I Confess i still think about my ex girlfriend almost every day, despite being married for 14 years and counting, and it is 17 years after my ex and i broke up.
I met her in 2006, after visiting a friend of mine, who celebrated his birthday, and she was his neighbor.
We started off really weird, because after thay b-day, that friend of mine asked me if he could come along with me to a swingersclub. although a bit weirded out, i said yes, and when i picked him up, she was there as well, asking if i wouldnt mind if she could join the fun as well.. She said she was 18, *( i was 21 at the time) and at the club they never asked so all was good despite losing a date at that club with a much older lady. The evening went well, fucked a bit, and went home.
A week or so later we met again, and went out to a regular club, had much fun, and i brought her home.. she asked me if we were boy/gf now and if i liked so see other chicks, she would not have a problem with that (indicating she wanted an open relationship) naive and totally not ready for such a relationship i said i liked her and her only, and i could not help noticing she was a bit dissapointed, but went it it.
From that point on, until the day of the breakup (Dec 31, 2007) we had sex every single day, at first a bit vanilla because i did not want to hurt her, but she was a big girl and said she wanted me to be a bit more rough with her, so i did.. and from that moment we had the most awesome sex, wild, rough, i would not have to held back with roughness, and after a few months, we discovered she was a heavy squirter. The downfall came because i pussied out when she wanted me to choke her, like passing out kind of choking. Affraid of accidentally k*lling her i just could not do it hard enough, so after a while she started to hang out more and more with this dude who was really into this kind of stuff, and i caught her cheating in a pretty horrible way. A few months of struggling (pun intended) went by and she broke up with me at a party on new-years eve.
I saw her a few times after that, with years in between.. the last time i saw her was 2017 or 2018. We catched up a bit, bringing back memories and she asked me if i still had all these pictures and videos of her and me, and if i could swing by sometime to give her that material as well. So i did, only to find out she just met this new guy and he was not amused.. The last time i talked to her was 2020.. she was single again, and i tried to talk to her online, and she started a fight with me for talking to her again, which i really did not understand why she did that. I just can not close the book on her and, it feels like unfinished business but i know i should leave her alone (which i do).
