You need to go back to her, the only thing you'll ever regret in your entire life is that you walked away from the woman you love. Go back, hold her, kiss her and send her off with a smile knowing that you love her. Otherwise, she's going to just pass away without seeing you one last time. Don't do that to her. Stop being selfish. She needs you.
Replies 5
1
17 Aug 2016 8:17PM
I have a flight out tomorrow morning back to school which is 1600 miles from where she lives. I feel like I am out of time. I can't not go back to school since the semester starts next week. She wants me to go on with my life. I don't know, maybe I will go over tonight to see her. It is all just crazy emotions right now.
1
22 Aug 2016 10:58AM
I am back at school now, but I did go back to see Sara my last night before I left. Everyone on here was right that I couldn't just leave even though I felt like I had said my goodbyes. I needed to see her again. All we did was sit in silence for a while and I just held her. Occasionally we would talk or I would give her a little kiss, but nothing more. Our overall relationship is bigger than anything physical. I really do miss her now that I am back at school. We are facetiming a couple times a day and it is weird, just kind of like we try to act like nothing is wrong. I make sure that I tell her I love her every chance I get just so she knows. I spoke with my parents and told them that if there is any way possible for me to come home for a few days next month to see Sara it would mean the world to me and I will promise to pay them back for a plane ticket. They said they would help me out so I plan on going back home mid-September for a long weekend. Sara also told her mom that she hoped to see me again and if she would be willing to buy my plane ticket home and her mom seemed willing to do so as well.
1
23 Aug 2016 9:59AM
I hope things turn out for both of you, and I really hope she isn't terminal. I hope you get to experience her again. Good luck man, chin up.
1
23 Aug 2016 7:21PM
Thank you for your kind words. As much as I pray and I wish for some miracle to happen, the reality is it won't. She is off of all treatment now and just receiving pain meds, etc to keep her comfortable over the however long she has left. Doctor said yesterday that while there is no definitive timeline, at some point her body will begin to shut down and when that starts it will go quick. I just hope we have 2 and a half more weeks until I can get home again.
