I am 29 and I wanted to conffess what made me realise I preffered underage girls and I was wondering how other began to realise.
When I was 16, my cousin who was 8 at the time used to sit on my lap and as soon as she did, i would find myself beccoming hard and have to move her so she wouldn't feel it. This quite often happened and although I thought it was strange, I just thought it was becasue I was always getting boners anyway (like teen bois do) such as in maths class or just sitting in the car and didnt think too much of it.
During the ages of 17 and 18 I worked as a lifeguard and I used to find myself quite often enjoying looking at the young femeales, anywere from around the age of about 12 up. But again i dindt think much of it becasue, it was rare that girls of a much similar age or older visited the swimming pool and I was just a lad.
It wasn't until i was about 19 and searching for porn on the net (as you do) that i came accross a child modelling site. I was quite shocked with what I saw and it made me kinda feel really really horni. In the end, it didnt take long before i came and i did the hardest I have ever done in my life, i was stood up and my legs went completley like jelly.
I kept on looking at child modelling sites but began to wonder what some of these girls looked like topless, and began finding nude girls on the web. (These sites with nude girls are now very hard to find but it was mucgh easier then.)
Soon enough, I discovered the joys of P2P filesharing. My friend gave me a link and at first it was for the purpose of music etc but i soon discovered you could find some really good child porn videos on there.
As time went on i was now 25 ish and had built up quite a huge collection of porn. But the excitment of looking for new one's meant i was not satisfied.
I also found chat rooms quite fun and loved pretending to be a 13,OLD girl. I loved the way these guys would talk and it was amazing how many actually liked young girls.
Anyway, I set msn account up and pretnded to be a OLD boy and managed to see quite a few girls get naked on cam for me.
I more recent times, feeling the guilf and more so the worry of being in posscesion of all this child porn, I completley destroyed the hard drive, smashed it to pieces.
Since then, about a year ago, i found motherless and that kind of kept me going.
Now Omegle is quite fun and exciting and i use that but that does get abit annoying the amount of time you have to wait to find a girl. I also still use msn and ocassionly talk to teen girls but now i tell them i am 24 and go on cam with them. So of them arent intrested but i have seen a few 14yos get naked along with a OLD but she was abit fat and ugly.
Anyway, I hated myself when i realised i was effectivley a pedo but there is nothing that you can do about it, its your sexuality and its like telling a gay person to turn straight. I have however come to terms with it but am very careful becasue of the devstation and upset it will cause.
So whats your story...
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