I would bring them to a board where I can find what seems to be a large variety of people (both those attracted to children, and otherwise):
1. How do you feel about the idea of a relationship with a child being sexual?
2. If you are sexually attracted to children, how do you define your attraction? Is it based out of power and control? Do you feel you are loving the child?
3. What is your take on offenders whose actions were less sexual and more violent? (IE, offenders who receive sexual satisfaction or fantasy out of watching women/children be hit, cry, or abused)
4. Do you have fantasies of violence, or love when it comes to children?
5. Are the children yours, or someone elses?
6. Do you have anything in your background that would influence your opinion? If so, what?
7. Do you feel modern day society has a large influence on your decision? Follow up question- how much sex and violence have you been exposed to throughout your life? (movies, magazines, games, books, interests, etc)

Thank you for reading my study, and any answers are appreciated.